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:: 2004 23 December :: 6.11 pm

been a while
im going to change this all. it's been a while since i updated. but im gunna have this a whole new look!.

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:: 2004 5 October :: 4.20 pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: sunshine

o my goodness =]

I getta see muh baby ina min
I <3 Gary!!!

well yeah byes!

`Ali Jean* <3

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:: 2004 23 August :: 1.38 pm
:: Mood: og so happy!!!
:: Music: salt shaker <3

wO0t wO0t

I got muh Liscence yayayayay!
and muh Schedual for school

here it is:::

A Tri 1 Studay hall Cummings?
[thought he was retiring]
A Tri 2 Cooking Chambers
A Tri 3 Child Developement Chambers
B Tri 1 Study hall Cummings
B Tri 2 Study hall Cummings
B Tri 3 Clay Neeson
C ALL Studio Art Neeson
D ALL Int. Alg II Garey
E Tri 1 Exel/Ppt *computer* Simard
E Tri 2 Study hall Cummings
E Tri 3 Study hall Cummings
F ALL Eng III Stafford
G ALL US History [general] Kenneally

I met this amazing girl Malissa
shes best friends wif Jillane
well her other, I am too =]
I am honored to be equal best friends
with Malissa shes so nice and sweet
and we became fast friends
[we can be the 3 muskateers] *tehe*

well I'm out for now

x0x
Ali Jean
<3

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:: 2004 15 August :: 8.38 pm
:: Music: unpretty

trying new looks.. bad huh?

finally a new computer I didnt get the other 1 fixed
I like this one tho I can do n e hting on it
and change all these pages around
and I have 3 times so far but I dont like em

<3

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:: 2004 11 August :: 1.01 pm
:: Music: pieces of me

cant wwait to get muh good comp back

I'm using woohu again
I just gotta get my computer back
and I'll start updating again
and change the layout and all

<333 Ali Jean

any `one* thought?

:: 2004 9 August :: 3.15 pm
:: Music: you're still the one <3

ooh ooh lookie I updated

See how ya day going I know it's stressin on ya
I know them times get hard that's why I'm checkin on ya
It's yours truly boy, I got little message for ya
Anything n e 1 can do, boy I can do better for ya
Cause

When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

I heard your friend tell a friend that told a friend of mine
That you was thinking that we should do it one more time
If this ain't the truth then hopefully it's not a lie
Cause I ain't got no issue with hitting that another time
We never had a problem with gettin it done
Disagreed upon a lot, but the sex wouldn't one

- Nelly's new song

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:: 2004 8 July :: 9.07 am
:: Music: ??

b-day

yesterday was muh b-day

chuggerz84: well happy bday:-*
ikilledgodsmonky: happy birthday darlin
GuessWutiWiggle: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALI - love ya for eva
oXKinkyKristieXo: happy birthday ali
milkman81187: happy birthday beuatiful wish i was there to celebrate with yah love you lots :-*:-*
B123cutie: happy birfday hunny face
B123cutie: :-*
XX DR FLUFF XX: Happy motha fluffin birthday LOL AHHHH HA HA :-P
OxInAtaH pLaYaH: Happy birthday BOO :-P
imadawl2006: happy birthday darling... i texted you n sorry i couldnt come... :-(
JeTta FuLlEfFeCt: oh yeah happy birthday :P

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:: 2004 4 July :: 10.36 pm
:: Music: hey mamma ;]

oh oh its soon!

so yeah just a couple days
n I'll be 16!!!!!
whew!! it's posed to be "sweet 16"
but whats so sweet?
life kinda sucks...
but oh wells
*mwahs*

Ali Jean ----<3*

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:: 2004 3 July :: 1.13 pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: MaNdY mOoRe - HaVe A lItTlE fAiTh In Me

HaVe A lItTlE fAiTh In Me

When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Let my love throw a spark
Have a little faith in me

And when the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try baby and
Have a little faith, faith in me

Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me, oh and
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith, faith in me

When your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here baby, from a whisper start
To have a little faith in me

And when your back's against the wall
Just turn around and you, you will see
I will catch your, I will catch your fall just
Have a little faith, faith in me

Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith, faith in me

I've been loving you for such a long, long time
Expecting nothing in return
Just for you to have a little faith in me
You see time, time is our friend
Cos the rest is the end
All you gotta do is have a little faith

I will hold you up, I will hold you up and
Your love gives me strength enough to
Have a little faith in me
Oh faith, darlin'

Have a little faith in me
Oh, faith

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:: 2004 3 July :: 1.13 pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: MaNdY mOoRe - HaVe A lItTlE fAiTh In Me

HaVe A lItTlE fAiTh In Me

any `one* thought?

:: 2004 3 July :: 1.13 pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: MaNdY mOoRe - HaVe A lItTlE fAiTh In Me

HaVe A lItTlE fAiTh In Me

any `one* thought?

:: 2004 16 June :: 6.12 pm
:: Mood: feelin like a cowgirl ;]
:: Music: ReD NeCk WoMaN

I wanna be a cowgirl.. I already got tha southern down =)

Gretchen Wilson Redneck Woman Lyrics

Well I ain't never
Been the barbie doll type
No I can't swig that sweet champagne
I'd rather drink beer all night
In a tavern or in a honky tonk
Or on a 4 wheel drive tailgate
I've got posters on my wall of Skynard, Kid and Strait
Some people look down on me
But I don't give a rip
I'll stand barefooted in my own front yard with a baby on my hip

Cause I'm a redneck woman
And I ain't no high class broad
I'm just a product of my raisin'
And I say "hey y'all" and "Yee Haw"
And I keep my Christmas lights on, on my front porch all year long
And I know all the words to every Charlie Daniels song
So here's to all my sisters out there keepin' it country
Let me get a big "Hell Yeah" from the redneck girls like me
Hell Yeah
Hell Yeah

Victoria's Secret
Well their stuff's real nice
Oh but I can buy the same damn thing on a Wal*Mart shelf half price
And still look sexy
Just as sexy
As those models on TV
No I don't need no designer tag to make my man want me
You might think I'm trashy
A little too hard core
But get in my neck of the woods
I'm just the girl next door

Hey I'm redneck woman
And I ain't no high class broad
I'm just a product of my raisin'
And I say "hey y'all" and "Yee Haw"
And I keep my Christmas lights on, on my front porch all year long
And I know all the words to every Tanya Tucker song
So here's to all my sisters out there keeping it country
Let me get a big "Hell Yeah" from the redneck girls like me
Hell Yeah
Hell Yeah

I'm redneck woman
And I ain't no high class broad
I'm just a product of my raisin'
And I say "hey y'all" and "Yee Haw"
And I keep my Christmas lights on, on my front porch all year long
And I know all the words to every Ol' Bocephus song
So here's to all my sisters out there keeping it country
Let me get a big "Hell Yeah" from the redneck girls like me
Hell Yeah
Hell Yeah

Hell Yeah
Hell Yeah
Hell Yeah
Hell Yeah

I Said Hell Yeah

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:: 2004 16 June :: 9.19 am
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: thats when I love you

sum ppl r just dumb...

well someone said "why does such a hot guy have such an ugly girlfriend?" the answer is... obviously he doesn't.. y would a hott guy ever date an ugly girl?... exactly he wouldn't he thinks im gorgeous n beautiful n what he thinks is all that matters to meh... n u got this from what a pic of me? a bad one at that after I had been walking in the rain.. u dont even know me or know what I look like so let it rest

any `one* thought?

:: 2004 15 June :: 8.24 pm
:: Mood: content

wanna know?
wanna see?

www.livejournal.com/~oxlovinitxo

any `one* thought?

:: 2004 15 June :: 6.11 pm

Since i cant leave a comment ill jus write to you and say sumthing. Dude wtf is wif dat? Whatever fuck it ='(

yeah i luhv u 2, whatever bye.
I thought u luhved meh too? ='(

any `one* thought?

:: 2004 15 June :: 12.51 pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: so yesterday

I hate liers... n thats what u r.. bye!
me: *cough* lying sack of shit *cough*... sorry
Bri: thats okay *cough* I agree *cough*

any `one* thought?

:: 2004 14 June :: 10.59 am
:: Music: landslide

byebye
wow Jillane thats weird...
I got a LJ like 3 weeks ago n me n bri decided
to turn mine to livejournal cuhz all my friends
have it and stuff n I only want my friends to see it
yeah this is my last one on here.. BYE

any `one* thought?

:: 2004 12 June :: 6.38 pm
:: Mood: better
:: Music: what she likes

1 call can change n e thing... just him

well Cole Marcus called meh
I love him so much
and he made me feel so much better
he loves me too =)
I am so happy

<3

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, i'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all i've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all i'm lacking, completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation, you take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all i've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and I question where to go
And I don't know what i'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose, there's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world that can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, i'm chasing after you

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm Chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all i've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and I question where to go
And I don't know what i'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you

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:: 2004 11 June :: 10.20 pm
:: Mood: suicidal
:: Music: landslide

my life is over.. are you happy?

the worst place to be is somewhere your not w a n t e d....
yeah so today... I guess me n Jill rn't friends anymore... yeah
I was crying n all then I went inside n got in a fight wif my sister and my dad strted yellin at meh for swearing so I told him to not talk to me n he ran after me n threw sumthing and hit me in the fuckin head wif it... fuckin ass.. n then he told me to get out so I went to the camper.. n he came in n told muh friends all this stuff n looked at meh n said noones cares bout meh so I sat right there n said... do u guys care about meh? and they didnt answer... a true friend would answer that!.. so I started walking down the road I could hardly see from all the tears ya no? I was fuckin histerical... and I was just walking n jade followed me n said she did care n I said if she did she woulda said when I asked her ya know? well she kept following n told meh that I had a good life n my parents loved me blah blah blah.. but she dotn get it.. how my life really is.. I dont tell ppl cuzh I dotn want them to know how bad it really is... ya no? n yeah so she just kept saying so many ppl loved me... n I just finally like 20 mins latah broke down in her arms in the middle of the road on a corner n all I could say was "he fuckin doesnt care, he doesnt call me, he hates me, he doesnt care" n I was talking about Cole .. but I dunno how it all came to that.. just a feeling that was in the back of my mind.. I love him with all that I am .. beyond compare.. and he knows that .. but it dont seem like it n he says he loves meh 2 but then he dont call n is wif his friends always n I dont think he even thinks bout meh... I mean he dont call meh or niuthing.. like im not alive or sumthing.. I mean if he loved me wouldnt he wanna talk to meh? n e ways my dad came along n picked me up n threw me in the fuckin car after telling me to get out.. I just kept crying n telling him to let me go.. I was bound to kill myself.. but jade wouldnt let me.. then jade left cuhz "I dont think she cares" but yeah... n there all mad at meh cuz all I talk abotu is jill n the york boys when theyve been here longer n shyt.. but I talk to them n tell them everything cuzh I cant tell the ppl here... n I mean I dont have n e Yorkers n e more.. cept Josh kinda.. but u no he's wif bri boo now n he always talks to her n i dont mind but he dont talk to me really so i dont have him no more so i dont know what in the hell they are talking about... well I cant be on the computer anymore or have a cell.. it may change but w.e i gtg bye

....and knowing it

I made that in desktop publishing class =)

n thats meh n my babii after we was walkin in the rain =)

n thats my bestest buddy and bestest guy friend n like best friend overall Joshie =)

n thats meh n muh Sammie babii =P

n thats Bri n Sammie at school =P
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:: 2004 11 June :: 9.49 am
:: Music: yellow card ~ Ocean Avenue

mean things where said.. yes.. it wont stop till ya let it go

take meh away...

since that quote caused so much controversy
I deleted it so just stop
It wasn't fair that my friedns can't comment in
my journal cuhz of ppl who dont like me
u wanna bitch at me? IM me
sweetazsugakisez <---- IM that!
don't leave lil comments in here
I want my friends to be able to see this n comment
and they should be able to
and Im done with the fighting.. its forgotten so don't
try and start it again.. just let it go
and 1 more thing.. I called her names yes n im sorry
Ima bitch n yeah.. I just am n that to ppl who r bitches to me
I never said she wasnt pretty
n u all have no right to tell me im ugly
im not ugly n yeah u saw a pic of me WOW
I dont take pictures well at all.. ask n e 1
n I don;t think that Brittany is prettier or not prettier then me
so u cant say that I'm ugly when im not n when she isnt prettier then me
you can think she is cuhz shes ur friend
but I dont care waht you think
Jillane thinks im pretty
my boyfriends n my friends say im beautiful and gorgeous
and waht they think is all that matters to em.. not what you think
so dont try n upset me it wont work
and... just stop it all I have this is the end its forgoten
be mature n stop it too! okay?
SORRY!

guess what? I'm in last period
of the last day of school

for the summer

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:: 2004 10 June :: 12.18 pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: keys in typing class

how I feel

I am so a f r a i d
that once you realize
how wonderful you are
you'r going to ~~leave~~ me

theres only 1/2 day of school left

theres 12 days till Cole Marcus is 18!

theres 27 days till I'm 16

OMFG I talked to Jillane on the phone
that was the best ever I love her so much

my teachers accually letting me update cuhz im usin
like html n stuff
n it is concidered web design
I was jk to do it n she was like yeah
so I was like FUCKIN RIGHT!!!

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:: 2004 8 June :: 10.27 pm
:: Music: I miss my Cole

sorry Jillane

I miss cole

and Jillane I am so fuckin sorry
I just dont like losing you
or almost or w.e happened

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JILLANE I HOPE YO HAVE THE BEST FUCKIN DAY EVER I LOVE YOU

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:: 2004 7 June :: 9.55 pm
:: Mood: happier then ever!!! x 1,000
:: Music: dip it low *wink*

<3 whata great weekend <3

wow... what a great weekend!
I mean jeez..

friday

Caitlin, Jade, Bri, and Sean where over
before sean got there we where hanging in my camper
talking about girl stuff.. and sex n stuff haha
then when sean got they we stopped n he was like
damn I bet I missed all the good stuff?
haha and then we all went to BH
there was like no one there so after I ate a ton
I left, I felt so cloated like I was pregnant haha
n Jade told me to take a test
so I called her she was still at BH
and we told her I was pregnant n she believed it ahaha

Saturday

We got n the care n headed for York =D
I couldn't get ahold of Cole and I was real sad
but we all went to the beach.. Matt's mom took us
then when I got back.. my babii was online
he had been working all day and was goign to bed
so I asked him if he wanted me to call him so we
could get together n hangout n stuff cuhz we missed eachother

Sunday

I called him n Matt took me to go get him =D
and we hung out and went to the docks and walked around
and layed together and saw tim and went back to Josh's after crossing the field o=)
and it started to rain so we was wet when we got back
and after I had to leave my babii.. omg I was so sad to...
we went to BK n I ate alot =P haha YUM!

Today (monday)

told jade the truth
found out my sis was pregnant
and yeah.. here I am haha

school gets out in o3 1/2 days

my b-day is only

wednesday is Jillanes b-day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL I LOVE YOU!!!

and then theres 14 days till Cole Marcus is 18!

my babii's gettin old on me =P
we'll be IlLeGaL for freakin 16 days but oh welll
who cares? I don't =P

well im headed to bed

check out this site

http://www.cardomain.com/id/chevellebabi69ss
and then go to here
http://www.cardomain.com/memberpage/536975/2

I lOve Cole

<3 3o days!

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:: 2004 2 June :: 8.12 pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: SwEeT hOmE aLaBaMa

.. new approach?..
yeah so I re-did this.. its ok.. dont really like it
but I really fucked it up at forst n it was horrid
so yeah anyways

I lOve Cole Marcus
n I love Jillane elizabeth

i live fo them 2
there wut keep me alive

yeah...

<3

ALi Jean

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:: 2004 31 May :: 5.19 pm
:: Mood: happier then ever!!!

he's some kind of wonderful <3

OMFG! I sawed my babii, oh how I missed him
n I love him so fuckin much!!! omg! =D
I'm soO0OoO happy!!! couldn't be happier

yeah well I dont have n e thing else to write

Jilly I miss you! I love u! <3
do u miss me 2? ='(

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:: 2004 29 May :: 6.50 am
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: uhm none.. my radio is in my room

whew's!

OMFG! haha today (well yesterday) was so fuckin
HilLaRiOuS haha... I was in assembly... in it was like
super fuckin quiet... like almost dead silent.. n I
being a goof.. couldn't stop laughing.. I don't even know
why I was laughing in the first place.. I just started
no reason at all... was just laughing n laughing
n ya know when I laugh too hard I snort.
just like lil ones.. not that loud... but everyone was
laughing there asses off at me.. cuhz I was laughing
so our whole corner was like so loud.. n they was all
trying to get me to stop but I couldn't n I was
tappin on my nose trying to stop but I just couldn't
so I was laughing n snortin while.. so at bh everyone was
to make fun of me ya know? it was soooo mean!!!!
but hey I can't help that im so dumb.. I think it's cute
but I suprose it is not... I wish it was though =)

then at BH sum kid wanted to fuck me... uhm no I leave that for ya know...
haha but it was fun .. dancing n stuff... yeahs lol

Jillane I updated JUST FOR YOU!!! I love you!!!
your my best friends n I'd have nothing w/o you
I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!

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:: 2004 27 May :: 5.49 pm
:: Mood: surprised
:: Music: -the reason-

what a day =P
today has been random..
I got an email from someone
only some ppl know who it was
well that convo online turned out good
n I am gunna see them this weekend
but it was totally random
but I guess it's good... cuhz idk
makes me feel better cuhz oof the sit. b 4 wit it
so its ALL GOOD =)... n Im happier now
I dont know why... just am

n today my pants ripped in the ass
it was funny haha.. but I went home
and changed so ppl wouldnt
see my underwear

yeah well leave a message

Jillane you are the best ever u know I'd be ~~nothing~~ without you n id just die!!! I love you so much.. thanks for everythignt.. best friends forever

<3
Ali Jean

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:: 2004 25 May :: 11.40 am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Meant to live

we where meant to live for so much more

if you think about it.. you can try and try
but that thing u want will never be yours
and things u want to happen never do
and things never happen the way you want
expecially when u really really want them too
and things always seem to happen when u least
expect them too... so I have decided... that maybe
if I give up for a while... on everything.. just maybe
something good will happen to me for once..
but i dont have much hope at this point
so I highly doubt that will EVER happen...

but that all doesnt matter cuhz...

I will always have the best person EVER
in my life!!!!....
Jillane Elizabeth Dahms!!!
is the best person.. EVER!!!
shes my best friend and Im so proud!!!
I would be absolutely ~~NOTHING~~ without her
Jillane! NEVER LEAVE ME ='( i'D DIE!!! I love you!!! always
thanks for everything

n also thanks to Joshie, Caitlin, n Brianna
I'd also be lost w/o them

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:: 2004 24 May :: 8.32 pm
:: Music: Mario wynas- I dont wanna know

my mom beat me!

me n my sis got into it
n she got in my face so I hit her in the face
so my mom comes after me n tells kendra
that shes gunna hit me back for my sis..
n yeah I hear that so I go inmy room n get a can of sumthin so she cant hit me... like as
a weapon or so shed stay away
but she baked me into my desk n gabbed
both of my arms n I pushed her away n she
shoved me back into my desk
so my ass n back hurt n I can move really
just crawl around and stuff... thats all
n then she threw that can of stuff at me once
n it hit me then she picked it up
and threw it again n it hit my t.v.
I hate my life .. nothings goign right
this is really that time that I need *him*
n he always used to be here for me to talk to
but we dont really talk n e more... I think that
I annoy him or something... I cant help it
I wish he liked me.. cuz I really like him ='(
my life's so messed up... just know
that if I had him I could deal with the rest
I just things where like they used to be with us

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:: 2004 23 May :: 2.58 pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: leave (get out!)

yeah =P

uhm yeah so im a bitch now...
thats what people think...
better then a slut n stuff like b 4?
yeah n e ways ... im only updating a lil cuhz I like having so many responses lol.. n I just edited the last one so I coulf keep em

I know Ima goof hehe

do u ever wonder wut will happen in the future?
who you will be with?
who your friends will be?
what woulda happened if 1 lil thing was different?
I wonder... but then again I know how I want it to be
but never happens the way you want it to

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