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brutisimo (profile) wrote,
on 5-15-2007 at 3:07pm
I am not excited to be back in Michigan, let alone Kalamazoo...alone.

So I am taking 3 classes this summer. I can do it, I can do it...I CAN DO IT!

Jon is in one of my classes and he has invited me...more than hang out with him and Degrandchamp. That would be a bad idea i think, but I am tempted just for lack of other options. I also feel bad because I dropped Jon out of my life with all the others even though he was not one of the bad ones, he just hangs out with them too much...

I am going to be in a foreign country in about 45 days. That is crazy.

I know this is just a phase in my life. a lonely sad pathetic phase, but i just want it to be over now. The hard part is that I could make friends. I could even hang out with old ones, but I am leaving in...well 45 days, and I dont plan on coming back...ever if possible.

My Aunt is OK. It is really scary and going there to be with her was one if the hardest things I've ever done, but it was the right thing and I am really glad I went.

My college years have been far from the best in my life....I would probably characterize them as some of the worst actually. That is sad...but true.

PS. I had In and Out Burger twice while I was in Cali. SO deliciously bad for me.

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05-15-07 4:05pm

Yes, you can handle the three summer classes. I took 9 credits the summer I left and I made it out all right and God knows you're way better than me at loadin' up on the credits.

I am really excited for your trip to Prague. The book I'm reading (by Hugh Laurie from House) has some parts that take place in Prague and he describes it and it sounds beautiful. I think of you every time I read it.

I know you're going through a hard time there. I went through a hard time living there too. I left because I felt like there was nothing there for me anymore. I think you'll probably follow the same path I did. Find some place that excites you and never look back. You won't regret it, I don't.

Don't think that college has been the worst. Freshman and sophomore year were awesome and junior year had some good times too. I will never forget living across from you in the dorms and at Sterling. I still think about those times and smile.

Just remember, right now you might be in a hole, but you have to dig a hole in order to plant a seed. Be free :)

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