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amajules

:: 2003 16 October :: 10.35pm

hey Amanda...
how has everything been going with you?
as far as things with me go...
my english teacher is having us do some research on colleges... and she also wants us thinking about what our possible major would be...
do you know what i realized?
my friend lauren said this, and it's been a topic of talk recently also with my chorus teacher (who is amazing) - -
what is my passion in life? - you have your theatre... i have; what, talking to people? writing? i don't even know... i guess it's not a bad thing, and certain people figure it out at different times.. but my chorus teacher, while interviewing me was like, "what do you wake up every morning thinking about?" "what do you spend your time looking forward to?" etc. etc...
i know i'll find it out... and i know that every day God is doing something new in my life, as long as i let Him - He'll help me to know me, and to find my passion... and so i am just waiting... :)
so there's my thoughts for tonite, i should be going...
gnite dearest
Julie x
p.s. - i tried calling you; it rang twice, and then sounded like a dial up connection: wierd
pps - i've recently also been realizing (with the help of my mom and also just my thought processes...) how much of a risk it is to show someone who you are; or to pursue a friendship; or to get to know someone.. it's a risk worth taking, right? today, i took some more risks than usual. and if i get hurt, God is still faithful :)

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amajules

:: 2003 13 October :: 10.38pm
:: Mood: laid back

nothing exciting
Hey Amanda
well its too late of course as usual to start my long story - if i ever get the chance to, i'm not sure. doesn't seem that big a deal now anyway, but idk...
today was a pretty quiet day (no school, yay!) and i spent the whole entire time working on a stupid history paper. ugh so upsetting, but my own fault for not working on it on friday night when i had nothing to do... it was such a gorgeous day though, a little cool but beautifully sunny - perfect day for picking apples hehe - (of course i couldn't go, stupid paper. bleh.)
so yes anyway at around 5pm lauren came over and oh yea - it's mikester's bday today! he's now eleven! ... so he opened his gifts and then i went over to laurens house; stopped at a diner on the way over where this one guy Garrett works - it's our prayer to become two of his close friends :)
...hmm, what else... well on saturday one of my friends from college had come home so i spent some time with her, and then me mike and my parents drove to new jersey (actually i drove!) ... sunday was church and later dan, brett, amber+ siblings came over for mike's bday - lots and lots of fun... ever since my fast, friendships have been unspokenly (not a word sorry) different. not necessarily in a bad way... but they've been different... like between me and everyone... idk... things'll work out. oh, i just remembered also - - me and amber were talking about compiling a "Impact/Pure Life" photo album - i told her i would ask you about some pictures that you have, if you wouldn't mind sending, whether through mail or email - if that's okay, if not then that's okay too... doesn't have to be right away or anything... i ended up making a collage with a mirror as a background; and also i made a mini collage of pictures with you and me in them in a frame - sigh, we don't have recent ones! ... anyway, i should be going...
wait one more thing - i haven't cut my hair yet - i don't know which hairstylist to go to, and i'm a little nervous! what if it comes out looking awful? aah, i have to decide soon...
okay, well i'm leaving now... again, hopefully maybe this week we could talk on the phone for a little bit...
other than that, i'll be waiting for your reply :)
i love you
~hug~
Julie x

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amajules

:: 2003 10 October :: 11.35am
:: Mood: finally!!!!

~~*hey munchkin! Sorry i haven't been writing much either, these past 2 weeks have been completely, crazy, completely hectic, and completeley full! i still don't have much time to write, in short though everythings goin' cool down here. i'm really pushing through in music and Mr. McBroom is really taking a new attitude w/ me this year, (a good one) i think he's really realizing how far i'm capable of going!
Anyways,
as far as Randy and i ...we still love each other...ain't goin' nowhere's! lol
my status on missing you is still huge and still hurts my heart! (sniff)
i still want to know all that went on w/ Elaine...and don't worry i know it'll be a long story...i'm willing to read it lol
school is still great! oiy vay! i'm so happy for me and my success! lol
i wish you were here to see and share all my smiles
i gotta run for now though hun...continue your story though!
luv you much my Julie-girl!*~~
~*Amanda*~

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amajules

:: 2003 8 October :: 9.22am
:: Mood: not as happy

hey again amanda,
sorry i haven't been able to finish my story - - the last time i came in here during study hall to write, the internet wasn't working - of course ... so yea, same thing is going on now - i can't really write because i have tons of work to do - but i did want to mention - that 1. i had a dream about you/with you in it the other day and 2. i'm hoping to be able to call you sometime this week - if you read this, which day would be best?
i'm home any night except for saturday, (and i have no school this coming monday! yay :) )
k well i gotta sign off, i will write/talk to you soon!
I love you lots, and miss you
xoxo
Jules

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amajules

:: 2003 5 October :: 9.05pm

wow, amanda,
i just don't know where to start, i have been so incredibly happy these past few days - i can't believe how good it feels to have no complaints about anything, and to just be fully able to ENJOY life - FINALLY! i'm like emotional about it, that's how much of a relief it is lol...
alrite so yes, where to start - -
first off, your classes - amanda i am so incredibly happy for you, that is amazing - i always knew you had way more potential as far as your grades went, and to know that you are getting these grades is just another reason for me to be happy :)
and the whole "re-discovery of randy" (hehe) - does not sound wierd at all, there are always aspects to a person that you'll continue to discover no matter how much you hang with a person - - my parents always say that every once in a while they STILL learn something new about eachother - (25th anniversary - October 28th!!) and goodness, when am i meeting this man of yours? i can't take it anymore! lol...
next topic - your mom, - - for some reason seems like a sensitive subject that i'm not sure how to respond to, except to say that i will pray for her - and i'll tell my mom to do the same (without telling her why, assuming you wouldn't want me to...) - - at the same time tho, i feel like as if you should also pray, no matter how much you may dislike her - and your prayers may result in her finding God again, there is always always hope - i remember the time where you wanted nothing to do with God, yet its like you totally started over, and from talking with you not only on here but also on the phone, i just sensed a dramatic change in you - a beautiful one... let yourself have compassion for your mom - - ~~~~~SOMETIMES, LOVE IS A CHOICE~~~~~
i always have to remind myself to not taking my parents for granted - sometimes i almost feel bad/guilty for having parents such as mine - although i have realized a couple of times - - some people can work through when they have family problems - i, for one, know that, being the person that i am, would've easily crumbled without the parents that i have, and God chose to give me different struggles in my life... idk, just a thought...
on to randy's mom...goodness gracious, i am not exactly sure what i would do.. altho somehow i trust that randy would be firm enough if he had to with his mom - and she obviously hasn't given you a chance, like some people unfortunately choose not to do... one day, she may come to question herself as to why she does what she does - and i have faith that you two will actually become friends one day - may not be soon, but one day, it will happen. just keep praying. - - and its not wrong for you to care, not one bit.
and oh my goodness - i will pray EVERY DAY that i'd be able to spend the summer with you! ESPECIALLY for your wedding! aaahh, so much fun and excitment, wow - can't contain it! :)
hehe, okay, i'm calm now...
alritey - so, since i've last written to you (it's really been a while, hasn't it?) ...
in fact, right after i wrote that huge long entry to you (the God is great one) - - i found myself dialing elaine's phone number, unsure of what was going to be said - but she was home and not busy and so we were able to talk... for TWO HOURS ... i hadn't want to tell her how i had been feeling and such over the phone, but i found that she was going on vacation for 10 days, and i wasn't sure if i was going to Pure Life practice the next day, and i knew if i didn't say anything nothing would change... and so yea, i'm not going to go into detail here, because i have to be getting off soon...
but goodness really quick, here i go:
ah wait, no i've taken too long - hehe, it's 10pm, i'm getting the "Juulliiee" up to bed call.
so i will write to you tomorrow morning in study hall!
i love you so.
~Your Julie-girl~
(i like that hehe)

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amajules

:: 2003 3 October :: 11.10am

Wendy Darling
~~~Close? No...it's right on~~~
~*Amanda*~

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amajules

:: 2003 11 September :: 10.16am
:: Mood: chipper

Hey baby! Well besides today being Sept. 11...(moment of silence) today is also opening night for Funny Girl. Julie i wish sooo badly that you were here to see this! i did last night's practice run-through and i made my director cry. She was so proud of me. but anyways...i'm doing tonight (11th) and tomorrow (12th), then mom has Sat. and Sun. (13th &14th) For next weekend mom has Thurs. and Fri. (18th & 19th) and i have closing Sat. and Sun (20th & 21st) I'm sooo excited! Still tired, but excited! oh yeah, my throut has been sore, so just keep me in your prayers, these next today specifically for my voice hun! thanx i gotta go run lines! luv ya hun,
~*Amanda*~

>P.S.< I LOVE RANDY!!!!!!!!!!!

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amajules

:: 2003 9 September :: 10.17am
:: Mood: >P.S.S<

Joshua's b-day the 16th (Tuesday) and Matthew's is the 21st (Sunday) if you have time....a card....if not give a call.
luv ya
~*Amanda*~


read previous this is a >P.S.S<

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amajules

:: 2003 5 September :: 10.17am
:: Mood: bitchy

I'm really glad your first couple of days are going well i prayed about them for you. And of course it's God who stuck you in all of their classes...so...Kudos to you! lol. Hopefully you read my mood at the top and i really apologize for it but it's true. It's not b*tchy mad, it's b*tchy indescribable. like i'm over tired, over worked, over stressed, OVER ANNOYED! lol So i just need to vent:
~*Speaking of anniversaries, Randy and I are supposed to be celebtrating our 7 month(can you believe it) this Sat. the 6. but....he has work from 9-4pm then band practice for the game that evening starts @ 1pm so since he's gunna be late for that, he has to go there straight from work. The to the football game, and he has to be there the whole time So who knows what time he's getting out. Me? I got chores in the morning then practice for Funny Girl in the evening ...which....will got to probably 11-11:30pm . (gasp) i'm falling asleep in like every class b/c i'm not getting home till 11:00 not sleeping till 12:30(gotta talk to Randy sometime!) and i'm up @ 7am. Not to mention a few weeks before school even started my going to bed time was anywhere from 1:30-2:00. A million people are expecting a million things and i'm falling apart out of their sight and they just don't know. I had two papers due today, and i got the first one(english) pushed to Mon. but i don't think i'll be that lucky w/ the 2nd teacher. (gasp again) Julie i can't even express just HOW exhausted i am....i'm literally running just on the food i eat...which isn't much to begin w/.
On a good note Randy suprised me yesterday! he called (and woke me up) saying he was in the area and wanted to stop by. so i told him sure and asked where my area is....so i'd know when he'd be here and he goes "Your driveway! Bye!" Julie, i went flying off the couch to the door, threw it open, and jumped on him!
He's so good to me Julie it's the most amazing feeling to have this person that you love more than the air you breathe, care and love you just as much, and isn't afraid to let you know it. It's amazing to feel this love. Sigh.....i'm pathetic now Julie...Randy made me go soft...lol
Anyways i should probably wrap this up i got some stuff to do.....i love you babe!
~*Amanda*~

>P.S.< Snow Days? What Snow Days?! lol

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amajules

:: 2003 4 September :: 11.40am

~well actually i figured out how to get around the block the school puts on this site, so i'm typing from my 2nd period GEP class. It's a class where you get your class taught to you on a computer system...guess what...it's my second week doing this course...and i finished it today! it lets you go at your own pace, there's no ciriculum! so i'm done! woohoo! also i can hook onto the instant messenger from this computer so i talk to Randy all 2nd period b/c he's sitting in class at Coastal w/ a computer! if you ever have a day off but i'm in school, i'm on from 10:10-11:40...speaking of which it's 11:38! gotta run! i luv you!!!!!
~Amanda~

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