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billyfan (profile) wrote,
on 2-23-2004 at 4:22am
Current mood: sad hurt
Music: crunch crunch ashley is chewing in ma ear!
Subject: hey ya
Sara i dont want to call ya a liar but i read ova ma last 1 and your name was not in it. ne wayz the stuff i said in it was really tru and serious okay, i struggle with a lot of things you guys dont know about, things i dont think i can ever tell ne 1. i mean thhese things hurt really bad, and that is why i am so sad all tha time, i also have clinicle depression, and Wow ash that is beutiful ( sorry ashley is playing a piece of beatoven on tha piano and it is magnificent, i am so proud of her she is so smart and pretty and way confident in herself. well ne way, and scince i have depression that gives me.. umm well let us just say, heart problems and from time to time that is really painful, and i feel like i cannot breath, but that is not tha stuff i wot ell ya. i am sorry sara really i am sorry everyone else, i am just not good wit friends i guess, because i did not have ne beside gel and ao until i was in the sixth grade! i guess i really missed out. i always try to be nice, and when i am not i feel bad and punish myself. i am only hu...well i am created by God ne way. well i just want to say that you guys make me mad suntimes cuz you, always prefer to go and talk to sum1 else instead of me and well everyone does it. well i gotta go ashley want me to play, i am actually pretty good i took piano for 2 years i gues none of ya knew that. ya actually dont know a lot about me truely ya dont. well ya bye
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its blondie. and this is hard to say., 02-23-04 8:29pm

y0u can say ur clinically depressed and i know that- but how does that affect ur memory? because you cant or couldnt remember anything that i was talking about after school. you always say mean things about me even if you wont admit it. if you wont say it to my face, then i can hear you mutter it under your voice. dont you notcie when i walk away at lunch sometimes? well thats why. because i dont want to hurt your feelings. i mean as gay as that sounds cos you hurt me hella bad i should want revenge or something. but i seriously dont. i just wanted to tell you how i felt. by the way, i wanted to tell you not to commit suicide. you have people who care. i used to, but i dont as much know because youve said a lot of hurtful things to me. and i know this is partly my fault and all, because lately i walk away when you wanna talk to me. but you gotta realize that ive given you second and third chances to step it up, but you still are really mean to me. you have friends who care and even if you wont admit it, you have money and parents who would buy you stuff. you know that too.
well this needed to get out. i was a little pist after school cos ronnie was ...being...yknow and so i was angry. and what i said i probably didnt mean that harshly because after all of this the LAST thing i want to do is hurt your feelings.

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Re: its blondie. and this is hard to say., 02-23-04 10:48pm

ya kno, courtney, shez right.

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