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| cutie2187 (profile) wrote, on 3-3-2004 at 4:53pm | |
| Current mood: .... Music: Chevelle Subject: yuckyness vs. yummyness...hmm who will win?!?!?! |
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| anywho today was uneventful...wow i know aa entry..i think too much lately...look what i came up with now...well first let me begin where all this happened...am i wrong that im 16 and want to be with someone and want to be happy and shit...i just want to find someone that when im happy i go to them to share my happiness...then if im sad i go to them for help or talk to them because i know deep down that they are the only person that can make me feel better or cheer me up....i want to feel comfortable with them...and i want to be with them forever when im with them....i want just them...i dont want them to want me to change or i don't want them to change...i just want them to accept me and be happy with me....hehe okay im done with that...just babbling about wanting something...hehe...anywho well a couple days ago me and my friends were talking about the show one tree hill...btw last nights episode was soo ironic...wow...so well people said im like peyton so i was thinking about it and im like wow thats true im like her...she is all emo and depressed but then in school is happy and involved...but only her true friends know her...and thats me...i mean come on....not exactly but to any character on tv thats my soul mate...hehe...today at lunch it was a blast...it was me and marcos in the beginning...i dont know im starting to really like him...but thats beside the point right now...umm yea me anthony "padilla" crystal james and some girls...were just running around being dumb...it was fun....then my first...arg i hate my teacher now...whatever she can suck a dick for all i care...i know i said it...then 2nd...hehe hmm i wasnt in class barely....i got olivia out of 2nd and then we both got marcos out...yup and today he wrote my name down for military ball...i got mike taking nessa...so all me friends are going that are outside my lil groupie...it will be fun....whosh dancing...yey....WORSE part...DRESS ahh..hehe oh wellz...my plan is to wear a dress there and then put pants on under the dress so im good and happy....i hate dresses...oh shit i forgot to tell olivia about shopping saturday...oh wellz tomorrow...and tomorrow i might go with jerrica after school cause me and her need to go out and buy marcos’s b-day gift...hehe wow...he is 16...im older...hehe wow...i know...im a dork...im getting to many crushes now-a-days oh wellz...hmm i wish i had 8th period today...oh wellz i got to go..ttyl bye bye bye Why do I live? Why do I die, Why do I go through life, Always wondering why? The world seems to hate me. They never understand There always trying to mold me Into something grand I’m always criticized I’m always punished for Their Stupid laws Which I really abhor Yet indeed I am mourned By my worst foe Not one of them really cares Their putting on a show Their laughing at me now As I watch from above Its just another Hurt causing shove They one thing I wished for The one thing I needed Was the one thing They hadn’t even heeded All I wanted was For someone to love me For someone willing to Show me mercy. But instead I perished I just gave up and died I chose to get away By committing Suicide I gave up my body I gave into my demise Because I saw through Your detestable lies But I’m still alive I’m still here I just wear a mask Of darkness and fear So remember When your looking at me your looking at someone Who hides to be free. |
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venubian24 | 03-03-04 8:12pm it felt weird not having 8th today.... |
cutie2187 | Re:, 03-04-04 3:53pm yea because of no andrew...hehe |