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| mizu87 (profile) wrote, on 9-14-2004 at :34pm | |
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| Well, Mattie and Jose are going out now. He met her sister Sunday and since then they've been going out. That really pisses me off. Jose has cleaned himself up so much I am so proud of him and then I look at Brook. Mattie told me she was on the phone with Jose and he had went to Gasmart and talked to Brook and Brook said to Jose that he just got off the phone with me and then Mattie asked me if I wanted her to tell her anything she heard from Brook bad or good and I said yes and she said that Brook told Jose that he doesn't want to be with me anymore. That it was something I said. You don't know how bad that pissed me off. Was it that "I won't care till I'm 18 thing?" Who fucking knows but it's eating away at me. I called him at home and they said he had just went outside on a break, I told the girl, Carrie, to tell him that I called. So 30 minutes or so later I call and Mike picks up the phone and Brook is making hambuger patties and can't hold the phone and so I asked him to ask Brook to call me back and he said Ok and I said now and he said Brook you gonna call her back? And I could hear Brook's voice and he said He'd try. So I played cards with my mother for like an hour and a half and no call from ass and so it was 11:30 and I called and they said he'd already left. Fucking ass hole! God he is pissing me off so bad! I wanted to ask him what the fuck I said that pissed him off so bad. Damn.. and I've thought about it all day, him. Just.. how I'd stay with him.. even with the drinking and smoking, I'd accept it, not like it, but accept it. I don't know why but I let it all bother me, I don't want to lose him and I don't know why. I don't even think I really had him.. .. .. ... Damn.. .. ... I just keep thinking if he really cares about me he'll aventually change.... ... and then.. there's thought's about me with a bunch of kids with him and all my dreams of school down the drain but all the Indians help me take care of the kids like Brook's Grandmother and all these people I've never met. ... .... I am so mad at Brook. How can he say such things like he loves me and wants to be with me when he doesn't put in a lick of effort? ... I'm so nervous evertime I get near that phone. I woke up this morning at 5 o'clock thinking the phone had rang. My heart was pounding so hard waiting for him to call back when no one did. ... It probably never even rang. .. god.. this is insane. I guess on the bright side Aaron (short Indian I used to have a crush on) said he saw me at the mall tearing it up with a lot of people around me and Lenka. That and I made a new freaky cool penmanship for me.... .. |
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hiei | 09-14-04 8:53pm Told you it was something you said. And what it is this: "I won't care till I'm 18" stuff? |