2004 1 November :: 10.04 pm
Okay, I`m not sure why I`m here, but I am.
Body image= down the drain.
& the only thing I know to do, is use control.
& I don`t wanna pull that shit again.
I don`t wanna go three days without eating a damn thing.
But, I simply have to.
& This will be where I write about that `cause no one really reads it & I can hopefully keep it..
I just can`t.. feel good about myself.
I`ve put on more than a few pounds.
I`m beginning to look like the average girl & I can`t do that.
So, starting tomorrow, 0NE meal.
& If I can, N0 meal.
My biggest problem will be Justin.
He WILL notice, without a doubt.
We eat 24/7 & that`s more than likely the reason for all of this.
So, I really don`t know what to tell him..
But, I cry when my pants are tight.
IF I D0 EAT (SMALLER PORTIONS)
-BAKED POTATOES (MY WEAKNESS)
-CHEESE (AN0THER WEAKNESS)
-C0MING HOME & GRABBING SOMETHING TO EAT (I D0 THIS EVERY DAY)
-MUNCHING ON CANDY/CH0C0LATE
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