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2006 2 June :: 6.40pm
:: Mood: all mixed up.
:: Music: marilyn manson - lunchbox
kill me.....
everything sucks anymore
i try so hard for people but nothing ever turns out right.
we fight, we love..we hate.. its just a fucking cycle.
theres just alot of shit going on that i cant quite explain.
i just want everything to be alright.. and it never will be.
i want to be happy. for the 43903 time!!! im so done.
i.. i dont know
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2006 14 May :: 10.54pm
5-14-06
welp today since it was mothers day i made my mom dinner, got her flowers and a card.. and called it a day lol
friday and saturday i had massive amounts of alcohol in my system. woo wee! anyways. it was a goodddddd weekend.
very good weekend.
<3
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2006 12 May :: 2.29pm
i haven't added an entry in forever on here..
sorry people
but WHATever i say anymore.. doesn't matter.. because it's never entertaining its all boring and what not on the same routine. hah! seriously.. but overall i've been alright had to go to the doctors a few times because of a few minor complications. and My gram has been real sick lately; just sucks i can't go get her.. oh well. my friends have been acting weird.. i miss alot of them! and i've been doing the same thing everyday.. i'm single because men tend to suck ass LoL. yeah...and schools almost out and i'm sooOo fucking excited!! omfg. YES! woooo hoo..
<3
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2006 6 May :: 4.15pm
well everything has been fuckign shit lately.
i dont do anything besides drink, smoke, and other things..
my life is sucky.
i do the saem thing everyday
and i dont have a job
oh yippiieee!
UGH!
im sick of this fucking SHIT!
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2006 23 April :: 3.18pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: atreyu - x's and oh's
er.er.
wow lots of shit have been going on besides me being depressed all the time..
my friend selenas dad got shot do i had to bare with her and go with her to the hospital to see him; so therefor i missed jenas party.. ONCE AGAIN!.. :(
cousin is in rehab while the other had passed on.. ugh
i've lost alot of things, and alot of friends.
i have.. no job
i have.. NO money errr
i wanna be happy..
all i want is to be happily ever after; like asap!!!!!!!!
im such a complainer.
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2006 17 April :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: DEPRESSED
:: Music: Twiztid- afraid of me
:(
i wish i could tell you how i feel.
but its so fucking hard; and it hurts like crazy
But i have developed a strong likeing to you....
i just wish u could see that i could do so much more what she can, and i would give you everything that i possibly could
BUT NOONE EVER SEES THAT
cause i never get a shot at anything!
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2006 15 April :: 4.51pm
nothing fucking matters anymore
fucking seriously....
im pretty sure theres something going on between my bestfriend and our one friend... and if so that is not good and its pretty low. UGH! its kinda sickening and its pathetic; but i have no room to talk.
and how about i love being used
its always going to happen to me
forever
i'll never be MOTHERFUCKING HAPPY.
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2006 28 March :: 9.51pm
:(
fucked up shit right here
i went to the family doctor today.. i have to go for therapy.. for my back and my head trauma i don't remember things because i have short term memory loss.. :(
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2006 26 March :: 2.17am
:: Mood: sore/scared/tired/hurttttinngggg
:: Music: blue october - hate me
scary shit
car accidents suck
i should be in bed but i hurt so bad.
stacey and me were in the front passengers and she was driving
ben and jordan were in the back
soem asshole was on our side of the road on a back narrow road
and he hit us
we got pretty fucked up and had to go to the emergancy room
but we survived. just the car.. is done
i swear i have a guardian angel and i am so thankful that were alright and that im alright..
but we were going 35 and on OUR OWN SIDE OF THE ROAD. fuckign ass was on ours.. ugh it makes me so sick
i never wanna get into a moving device again..err
my head hurts, i have a concusion, i'm bruised and cut everywhere from the windshield bustin all over the fuckin place.., and i have a bad back sprain..so yeah i'm very sore!!!
but ya im happy everyones okay...
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2006 23 March :: 3.46pm
:: Mood: whatever
:: Music: 30 seconds to mars - the fantasy
um. yeah
Past couple days i've been helping Gered and everyone with the kitchen hes remodeling. you know tryin to be a good sport and all. haha. he acts so weird anymore.. but mabey its just me!!. but oh well.. and im still suspended i have 7 more days left LOL YAY!! SO FUCKING HAPPY. WOOOOWEE. of course nothing exciting has been happening its basically the same shit over again and me getting fucked over. but such as life! ♥
Tell you what
truth is<3
Sometimes I miss you so bad
I can hardly stand it
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2006 18 March :: 12.58pm
okay well i havent really been updating lately so i'll just list whats been happening..
got into a fight with my crew; then made up
ex came home for a weekened out of jail.. i got to see him for a half hour.. he said he changed.. WHAT CHANGE? hah
i heard he fucked this fat bitch that i know...eww
im suspended for saying fuck off to a teacher. haha
love this worlddddd
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2006 17 March :: 3.25pm
:: Mood: pissed/happy
suspended for 3 days. so i have a lovely 5 day weekend. haha
stupid fucking teachers!!!!
um ya i love life. =p
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2006 11 March :: 1.58pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: killswitch engage - the end of heartache
Oo
nothing has changed; everything still remains the same.
ive been hanging alot of fun though lately.. but besides gered, fat e, and stevie gettin mad at me.. for me wanting to hang out with my cousin & a few old friends.. wtf? honestly so fuckin gay!! whatever though.. i'm always gettin put down for stupid shit.. UGH!
i got a phone call yesterday in gym class (4th pd) and it was my ex.. hes home til monday and then in another 10 days he will be home for good.. hes been gone for almost a year! wow crazy shit.. but ya i went to say hi and it was so weird; but i liked it.
anyways lastnite was interesting we all got drunk at durbins house haha and my cousin made someone eat fucking dog food cause he told him it was coco puffs LMAO! (sick).. but ya i got pretty shitfaced=)
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2006 5 March :: 12.58pm
:: Mood: fucking kill me
:: Music: Citizen King - Better days
fucking shit man.. GOD!
it hurts to fall for another; i haven't hurt this bad in a long time..
i wish i could understand; i could give you what shes able to provide & more. I'm just as good.. i promise!!
UGH!!!! :(
--lastnite i went drinkin over gereds; just like every weekend.. it never changes...
--got alil fucked up.. and got emotional
yeah that was my nite.
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2006 4 March :: 7.32pm
ooOo yes!
lastnite..
was..
amazing..
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