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| boricuababy (profile) wrote, on 5-30-2004 at 1:19pm | |
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| wow..this has been a really hectic week..on monday my aunt chavi one of tha twins called me and told me that my other aunt..her sister maria passed away..she died last saturday nite in surgery..so me and my mom took tha first flight out to new york which was on tuesday..we left madd early in tha mornin..when we got there it was really cold..and then we went to my grandma's house in brooklyn and dropped our stuff off and took tha train to east new york for tha wake..wow..it wuz really sad..i wuz really close to my aunt so it really affected me..i got to see my other grandma..ev and chavi my twin aunts..and my dad..my biological dad..that wuz interesting..i dont really wanna get into that tho..so yea den wednesday wuz tha second nite of tha wake..and we went to that..more tears..it wuz even more sad because her baby aj..he's turning two kept going up to the casket trynna wake her up..that broke everyone down..me included..toward the end of the night chavi read the poem henry wrote..imma type it at the end of my entry..and she started to break down a bit..me too..everybody did..u'll see why..thursday was mass..that really got to me too.i cried the most then and then we went to the crematory..so it wuz a really tough week..kuchie (that was her nickname) meant alot to me..we were madd close..she always helped me out with everything..she had the biggest smile..and touched everyone she met..she wuz tha sweetest person and everybody loved her..she wuz really funny and had the best personality..she always wanted me to meet my dad but always respected the fact that i wasn't ready to..she always had my back..we would always chill and hang out during the summer when i would go up to new york..me, her, ev, chavi, luis, and joey would always hang out..i got to see alotta people i haven't seen i like two years but still you kno??..everyone was hurting, grieving and in pain..im glad i got to go tho..it helps alot..iight so here's the poem... .. A Lost .. Trying to accept..that you passed away... Trying to cope..wondering the reason..why?? Im just here wishing..this day would have never come... You left too soon... You left too early... Now your baby is going to be raised without a mommy... But don't worry... He has a big loving family to watch him for you... But you can watch him too... From where you're at now, sky's above... Heaven..you're his angel.. Like he was yours Send him your guidance; send him your love... As for us... We will have to understand... It was your time to go... But..it doesn't feel right... Feels so wrong..so cold... All this hate and anger building up inside... Don't know what to do.. Just cry, cry, cry... Miss you... Keep thinking... That at anytime you'll be walking through the doors... What I'll give to just hear your voice... To say anything...something...HOLLA..Booger Butt..just once more... To see you smile...to hear you laugh...to hold you in our arms again.. I...just don't believe you're gone... A daughter, a sister, a mother, an aunt, a love and a friend... A beautiful person like yourself should have not went... But they say... God knows what's best... God knows what he is doing... God only takes the good...the best... Miss you... Now you're in Heaven, sky's above... Looking down upon us... Like a star...shining bright... Breaking through the clouds...like a ray of light... You might be gone in physical form... But you're still here... Forever alive in our hearts, minds and souls... We miss you...we love you... I will not say goodbye... But I will say... I'll see you later Booger Butt.. ~by: Henry Fabian Gonzalez-May 23, 2004 Rest In Peace: Maria "Kuchie" Flores October 22, 1970-May 22, 2004 |
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liddlebaby | 05-30-04 2:34pm aww kaila im so0 sorry..this whole entry gave me goosebumps..but everything will be alrite.shez in a better place right now..x0x0o |
playmate101 | 05-30-04 4:49pm the poem made my eyes watery. <3 feel better babe. xoxo |
| Anonymous | 05-30-04 7:39pm hey kailannie. im soooo sorry! i am always here if u need to talk or a shoulder to cry on. i love you! ~Amy |
sammibaby | 06-02-04 3:01pm im so sorry for your loss kaila. you know im here if you ever need me. love you. x0x0 |