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arrivistemerkaba (profile) wrote,
on 5-20-2011 at 5:17pm
Current mood: Pissed
Subject: This asshole.
Just cancled my counciler appointment. I don't want to learn to make new friends, I am doing FUCKING fine all my myself.

Friends just lie.
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05-21-11 9:47am

There is nothing i am lying about. Do what you want. I'm doing what i can to not rely on you with things i used to in the past. I know you are going through a lot right now. Have you stopped to think about how i am feeling in all of this, my world isn't exactly perfect either, Several nights now i have woken up short on breath struggling to breathe. You want me to explain how that feels when you think that one day i might not be able to breathe? I am figuring out excactly what i even want in life before whatever is going on with me catches up. You're the only one i've told about this. Maybe this will put in some kind of consideration out there. I'm struggling to keep my own head above water too. Doing what it is i think i need right now. Figure things out yourself. Seeing things like you being pissed off about decisions i make that you don't agree with isn't helping any situation. This is the last time i will explain anything or say anything for a while.

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Re: , 05-21-11 4:44pm

Yes, I know what it feels like to wonder if you'll be able to breathe in a moment, in an hour, the next day. Every panic attack, every time I enter a house I'm unfamiliar with, every time I go into a store by myself I feel that.
I knew that feeling really fucking well last night when I was thrown on the ground in the middle of the fucking city while two men assaulted me and tried to take off my god damn clothes while people just fucking drove by.

Do what you like, but don't assume you're off the hook for my things. I love you with all my heart, but I am done with you.

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