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:: 2012 15 November :: 10.34am
:: Music: SURFIN BIRD

Let's go to hell together
It might not make a lot of sense at first, just bear with me until about :40.

2 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?


tabletop

:: 2012 12 November :: 4.24am

I'm still surprised you can be born in the 90's.

6 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?


tabletop

:: 2012 5 November :: 7.59pm

VOTE
This country is screwed up on so many levels you need to fight two bosses to see them all.

How does it feel?


tabletop

:: 2012 3 November :: 9.30am

The best is yet to come and babe won't it be fine.
You think you've seen the sun but you ain't seen it shine.

How does it feel?


tabletop

:: 2012 22 October :: 10.52pm

I said hey
what's going on?

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gillette

:: 2012 9 October :: 4.14pm

I feel like I'm losing my mind. I can't deal with real life. Why am I so weak? I have a bachelor's degree that I can't do anything with except go to grad school but that seems to overwhelming for me to even think about. Every time it crosses my mind that I need to apply, I quickly think of something else. It's like I'm trying to sabotage myself. Next month I have to start paying back all of my student loans and I have a job making $11/hour. I also am going to be getting less on my paychecks b/c I need to start paying for benefits. I just want to run away and not deal with anything. I had this magical life pictured in my head that I would go to college, go straight through to grad school, become a speech pathologist, have money and not struggle like my parents. It seems like that is too far out of my comfort zone and what I'm familiar with. I'm familiar with pain, no money and struggle. My mom struggles every day and cries to me b/c they can't afford fuel oil or the bills. I literally feel like I want to bash my head into a wall everyday b/c of how my life has turned out. And it's nobody's fault but my own. I hide from everything I should be doing and then sit here and cry b/c of how it is.

I'm literally afraid to check my cmich email b/c my two professors that said they would write letters of rec for me have probably been emailing me wondering if I died or something. Why am I afraid to do GOOD for myself?

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tabletop

:: 2012 2 September :: 1.52pm

Your love is one in a million
You couldnít buy it at any price.

But of the 9.999 hundred thousand other loves,
Statistically, some of them would be equally nice.

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tabletop

:: 2012 1 August :: 10.49am

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tabletop

:: 2012 29 July :: 9.24pm
:: Music: Harder Better Faster Stronger - Daft Punk

My life is a lot like Kevin Spaceys in that American Beauty movie. All I do is smoke pot, work out, work a shitty job and try to bang Mena Suvari.

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tabletop

:: 2012 15 June :: 6.50pm

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tabletop

:: 2012 28 May :: 4.19pm

I've got so much to talk about!
don't make me try
cause I dont want to let you
I dont want to let you down

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tabletop

:: 2012 24 April :: 8.10pm

whoops.

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tabletop

:: 2012 21 March :: 6.30pm

Our Father, who art in memory,
Virtual be your name.
Your bit stream come, your mark-up be done,
On Earth as it is in binary.
Give us this day our daily news,
And forgive us our torrents,
As we have also forgiven MegaUpload.
And lead us not into Reddit,
But deliver us from goatse.
Amen.

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tabletop

:: 2012 27 January :: 7.29pm

RAGE RAGE RAGE
Those tomatoes are peeled with chemicals! Unlike Hunts, which is peeled with steam, which is made from superheating a motherfucking chemical. Fuck you guy who hides in endcaps.

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gillette

:: 2012 20 January :: 6.43pm

So I start therapy on Tuesday. 3 kindergarteners and 1 5th grader. Not sure what I'm going to do, kind of frantic but excited at the same time.

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