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:: 2004 26 October :: 6.13 pm
:: Mood: OMGWTF?
:: Music: Brand New - The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot

Shit Happens
Have you ever had one of those days where nothing goes right, so the next day you stay home and everything seems even shittier? yeah.heh.

1 cut myself today. | it's all for you.

:: 2004 26 September :: 12.35 pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: Eighteen Visions - Bleed By Yourself

Woah, i haven't updated in like, forever! sorry guys, i've just been really busy with school and marching band. ya know,all that jazz. For a while there, i was considering deleting this journal because i put some pretty personal stuff in here and a ot of people i know can just click the link and read any of it. But , then i was just like aw screw it. Maybe, this will give people a eral taste of who I am.I gotta go do some home work , but ill be back later to update some more i promise.

it's all for you.

:: 2004 31 August :: 6.43 pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Hunter Revenge - 24 hour party zone

I'm sorry i haven't updated in like...forever. Anyways, school started made some new friends.Lost my phone on the first day. and the mother fucker who took it wont give it back. so i canceled the service and im getting a new one. um i joined marching band and uh yeah.

it's all for you.

:: 2004 8 August :: 6.23 am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: AFI-Prayer Position

Read it BEOTCH.
Today i went with my dad to the animal shelter because my mom said she wants a dog. so we get there and the dogs are all barking but, one is awesome and is quiet so we fall in love with him and take him outside to play. so we might adopt him. if we do i'm naming him Bundy. and he has one blue eye and one brown one,just like my cat.
much love,
p.s. David is funny like, woah.

it's all for you.

:: 2004 7 August :: 6.12 am
:: Mood: bouncy

No Poking,hitting,or pushing kimmy off of the top of a couch.
At the partay i got poked,hit numerous times,pushed around,pushed off the top of a couch (ill get one day for that coley) and yeah. I had to pee alot too.weird.

much love,

it's all for you.

:: 2004 7 August :: 6.09 am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: AFI-Chicken Song

You got to fight..for your right..to partay!
I just got back from nicole's party.It was fun.I met Erin she's cool.We talked about AFI...well, mostly Davey but, yeah. Remeber i luff you all. and i shall be posting more often. ::kisses::

much love,

it's all for you.

:: 2004 19 July :: 10.36 am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: AFI-prayer position

I'm back from L.A. It was fun, the best part was Medieval Times. the Tower of Terror at California Adventure was fun too.I got soaked on the roarin' rapids ride. I met another AFI fan there he was cool.yeah, i'm done.bye

it's all for you.

:: 2004 10 July :: 9.09 pm
:: Mood: amused

more funny junk
so, what did you do last night?-me
Your mom.-Nicole

Orlando Bloom is a woman.-me and nicole
shut up!-sarah

Your a jackass.-me to sean

i'm trying to have an intellegent conversation here!-me
with sean?-megan
oh...so youre the intellegent part f the converstaion.-megan

i think dylan's a homosexual and matt is secretly his gay lover.-me

i never kissed a moose.-rodney
me niether.-me
why not?- rodney
it never crossed my mind-me
oh. i think about it a lot.-rodney
are you serious?-me
as serious as a train wreck - rodney
holy shit...you're a freak.-me
and i'm constipated.-rodney

I think i'm dumb.-mike
if you think, you cant possibly be dumb.-me

don't be stupid.-me
sorry it comes naturally-ian
i noticed.-me

it's all for you.

:: 2004 10 July :: 9.04 pm
:: Mood: amused

Funny/weird/dumb things my friends/enemys/i say

you kinky sex fiend!-Rodney


Oh shit i just died!..i think-me

OMYFUGGINGOD!I LOVE YOU!!!!...for pretend.-me

I'm a lesbian.-Nicole at lunch
I know.-me
::laughing::-me and nicole

you smell like fingernails-Ian

I couldn't find my shoe..it was torture-ness

Trimspa baby!-jordan
my-o name-o is-o jolene-o-jolene
wow-o we-o can-o speak-o spanish-o! - Jordan

We're not mexicans-david

Why don't you give christian a blow?-Derek

hahaha she walks like she's all bad!-matt
That's cuz i am bad beotch.- me whispering to jennifer

Hey nicole why is your eyeliner running?-derek
it's benji makeup-me
whos benji?-derek
you know...from good charlotte-sarah
~later after seeing a pic of benji~
ohh! he's scary!look at those tattoos!ferocious!-derek

i scare small children-me to jennifer at bonfantye as little kid stares at me funny

imma slut.-rodney

because my shizzle is too much for your hizzle to handizzle.yo.-me

it's all for you.

:: 2004 10 July :: 11.25 pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Jonathan Rhys Meyers-the whole shebang (from velvet goldmine)

I'm goin' to L.A. tomorrow so i'll update you on how it went when i get back.Wish me luck! ::mumbles:: ...disneyland...happiest place on earth...yeah suuuure

it's all for you.

:: 2004 7 July :: 1.24 pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Jersey-Saturday Night

Hey there
I know,I know, I haven't updated in forever.But hey, nothings really happened but, i'll fill you in on what did. On Sunday we went to see my granparents because they just arrived back from their trip.It wapretty much all about Grandma talking about how great Uncl Matt and Aunt Karen and their kids are. It made me sick. So what? their snobs and do everything perfect, big fucking deal.Then she tries lecturing me on my school -work. She doesn't know how it is these days,she's old, what does she know? Don't get me wrong, i love her and all but, sometimes it's just too fucking much.Grandpa's cool though.Great Grandma always struck me as slightly senile though.lol.Anyways igo to LA this sunday and get to see my other grandparents who are a hell of a good time. They are soo cool, they never act their age, their always saying the funniest things, and they just let us kids be who we are rather than trying to change us.i love 'em.Nick (my nephew) is gonna be going with us!yay!

it's all for you.

:: 2004 2 July :: 12.54 am
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: Avril Lavigne- My happy ending

Yeah, I know, I know. Avril = ew. But, i just like this one song.anyways,Mom's being a bitch, so is Emily.What else is new though? Dad's acting more "menstral" than any of uas women are.sheesh.And Eric is a complete idiot.I'm going to my grandparents on the 4th of July even though i'd much rather go to the Warped Tour , but oh well.I guess i can always be bitchy towards Janay while she's there.That could be fun.ttyl.

it's all for you.

:: 2004 26 June :: 8.40 am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: none

wakka wakka wakka
This morning i got up at 5 . Then, at 6 i went on a walk with Jen and my mom. It was fun we walked for about an hour and a half around the levy.Then we came hpme, i took a shower , did some laundry, and now i trhink I might just go to sleeeeep. =)
much love,

1 cut myself today. | it's all for you.

:: 2004 22 June :: 1.58 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: AFI-This celluloid dream

Daddy's girl...yeah right.
Ok, i wake up this morning and my Dad just starts yelling at me literally the minute i walk out of my bedroom.WTF?He's such an asshole sometimes.

it's all for you.

:: 2004 21 June :: 1.23 am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: the humming of the dryer

hmph.insomnia's a bitch.
I can't sleep.I want to,but i can't.I don't know why but, i can't.poo. I'm going over to Nicole's house today.Sarah will be there too.It should be fun.I re-did my room,i like it.

it's all for you.

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