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fadingintoblue (profile) wrote,
on 11-16-2005 at 12:35am
Current mood: happy, i think
Music: dresden dolls
Subject: musings
So...I feel weird. I never thought of myself as actually doing things like other people, not romantically at least.

But Steve and I started dating today. And last night we made out for about an hour an a half (and again today). And I'm already showing a guy how to undo the clasp on my bra...

And it feels weird. I just broke up with (was broken up with by) someone. My "experience" before this consisted of holding hands and a few chaste kisses. And it's just weird to think of myself as being normalish for someone my age.

And I also wonder what else is left to keep us occupied. We kinda moved fairly quickly. I don't want to have sex or anything like that anytime soon. I don't want to spend emmense amounts of time making out everyday.

Also, this is NOT an open relationship...so I suddenly feel guilty for having crushes on some of my female friends.

But it was definitely fun to watch our friends react. We went and watched Gilmore Girls, just like we usually do...but Steve was kinda laying on top of me. Margaret kept looking behind her at us about every five minutes. Chelsea kept glancing at us with a surprised look on her face. And they (and everyone else there) got very happy once we gave in and told them. Why do people act like you're announcing a promotion or an engagement or something when you tell them you're dating?

So, I'm happy. And confused. And very grateful that Steve had a brush he could lend me so I could make my hair less mussy before I left his room.
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kiwi

A few chaste kisses were all I would give, 11-17-05 8:18pm

First I must laugh at the last comment
Then I must say, what happened to not wanting to go out with him because you felt nothing for him?
After that I must say that I feel I won with that. though I may have stopped prodding you did go out with him.
Fourth is the matter of the promotion engagment comment: Because it's cute!
And I love how you made the distinction that I actually broke up with you. it's just sort of random. It's also sort of random that you don't say my name, because before you left I was pretty sure we were done with just, she/it/they thing.
Lastly, why did you mention this in an email! GAH!

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fadingintoblue

Re: A few chaste kisses were all I would give, 11-20-05 1:51pm

I didn't feel anything for him, and there was so much pressure from everyone (especially my friend margaret) that it just felt weird. But once everyone just left us alone...well, I feel something now.

And I didn't mention this in an email, are you angry that I didn't? (I'm pretty sure I didn't put it in an email..)

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kiwi

Re: Re: A few chaste kisses were all I would give, 11-20-05 5:36pm

I meant didn't. And you're right you didn't. My question of why still stands. Of course I'm not angry! I wanted you to go out with him when we were still going out, why would I be mad now after I'd broken up with you?

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fadingintoblue

Re: Re: Re: A few chaste kisses were all I would give, 11-21-05 5:43pm

No, no, I wanted to know if you were angry that I didn't put it in an email. I didn't think you'd be angry that I'm dating him.

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kiwi

Re: Re: Re: Re: A few chaste kisses were all I would give, 11-21-05 8:40pm

I'm not angry, a bit miffed that I wasn't told. Not angry though.

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