2008 4 July :: 2.28am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: katy perry [i kissed a girl]
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I deleted all of the old entries and will now be using this blog to talk about me mostly (my thoughts, opinions, favorite things, etc.). I plan on keeping up with it pretty regularly, so give it a try.. you might like what you find.
(((edit))) 9-2-09: for real this time :)
2004 10 November :: 6.49pm
Hour 46 of my fast. It feels great. I`ve drank coffee (no sugar) and one energy drink. I`ve gotten dizzy quite a few times, but never enough to bother me.
I got up & met my mom & some people she works with at huddle house for "breakfast." I had like, 5 cups of coffee. Then, I went to the eye doctor. They had to order my contacts `cause they didn`t have them in. I also got my hair colored & trimmed. I got to school at 12 & left again at 2. Had to run by the bank & then go get my nails done. They are gorgeous. =)
Went to Justin`s before he hadta go to work. I think I`m going to P&W`s tonight `cause no school tomorrow. Love y`all.
2004 1 November :: 10.04pm
Okay, I`m not sure why I`m here, but I am.
Body image= down the drain.
& the only thing I know to do, is use control.
& I don`t wanna pull that shit again.
I don`t wanna go three days without eating a damn thing.
But, I simply have to.
& This will be where I write about that `cause no one really reads it & I can hopefully keep it..
I just can`t.. feel good about myself.
I`ve put on more than a few pounds.
I`m beginning to look like the average girl & I can`t do that.
So, starting tomorrow, 0NE meal.
& If I can, N0 meal.
My biggest problem will be Justin.
He WILL notice, without a doubt.
We eat 24/7 & that`s more than likely the reason for all of this.
So, I really don`t know what to tell him..
But, I cry when my pants are tight.
IF I D0 EAT (SMALLER PORTIONS)
-BAKED POTATOES (MY WEAKNESS)
-CHEESE (AN0THER WEAKNESS)
-C0MING HOME & GRABBING SOMETHING TO EAT (I D0 THIS EVERY DAY)
-MUNCHING ON CANDY/CH0C0LATE