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superheromindo (profile) wrote,
on 1-16-2005 at 11:20pm
Current mood: thoughtful
Braeden...I write about him a lot in here. I guess because he's a big part of my life. He's also one of the most immediate. Friends are one of the most important aspects of your teenage years, and I hate to say it, but I'm a stereotypical teen. In almost every way. Except I've accepted a lot of my flaws. I've even half-accepted my appearance. Enough to where I dont hate myself for it. But Braeden is feeling depressed because he feels he has so much wrong with him. I half think its because he's so involved in church. Its great that he's a dedicated christian, but he's surrounded by all these people who seem to him to be almost flawless, and that's all he sees besides me and a few other friends. It would bring me down too if all of my friends and peers were that amazing. I dont know. I dont think I'll ever bring up the fact that it MIGHT be that he is always seeing these people that he is depressed, because I'm sure he likes to think of church as a haven. I would. I used to. But I dont anymore. Why? I dont really know. Maybe its because church is for people who are lost, and I'm not lost anymore. I have purpose in my life and I believe that God created us with flaws and that we shouldnt constantly be trying to correct them. We were not meant to be perfect and we shouldnt hound ourselves for making mistakes. That is my theory. I am sticking to it. I'm tired so I'm going to go to bed now.

It's just amazing when you make a boy cry though...not in a mean way, just the fact that what we were talking about had him that upset. I hate it, but he needs to work through these problems. Its why I hung up when I did. He needed to think about it on his own.

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01-17-05 1:00am

I know that I'm not supposed to by here, but I am anyways.

You might be right about your friend, but not about God. Yes, we do have flaws. That's the whole point. We wouldn't need God if we were perfect, we'd be God. And Church is only part of it. It's part of a bigger overall picture about how you live your life day to day, moment to moment, conversation to conversation. We are all lost even if we have found our purpose. Life is a long and winding road, perhaps the teenagers years have some of the sharpest curves, but not some of the biggest. We're all going to go off the road at some point.

Anyway, sorry for interrupting. I just stumbled accross your journal because you posted about the same time I did. Have a nice night and better tomorrow.

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Re:, 01-17-05 11:57am

I'm not saying that its because of God that he's depressed, I'm saying its because of the people at church that he compare himself to. I wasnt questioning his relationship with God, it was more of a questioning mine through his.

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