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:: 2004 20 June :: .29 am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: AFI-bleed black

My Dad has been gone for like 7 hours and i was home alone untl like 4 minutes ago when my sister Cindy came home.Hmph.Not fun.::whines:: im lonely. =(

it's all for you.

:: 2004 18 June :: 1.13 am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: none...still

My Celebrity Family
by popstarprincess
Your Name
MomQueen Latifah
DadLou Pearlman
BrotherPaul Walker
SisterMandy Moore
BoyfriendAshley Angel
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it's all for you.

:: 2004 18 June :: 1.11 am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: none

Probably true...
What will your last words be?
by cum_on_bitch
Your LJ username
Your real name
Your sex
Your age
Your last words will be..."FUCK YOU!"
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it's all for you.

:: 2004 18 June :: 1.07 am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: The Cure-Lovesong

Burn baby Burn
Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
How will you commit suicide?You will set your house on fire and sit alone in the corner as the flames consume you
How many tries will it take?38
When will you commit suicide?June 8, 2025
What will your suicide note say?Unrequited love can kill
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it's all for you.

:: 2004 18 June :: 12.47 am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: The Cure-Boy's Don't Cry

It kinda seems like everything is one big timebomb.When you least expect or least want it,the bomb goes off ,all the shit you don't want to,or don't have the strength to deal with blows up in your damn face.And afterwards you can't do anything , but sit in the ruins and rubble of what you had.and let of the despair seep out like blood from a wound.

it's all for you.

:: 2004 18 June :: 12.28 am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: The Cure- Friday im in Love

wish i could...
Hmph.What do you do when a friend need help ,but you don't know how to help?...don't as me i sure as hell don't knwo. God, i just wish i could be there for her. I mean i only live like 4 or less blocks away , but it still feels like she's so ..distant , you know?I just wish she didn't have to go through all this.It's not fair to her.She's a truly amazing person , but it seems as if most the people around her don't realize it.It's like n a story i read , she holds so much pain in her eyes but so much happiness in her smile.And it hurts to know that she has to go through all of this shit and i can't do a damn thing about it.I just wish there was a way i could make it all better.

it's all for you.

:: 2004 16 June :: 9.36 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: The Misfits - One Last Caress

Hey!Ian came over and we looked at eachothers yearbooks.People insulted him in his.the poor boy.Oh well! In other news, (hehehe in other news! im funnay) his sister Nikki is an evil cheerleader.Yeah, i'm talking to deenie-poo and Kimmy J. in IM, fun! Deena's dress at the dance was so0o0oo0 pretty.Yeah anyways, i wanna go to a concert...like bad.my journal layout is ten kinds of sexy man. LMAO! I really am obsessed with A.F.I. dear god what are they gonna do with me?!?ttyl

it's all for you.

:: 2004 15 June :: 10.50 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: the T.V.

Late nights and water heaters.
I'm reading a book called [u] Running With Scissors [/u] it's wacky,interesting, and crazy all at the same time.I love it. I had a lil too much caffine,so i can't fall asleep.Oh well.Our hot water heater broke, then we called the plumber and he was 2 hours late.No big eal really.I took my shower before it had broken.Anyways i've been reading all day it seems.Yesterday i finished all of [u] The Da vinci Code [/u] and I'm very close to finishing [u] Running with Scissors [/u].Geez, i do believe i'm turning into a bookworm! lol. Well, i'm off to finish my book.Ta!

it's all for you.

:: 2004 13 June :: 8.30 pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: AFI- Halloween

In recent news...
blah.I haven't updated in a while.Well, anyways,the promotion thing took forever and it was like 800 degrees inside.The dance was fun though.Then I had a praty the next day for my band-o buddies.Oh! I almost forgot my gtandparents had come up from L.A. to suprise me for my promotion.And I got flowers freom my grandparents who were in Colorado.Oh! there was a lot of drama at the dance too and at the party./At the party I found out that when we went to disneyland Tyler had a boner on the Haunted Mansion ride and megan grabbed it.lmao! yeah then he dumped her.She's a slut anyways, so he made a smart move.yeah.so.uh.bye.

2 cut myself today. | it's all for you.

:: 2004 9 June :: 8.13 pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: The Rasmus-Guilty

smells like..looks like..could it be summer?almost.
School ends for me tomorrow.Yes, I know school ending on a thursday is quite odd. The promotion ceremony is tomorrow,so is the dance.I bought a cool dress and stuff.It should be fun.Then, on friday i get to have some friends over and we're gonna wear plastic crowns all day.hee.ok bye.

it's all for you.

:: 2004 7 June :: 12.58 pm
:: Mood: dizzzy

ashes ashes..we all fall down.
spinning around the room will make you dizzy.spinning around the room after drinking applejuice and eating a muffin will make you nauseated.

it's all for you.

:: 2004 5 June :: 6.50 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: beastie boys

ha.lmao.isn't it funny how people can be so stupid?

1 cut myself today. | it's all for you.

:: 2004 2 June :: 6.22 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: AFI-The Great Dissapointment

I was just put on hold for 15 minutes.15 fucking minutes.They forgot i was on the damn line.dumbasses.Well, anyways, i'm going to Disneyland ..again.But, this time with my family.Oh goody a 6 hour drive with my 5 year old nephew.I already made sure that everyone understood the fact that I get the back seat to myself.ha.i have a respiratory infection and the 20 min.run is this week and i don't have to do it ha.but, my days ran up so nopw i have to get a doctors note but, he wasn't there,so my mom mioght just pull me out of school 4th period.ha.ow my head hurts.I need to buy my yearbook tomorrow.i also get my "promotion gown" tomorrow too.and tickets for the ceremony.oh joy.sitting on my ass for 2 and a half hours sounds like so much fun.really.blah.
p.s. people suck.get used to it.

it's all for you.

:: 2004 31 May :: 6.53 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Placebo-English Summer Rain

I'm so confused right now.And the people who I normally talk to about it aren't around for me to talk to.It kinda seems like everyone is ignoring me or something and i dunno.I just need to get things straight.

1 cut myself today. | it's all for you.

:: 2004 28 May :: 8.11 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: none

Me and Genessa made-up.were friends again.so it's cool.

it's all for you.

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