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| HollishDanishM (profile) wrote, on 5-31-2004 at 8:29pm | |
| Music: Some cheesy graduation song Subject: It's devastating |
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| Honestly, when I look back on my woohu entries from this past year, I recognize how stupid I've been, the mistakes I've made, and how fake I've been, and how much I've tried to make a new image for myself. I'm not it doing anymore. From now on I want to just be honest with everyone, and mostly with myself. It always happens to me, towards the end of something I realize my wrongdoings, and I don't have enough time to fix any of them. Oh Well... What do you do? This is not my "end of year" entry, I'm not ready for that one yet- but it's just an introduction to it. I am sad, almost devastated, thinking about next year. The seniors are leaving. I know I'm not friends with any of them, for those who have to remind me of my social rank, but it just makes me so sad. I know I seem shallow saying this, but I will miss all the hot guys leaving. Especially JF, I could just say his name but I have just grown accustomed to using this name, so forever it will stay this way. He has just made my last couple of months, just getting to look at him everyday was breathtaking, and I will miss it, I'll miss him. For some reason, keeping in mind that I have never had any sort of contact with him, I am glad we don't know each other. It allows me to have my own, personal fantasy. Let me just thank the rest of the hot senior boys too, it was valuable, the few glances I got to cast at you all. It's depressing. Maybe we should just start this year over? |
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brownsugar | 05-31-04 10:25pm i'm so happy for u mette, that u realized that. I remember when i looked back and was like "holy fuck.." cuz of how sadly fake i was. and used to be. seriously, look at my xanga entries from earlier. i think of how sad i was and sometimes laugh.
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HollishDanishM | Re:, 06-01-04 3:37pm Yes, for you it's even harder. You actually knoe people, and are close to people, that will be leaving. For me, it's just a shallow realization, that they will not be there anymore. It's sad |