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| lynds4090 (profile) wrote, on 10-31-2004 at 9:01pm | |
| Once agian... Halloween does not fail. It was another terrible halloween weekend for lindsey. This is like the 4th in a row? wow it's sad. i hate being angry and bitchy... but i just don't know what to do with my anger. i get tears in my eyes all the time. i start screaming in my pillow for no reason. i hit things.. why? why do i have to be so pitiful? well i really don't learn from my mistakes to begin w/. why do i think that someone from cedar could actrually care about me and not screw me over? It's like last year never happend. i was so blind to do it all over agian. I never "work" out w/ any guy. It never "feels right". well then what does feel right? i liked being with isaac. we talked all the time about sailing and different kids that we loved and hate. i have to admit he didn't really feel like a boyfriend boyfriend at all times, he was more like a friend. a friend that i had started clean with. He didn't know my past and he didn't really care. it was so nice to actrually have someone who isn't in my normal circle.. like frommy yacht club and cedar. Maybe guys from other schools are for me? or maybe guys just arn't for me right now.... like i don't really need one. but i want someone so bad to fall and run to. like right now! when i'm so sad. i wish i had a someone to that i could run to and we could just cuddle. oh well... guys just arn't for me right now. i'm pitiful... linds |
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lilschaub | 11-01-04 4:24pm I am for you right now:) I love you hun and dont worry someday you will find a great guy I promise, |
glitterkisses | 11-01-04 5:51pm Linds you have no idea how sweet, smart, funny, and beatiful you are. Don't swear Justin OR Isaic, it's a good thing we're only 16 (well I'm only 15 lol SOON TO BE 16 IN TEN DAYS SO DONT FORGET!!! lol) and we still hae PLENTY of time to find boys. This is what our time is for, to date and sometimes it'll work out and sometimes it won't. It's what we take from the whole expirence that counts. It helps to find who we're good with and who aren't, and what works for us and what doesn't. And this is the last time you'll get your heart broken, but just think how much more special it's going to be when you find the guy who will never break your heart and wants to steal your heart away from you forever.
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| lynds4090 | Re:, 11-01-04 7:48pm wow, i love you girls!! and jess thats a very very good point about the whole thing about how it will be more special when i actrually find the guy that won't break my heart.
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