Crimson Melodies

:: 2008 18 March :: 4.31pm

I walked miles through the city and recognized
nothing as a giant claw ate at my
stomach while the inside of my head felt
airy as if I was about to go
mad.
it’s not so much that nothing means
anything but more that it keeps meaning
nothing,
there’s no release, just gurus and self-
appointed gods and hucksters.
the more people say, the less there is to say.
even the best books are dry sawdust.

:: 2008 16 March :: 9.09pm

this summer will be amazing.
i am done with caring what people think.

i will get drunk and high and i will go to the beach.
i will play at the park and at elementary schools, and i will love.
i will love the world and the sun and the sky, and my boyfriend.

i will chase down the ice cream man and eat choco tacos.
i will listen to records and watch my lava lamp.

i will go barefoot.
i will go camping.

life is so beautiful.

2 Executed Notes | Leave Note

:: 2008 4 March :: 11.07pm

i've been thinking far too much lately.

:: 2008 27 February :: 8.56pm

RIP grandma.

September 11, 1919 - February 25, 2008.

:: 2008 14 February :: 10.01pm

john rinka is the sweetest boy ever.
he took me downtown to a restaurant on the riverfront...
it was right at sunset, and the outside seating was heated.

this is the first valentine's day i've spent with a boy,
and i had such a wonderful time.

i love him.

:: 2008 18 January :: 9.08am

in you i see something pure and beautiful.
in you i see hot tea, coffee, and cigarettes.
in you i see. simplicity.

in you i see white russians and leg warmers,
and dance parties of 4.
i see scrabble and scattegories and mouse trap.

i see good times and good music in your old buick.
i see a nervous wreck,
and i see an angry black woman screaming inside of you.

:: 2008 12 January :: 9.59am

writer's strike,
please... don't see this as a bad thing.
use this as an opportunity to pick up a book and read.

:: 2007 19 December :: 9.34pm

i couldn't ask for more right now.
i am so content and i can't stop smiling.

this is so wonderful.
he is so wonderful.

:: 2007 9 December :: 1.22am

someone please,
help me cure my writer's block.

:: 2007 29 November :: 11.22pm

dear woohu,

please describe me.

:: 2007 17 November :: 11.08pm

i can never find balance with anything in life.

i'm really inconsistent with almost everything i do...
i'm really inconsistent with almost everything i am.

it is worrisome.

:: 2007 6 November :: 8.39pm

I don't know why I have to, but man I must move on
I love my time here, didn't know 'til I was gone
November shadows, shade November change
November spells sweet memory, the season blue remains

:: 2007 4 November :: 10.39am

Like Japanese poets who capture a Summer in only three lines,
With just one kiss, I want to tell you but it takes all night.