Forget your lust for the rich man's gold, all that you need,is in your soul.And you can do this, if you try. All that I want for you my son, is to be satisfied...


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:: 2013 6 January :: 12.28am

I'm searching for a reason to feel for you again.

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:: 2011 30 August :: 11.28pm

My daughter is turning one at the end of this month. Its amazing how much life has changed. I adore her so much and I can't begin to explain how much better my world is with her in it

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:: 2010 17 October :: 2.56am
:: Mood: indifferent

I move around the Internet way too much.

If anyone is interested in reconnecting, find me on facebook. Search "Meg Miley", based in Atlanta. (I previously said to search for "Megan" but FB blocked me out of that account.) I also no longer use Myspace, and rarely ever get on aim (meganlikespants) or yahoo (shirtzors). If you happen to be anti facebook, shoot me an email or something ( Just be sure to remind me you're from this site. It's been so long!

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:: 2010 6 March :: 6.52pm
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: Captiva-Falling up.

How can a heart that once was dead, begin to beat again?
You. You are my reason. You've revived me.
I love you with my entirety.

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:: 2010 18 February :: 8.04am

You'll go to hell
for what your
dirty mind
is thinking.

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:: 2010 18 February :: 8.01am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Nude- Radiohead.

Last night
was insane.

Sean was on the fritz and I don't think I've ever really seen him that heartbroken.
I tried to make it better but I think I just fueled the fire.
I feel bad.
But I think he'll be ok.

I don't know.

I hope he will be.

I have an overwhelming sense to vomit.
I don't feel well at all.
And I hate my make up, it makes my eyes water.
All the time.
It sucks.

You've gone off the rails.

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:: 2010 13 February :: 11.55am
:: Mood: full

Is it over?
I am fine.
Thank you dearly
for your time.

I'll be leaving.
Don't you cry.
I'll be back soon.
At least I'll try...

Can't you see?
There is no time to think

Yesterday's gone.
Tomorrow's here.
Can't turn back now.
I won't quit.

I still love You.
I swear.
I always will.

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:: 2010 11 February :: 8.02am

They always play the saddest songs at starbucks when I'm in a sad mood...

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:: 2010 11 February :: 7.59am
:: Mood: frustrated

She's so much like me, it's effing disgusting. fjkdslfjdl;jfdk;lajfd;lafj;da

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:: 2010 10 February :: 10.24am

I want you here.
Or I awnt someone else.
I want both.
Or. Just you here.
I need you.
This distance isn't going to work anymore.

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:: 2010 9 February :: 8.27pm

I feel so dizzy i think i might induce puking.
Everything is spinning and I can't seem to grasp onto any sort of oxygen.

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:: 2010 9 February :: 8.24pm

Look at me now, A man who won't let himself be.
Down in a hole.
Feelin so small.
Down in a hole.
Losing control.

I'd like to flyyyyyy.
But my wings have been so denied.

I am losing control of everything.
I'm freakin sick of this crap..

I dn't get joy when looking at you anymore.
All I see if a lifetime of mistakes.

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:: 2010 7 February :: 3.27pm
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: The widow.-ACB

I'm holding on, and I don't know why.
I've forgotten why I used to fight.
I have this hope, but don't want to use it.
There's nothing to hope for anymore.

I want to feel, but you don't want me to.
How can I rewrite our past?
I'm putting everything plus one hundred into this
And I can't feel myself anymore.

Combustion. That's my fate.
You're so worth losing myself for.
And I know you'd never let that happen.
But it is. And I am silently fading.

I've been feeling so much for you, that everything else feels dead.
And when things are bad with us
life doesn't exist.

You know more than anything
that it's impossible to restrict my feelings.
They seemed to have gone insane
And there's no stopping them.

I can't make it without you.
because you let me live with you.
and when you want to take it away
it fear i might not be able to make it without you.
I won't tell you, that i can't make it without you
but I am dying. without you
because i am alive. with you.
But I won't tell.
I'll just fall. Secretly in love.
Secretly. I am fading.

I want to be everything you need.
I'm killing my identity just to try.
And it's worth it, you're worth it, always have been.
I'd die for you. I mean it.

I want things. I really do. But i'd still never share them with you.
I am not good enough to ask for anything.
I want to tell you all this.
But I can't.
Because I don't
want you
to think
this is
the same.
as it's been.
And so, I let my feelings remain, hidden.

I think this is...the end.

Fly high...


:: 2010 7 February :: 2.30pm

p.s. Youaretheonlythingthatfeelsright.

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:: 2010 7 February :: 2.25pm
:: Music: To whom it may concern-UnderOATH

Ah, innocense.
Haven't written in what feels like months.
It's only been two days..
That tells you how I've been doing lately.

I feel awful.
And to the very extent it that word.
Things just...Suck.
I want to make them better
but everytime I do, I do something in my fricken subconscious to mess it up. Why must I always ruin things that are good!?

I already miss you.
Even though you're not gone.
I hope your thoughts aren't taking you to places that they don't need to be
and that you still are holding onto that last glimpse of hope.
I'm sorry I am screwed up.
Staying would be suicide...
But. I. love you.
I wouldn't ever ask you to stay. because I know dealing with me is the worst thing ever.
Please...Leave. I don't want to hurt you, and I always seem to hurt me.
I'm sorry I am such a waste.
Forgive me for wanting you to let me in
I know, I don't deserve it.

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