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| xoxchubbyxox (profile) wrote, on 5-18-2004 at 8:28pm | |
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| basically we are gunna move, there is no turinging back now apparently my mom would have to "find out something really bad about moving at this poiint" to even consider stayong here. i dont understand at all, one moment it was a possiblity, and now, im gone...it just happened so amazingly fast. what about my entire life as i know it? its all gone...how can i accept that? i know i will do my absolute best to maintain my friendships here, but they will fade eventually, and it will never ever be the same. Think about it, when i first move i will call u guys everyday..telling about my new life and how much i miss you and lon got see you...but inevitabley we will not be able to relate to eachothe rin any way and our once strong friendships will drift away. this is unimaginable and extremely hard to accept..i will be in denial forever it seems. i miss u all already..and my nostalgia is already overwhelming...i havent even gone yet ...what will i do without u guys? how will my life go? ...what about natick? im gone...my whole life is slowly slipping away and i am powerless.... here is a recent coversation with lizzy, reading makes me cry... misspigglet3210: ...i think its gunna happen, i talked to my mom and she said she really wants to ad is leaning towards moving...nothing i do can change her mind CocoPuff0210: :'( CocoPuff0210: NO! CocoPuff0210: OMG IM GONNA CRY CocoPuff0210: THATS SOO GAY CocoPuff0210: I JSUT MET U misspigglet3210: lol i know, i feel like its the worst thing that could happen CocoPuff0210: NO UR LEAVEING ME misspigglet3210: i know CocoPuff0210: NO THATS NPT FAIR misspigglet3210: ....i hate her CocoPuff0210: >:o CocoPuff0210: :'( misspigglet3210: i wish i could do something misspigglet3210: maybe i could still see you guys CocoPuff0210: me 2 misspigglet3210: in the summmer CocoPuff0210: id do nething CocoPuff0210: yea misspigglet3210: i would call you...and talk to all the time misspigglet3210: i would do nethign too CocoPuff0210: :'( CocoPuff0210: inm crying misspigglet3210: and she thinks that me moving in with autumn isnt realistic misspigglet3210: me too CocoPuff0210: no but it is CocoPuff0210: if her mom is willing misspigglet3210: i know, but my mom said that if we move, i am coming with her CocoPuff0210: u shoudl tell the ppl at her work to take away the offer misspigglet3210: and it was my only chance to be happy misspigglet3210: lol i know misspigglet3210: i wish i could CocoPuff0210: :'( CocoPuff0210: no CocoPuff0210: this makes me soo mad misspigglet3210: maybe she will come home tomorrow or something after she talks to her boss and say that she decided not to misspigglet3210: me too misspigglet3210: i mean, i met spo many new friends this year, and i know so many ppl CocoPuff0210: wbhat does ur bro say? misspigglet3210: and i know thuis town misspigglet3210: he doesnt care misspigglet3210: like his friends are moving away CocoPuff0210: :'( misspigglet3210: dotn chnage ur sn or nething lol misspigglet3210: well, i still have the summer CocoPuff0210: yes i will keep it CocoPuff0210: and if i cahnge it i will infore u wiht months in advance CocoPuff0210: cuz i can't lose tuc with u misspigglet3210: i wont forget u ever...i will do my best to keep ion contact with u misspigglet3210: lol ok misspigglet3210: i know CocoPuff0210: :'( CocoPuff0210: omg CocoPuff0210: this is soo sad CocoPuff0210: no misspigglet3210: i know, its terrible misspigglet3210: i feel like its so bad that its unimaginable CocoPuff0210: i have a tummy ake CocoPuff0210: :-( CocoPuff0210: :'( misspigglet3210: i wll enver be able to like call u guys after school and stuff to hang out, or walk newhere misspigglet3210: oo lol im sorry CocoPuff0210: its ok CocoPuff0210: omg stop CocoPuff0210: it makes me mad CocoPuff0210: its not fair CocoPuff0210: i liek jsut met u CocoPuff0210: and now ur leaving me misspigglet3210: i know..... CocoPuff0210: i love u u can't leave me... idk what ill do in algebra 2 all alone misspigglet3210: omg i know CocoPuff0210: ill cry everytime i go to class cuz i can't look over at u and laff about somehting CocoPuff0210: omg and the book CocoPuff0210: we have to make 3 copies soo we can all keep one misspigglet3210: i will keep it to remeber u guys....and i will take pcitures if you misspigglet3210: lkol i now misspigglet3210: we should CocoPuff0210: we have 2 misspigglet3210: i will brb....in like 10 mins k? CocoPuff0210: kk misspigglet3210: hello CocoPuff0210: hey u misspigglet3210: my mom said that she has an appointemnt on friday so she would have to pick us up at around 4:30 instead misspigglet3210: have u asked ur mom if you could sleep over yet? CocoPuff0210: yea she said she tell me on wed CocoPuff0210: lol misspigglet3210: lol..ok CocoPuff0210: random day misspigglet3210: yeah lol CocoPuff0210: lol my moms weird liek that misspigglet3210: i have to make a list of thinsg to do beofr ei leave misspigglet3210: i wll help me lol misspigglet3210: u* CocoPuff0210: yea i will misspigglet3210: and i wll get like 10 disposable cameras to take a bunch of pictures CocoPuff0210: ok CocoPuff0210: and get dubbles and send me the ones of me u and nikie misspigglet3210: lol i will make sure to do that misspigglet3210: and of me and u CocoPuff0210: :-D CocoPuff0210: good CocoPuff0210: aww no CocoPuff0210: not good CocoPuff0210: we wound need pic if ur mom wasent makeing u leave CocoPuff0210: :'( misspigglet3210: lol i know, i would ave to visit alot during the summer, and take uu gusy up for a week and come down and satyw ith ppl for a week misspigglet3210: :-( CocoPuff0210: yea CocoPuff0210: omg u could liek live with me for a week CocoPuff0210: that would boo fun! CocoPuff0210: b* misspigglet3210: lyeah! misspigglet3210: lol i need ahug rite now CocoPuff0210: :-)one god thing misspigglet3210: yeah lol CocoPuff0210: i knwo me 2 CocoPuff0210: when ui see u tomorrow im liek not gonan let go misspigglet3210: lol me neoither misspigglet3210: i cant misspigglet3210: its like, unbelievable misspigglet3210: lol i worte something in my journal and i keep reading it and its making me sad misspigglet3210: lol *gives lizzy a hug* misspigglet3210: (it counts virtually) CocoPuff0210: :'( CocoPuff0210: im gonna read it h/o misspigglet3210: lol ok misspigglet3210: on friday, or sooner, i am gunna make a list of things i need to do before i leave misspigglet3210: ......its so hard not to think abou tit CocoPuff0210: :'( CocoPuff0210: i posted a comment and im ballign my eyes out misspigglet3210: omglizzy i cant leave you! i love you!!!!!!!! i am crying too!!! CocoPuff0210: :'( misspigglet3210: its gunna be so hard CocoPuff0210: I LOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CocoPuff0210: i know misspigglet3210: ...i will call u too misspigglet3210: ..and my mom said she would promise to give me back my text massaging if i left CocoPuff0210: omg all i can do is think abot math wihtout u im gonanm b soo alone misspigglet3210: i would text u all the time misspigglet3210: awww CocoPuff0210: and i ahve textign now ill text u back! misspigglet3210: lol i know!! CocoPuff0210: :-D CocoPuff0210: :-\* misspigglet3210: ur thing made me cry CocoPuff0210: trying to smile threw the tears misspigglet3210: ...its so terrible CocoPuff0210: its horrable misspigglet3210: me too misspigglet3210: it really is misspigglet3210: i feel so powerless CocoPuff0210: it makes me soo mad to think about it CocoPuff0210: :'( misspigglet3210: ...mad and sad an nostalgic misspigglet3210: ...what do u have first tomorrow? CocoPuff0210: study misspigglet3210: oh yeah...are u gunna be on time..? misspigglet3210: lol CocoPuff0210: lol i hope misspigglet3210: ok, well i have english and i will meet u outside my room CocoPuff0210: kk! CocoPuff0210: my s? CocoPuff0210: mrs* misspigglet3210: shugrues misspigglet3210: ...near ur locker neway misspigglet3210: lol CocoPuff0210: lol kk misspigglet3210: i am gunna save this convo..and like email it to myslef, and all the otehr ones i have with ppl from now on so i have as many things and emories as possible to hold on to misspigglet3210: i am so afriad that despite all our efforts...that our friendship will slowly drift away CocoPuff0210: :'( CocoPuff0210: no dont say that misspigglet3210: like...the distance will prevent us from being close misspigglet3210: i know, i truly hope that it never ever happens but its afear of mine misspigglet3210: i am gunna try extra hard to keep it form happeneing CocoPuff0210: im gona try 2 misspigglet3210: we at elats have the rest of the year and most of the summer i think CocoPuff0210: yea... still not enuf time misspigglet3210: i know misspigglet3210: ....3 years is enough time for me haha misspigglet3210: io am gunna try to enjoy the rest of my time here misspigglet3210: i am gunna need ur help for that lkol CocoPuff0210: lol np ill help CocoPuff0210: no worries misspigglet3210: haha lol ok....i will miss evryone..esp the ppl i will never se agian..like just aquaintences...becuase..like...we will still talk..and they arent close enough to me ike keep in touch..thats why its even more sad becaus ei wil be saying goodbye forver CocoPuff0210: :'( CocoPuff0210: i hate he words good and bye misspigglet3210: but i will still miss u the most CocoPuff0210: espicalyl bye misspigglet3210: me too!! CocoPuff0210: cuz it cant b a good bye if ur relly sayign bye misspigglet3210: ...thats so true misspigglet3210: imagine the last time i will see you misspigglet3210: ..th elast and final goodbye... misspigglet3210: thats so sad CocoPuff0210: omg CocoPuff0210: thats soo sad misspigglet3210: omg i know misspigglet3210: :-( Auto response from CocoPuff0210: crying!!:'(Darien u CAN'T leave me CocoPuff0210: i can't breath im cryign soo hard Auto response from CocoPuff0210: crying...in the shower. CocoPuff0210: :'( CocoPuff0210: I LOVE U!!! misspigglet3210: I LOVE YOU TOOO!!!! I AMM SO SAD!!!! BUT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ANDI WILL NEVER EVER FORGERT U OR LOSE TOUCH Auto response from CocoPuff0210: >:o misspigglet3210: !!!!!!!! CocoPuff0210: :'(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! misspigglet3210: leaving everythingand everyone that i loved CocoPuff0210: :'(:'( misspigglet3210: i dont understand my mother misspigglet3210: maybe there si still a chance to stay well...i love you lizzy..and everyone else!! ...goodbye.. |
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| Anonymous | 05-19-04 7:39pm Darien you are not leaving me!!!! Seriously i am going to set up a nice dry box in front of my house so that you can stay in that. Ill even put some shampoo and soap in there so that you can be clean and not smell because if you smell people would want you to move away and that wont be good so ill leave some soap out there. You cant move to gay ass hicksville usa. you cant move. omg i just had a really good idea hide out and live in the school! well i love you and your not moving.
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| Anonymous | 05-19-04 7:45pm you cant think of all the things your going to miss cuz then youll never be happy. you have to think about all the good times!("And as we go on we remember all the times we had together and as our as lives change come whatever we will still be friends forever!") darien i love you and i will be sad if you move, but you still have to find a house to buy so if you never find a house you will never have to move! |
| Anonymous | 05-19-04 10:09pm holy shit darien! how long have i known u! forever omg im goona miss u so much memba our camp trip haha and that park thing we went to and did the go karts o good times! and going ot the mall and skin market... 5 years of friendship :( omg there wont be anymore sex talks or anything :( aww and im sorry for us not being great of friends this year we just have lik no classes together! omg im gonna cry u cant leave! remember when u were little and u did those weird cat things haha omg darien!!! :( i love you!!!!
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| Anonymous | hey, 05-19-04 10:12pm i remember at a fantastic friday some girl tap me on the sholder and was like hey.... o shit ur not darian lol i want u to stay im gonna mes u soo much and u can stay with me and live in my closet ....or in my top bunk eather one but ur staying im gonnna brak ur car soo you cant goo |
krazykelc1 | Re: hey, 05-19-04 10:35pm DARIEN YOU CANT LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!! I have known you since like... 2nd grade... way back when we were in girl scouts together and you used to pretend you were a lion or a cat or something... ahahaha awww omg :'( and remember our trips to skin market and the sleepovers over ur house... and mrs.skrocki's class :( I've known you so long.... I can't believe your leaving... you have to stay in touch and IM me all the time and come visit....
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| Anonymous | 05-19-04 11:01pm aww.. this is sad.. (YES!! i finally get rid of that cheap ho!!).. i mean ill miss u!!
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xoxchubbyxox | Re:, 05-20-04 5:40pm i love you everyone so much. i can tbeleive that i am saying goodbye... i cant even imagine it...i will miss you forever and never froget u guys lol |
xonixieox | 05-23-04 4:02pm Darien you really cant leave i will miss you way to much!! i love you Darien bird!! dont leave... i wont let you! if you move... no more georges.. no more "having fun"(mostly me and lizzy whaile you play b-ball)... no more telling david merolla *our little secret*.. no more anything with you!! even if you are alloud to have visitors its just not gunna be the same.. and i dont know what im gunna do! your mother is a stupid cunt for making you leave... and im gunna tell her that! get pregnant or sometihng so you can stay!!! :'( ! i love you so much darien And you CANT move away from me!!
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xoxchubbyxox | Re:, 05-23-04 4:33pm aww nikkie i love you too!! yes i agree with you about my mother...i went to new hampshire today and it was terrible..there is no downtown...the pizza is bad...the highschool look slieka low-budget prison...but worst of all..there is no you! we are gunna keep in touch tho i promise..tho it will never ever be the same...but u r coming up because i will actaully have big house so u can visit! i love you ! and i will miss you more than nething in the world!
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xonixieox | 05-23-04 5:37pm no its not even fucking funny! i love you so much and im not gunna be able to od anything next year! im gunna be so fucking miserable without you!
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xoxchubbyxox | Re: :-(, 05-23-04 5:45pm DITTO!!!!!!!!! i will so miserable and sad without you...i mean..there will never ever be another nikkie!!! u are one of a kind! and with ou tyou..and our fun in science....and making fun of epople in history and science..and getting called down to th eoffice to talk about masturbatory issues....and play8ing the sims...and the kelly clarkson concert...and THE BOOK!!!!!!!!......ahhh my life will end...no!!! at least we have britney!
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loserxdork | 05-24-04 8:24pm i saw you on andys journal and i just wanted to say AW! moving sucks, i know i've been to 3 high schools already and its hard leaving your friends and everything but you'll make new friends <33 im marissa, add me if you'd like |
xoxchubbyxox | Re:, 05-24-04 9:07pm lol i will.... thanx for posting. its really good to hear this from someone liek you and your perspective...i hope i will, i will still be hing up on natick for a long time..maybe forever..but i guessits best now to have the most positive outlook possible... |
loserxdork | Re: Re:, 05-24-04 9:14pm ok cool :) your welcome, i know what its like to be an outcast and shit like that so i like helping people out whenever i can.
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cocopuff | :-(, 05-24-04 9:48pm I have been waiting to write this for soo long... becasue first i reallt dont knwo how im gonan say goodbye and becasue i want this to b perfict, and its liek mayb if i don't have to say goodbye u wont really leave me.... but its soo sad to know that ur really leaveing me..
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xoxchubbyxox | Re: :-(, 05-29-04 4:25pm Lizzy, there is so much i have to say to you too...i feel pain my words cannot express i cry everyday thinking baout the harsh reality that awaits me in no less than a few months..in twoo weeks my stay at natick highschool will be ended abruptly. i cant even beigin to imagine my life without you...everday natick and my friends become closer and closer to becoming a memory that will only fade with time. memory...its all i will have left to hold on to...an dthe most depressin gthing is..that my memories will never satisfy me..they will only remind me of the happiness i once had here and worsen the pain i will soon feel. but they are all i have and i have to keep them and use them as the only way look back on my interrupted time here...half oof me hopes i will make friends to overcome my lonliness, and the other half just wants to hold on to you guys..in fear that one day i may not be able to remember you. every day my life here gets closer and closer to fading away.. i wish i could stop time and take a second to enjoy what i have here...what willl soon be all lost..i try..but i cant. i have to accpet it...but i cant...i feel like i barely know you now...my potential with you as a friend is nearly lost...but i will do all i can to hold on to our friendship...ill miss you more than i can say or express...but i have to go now... i love you so much and will treasure every memory i have left of you!!
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