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| kreyz (profile) wrote, on 3-21-2005 at 7:32am | |
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| Oh God I feel like total shit right now, and I have a pretty good reason as to why... Well, i'll pick up where I left off from the last post. The Aftermath: Later after I put up my last post, around 3am, Mary started wigging out again, cuz Jay was still flipping out about the thing that happened in Bella's room, and I had to take Mary home to my place. She slept in my nest, and I laid next to her so that way she could calm down. Well, around 6am, I was woken up by the phone ringing and it was Jess's cellphone number on the Caller ID, so I called it back, and Jessika picked up saying that she wanted to go home. Not my home, but to hers, which I was a little disappointed in it, but I was cool with it. I had to go back cuz Jess was supposed to drop everyone off, and she had a little too much to drink, so since I'm the only sober motherfucker, I had to drive back to Holland to pick her and Jenny up. When I got there, the door was locked, and I started knocking on the door. For a couple minutes, all I heard was argumentative commotion about whose gonna open the door. Jessika was right in front of the door, from what I could gather, but they got some other dude to open it up. I was knocking non stop until the door was open, and all the dude does is open up the door a crack, and say "you got any marijuana?" I just said no, and he locked the door on me, and I got a bit pissed off, and instead of continuing to knock, like I should have, I headbutt the fucker, and put a dent in the door. I should have thought that through for real, but I didn't cuz i was being stupid without thinking. And I know that it was a stupid move on my part, so they have to get a new door. I told Jess and Jay that i would pay for the damages, and I would pay them in full. I doubt that it will be a first shot pay, but I will make sure that whatever I owe them, I will pay for it in full... I'm sorry guys for doing it, and what I did was wrong. But on the way back to Jessika's house, we all were talking about the party and how Mary flipped her wig at the party. We all thought it was bullshit what Mary was doing, but oh well... I dropped off Jessika, and proceeded to go back home. I was tired... I only had like 2 hours of sleep. Thats prolly why I headbutted the door; cuz I was groggy and that made me a lil short-tempered. We get home and I make a lil bed for Jenny on the floor, cuz Point Blank was sleeping on the couch in the living room. Afterwards, I went back into bed and laid next to Mary. Then I made the dumbest move I have ever done, and I ended up sleeping with Mary. I don't know why I did it, but its too late to reverse what I did. I do have to say that what I did was wrong, and I have been feeling dirty about it since then. At 1, I had to drop off Mary to her house, and I went back home, and got online. My ex, Melody, was online and I asked if she wanted to chill, so I went to her house around 230-3pm. I chilled there until I had to go bowling, where i bowled shitty, cuz my necks been killing me since the headbutting incident... I got home, and I had to take jenny home immediately. I got her home around 945 and had Trevor drive us back, cuz I only got 2-4 hours of sleep total. When we get back, I'm getting reamed on by Jeremy about what I did with Mary. I already felt bad for what I did, and I had absolutely no answers to what he was asking... So I believe right now, everyone in Strange Juggaloz is pissed off at me for hurting Jessika, cuz she is like the heart of the Car Club. If she gets hurt, everyone finds out about it in any way shape or form. And I hurt her, now, so I guess I'm gonna be a target, so I decided to not go to any further meetups, until everyone is straight with me, which could be a long long time. I am just so embarassed for being so fucking stupid... I totally wish that I could turn back time and change everything, but I can't. I just hope that in the future I won't make the same mistake again with whoever I'm trying to hook up with. I still wish it could be Jessika, but with this drama bit, I doubt that will be an option for a while, maybe even forever. And if that is the case, I just hope that we can settle everything and at least be friends. Well thats my time, I have to get to work. I don't know how much of good this will do, but I apologize to everyone I've hurt for this one mistake. And I will make damn sure that it will never happen again with anyone ever. -Kevin Reynolds |
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| Anonymous | Your a pig!, 03-21-05 10:30am Asshole! |
Kreyz | 03-21-05 12:22pm I know, and I'm sorry... |
| Anonymous | 03-21-05 1:09pm You can be sorry till the cows come home. |
stroker | 03-21-05 1:10pm I don't even know what to say. |
kreyz | 03-21-05 6:56pm Bro, you don't really have to say anything. This is my soiled bed that I am forced to sleep in. I guess i'll have to deal with it in my own way... and clean the bed... |
Anonymous | Jessikah, 03-21-05 7:48pm You clean something? yeah right you can't even remember to brush your teeth let alone clean your bed. Fuck that stupid shit. Did you go over and fuck melody too or is she one of the friends you don't sleep with? Do you sleep with all your friends? because from what i can gather if they're your friend and they have a pussy you fuck em. Well cept jenny cuz she's a kittle and she rocks. And she's probably smarter then that. And it's a good thing too. I however am glad that your going to pay for the door that does SLIGHTLY make me feel better because i offered to pay for it myself and i really really don't have the money for it, but if you were going to be a dick and not pay for it I would have. The comotion about who's going to answer the door... hmmm when dan closed it he didn't lock it. maybe you shoulda tried that. And no i wasn't right next to the door i was in a chair next to jenny so nope i wasnt. and the comotion you heard was me saying Kevin i'll be right there... open up your thick fucking skull and listen sometimes. But you never listen to anything i tell you. And if you do listen it goes in one ear and out the other. It doesn't register. pay some fucking attention! |
squish322 | Re: Jessikah, 03-21-05 8:07pm yeah dan was just messin around |