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srsbsnsrunner (profile) wrote,
on 5-8-2014 at 8:32pm
Subject: I have this thing.
About religion.
Not spirituality or belief, but religion.

For as long as I can remember I've been a spiritual person, except for a stint in my teenage years I was "FUCK THIS! FUCK THAT! THERE IS NO GOD! ONLY SCIENCE! RAWR RAWR RAWR!"

To me you'd have to be quite silly to not believe in one higher power or another. It could be Mother Nature, God or even just the universe.
But that's just me.

Many of my friends are of the Christian or Catholic faith which doesn't bother me. What bothers me is when they become all righteous about it.
I understand what it feels like to be called to do something. I was called to move to Pennsylvania, no joke. God spoke to me about it. It was somewhat scary.
But did I run around and announce it on Facebook?
Quietly I went about my business and made it happen, even now I don't tell people unless they really ask about why I moved here. School seems like a sufficient enough answer for the general population.

But I have these friends on Facebook who are always like "God has blessed me with such a wonderful man, I'm so glad Christ will be at the center of our marriage" and so on and so forth.
That's great.
I'm glad you're happy.

It always irritates me. Always. It could just be jealously but I doubt that is the reason.

When I hear people just talk about religion and how their life centers around it, I want to scream and shout at them that IT DOESN'T MATTER!

What you believe matters. How you love matters. Who you love matters. How you live matters.

It seems like tunnel vision to me, they can only see the world through their religion. Everything is filtered through that lens.
What if that lens was taken away?

This is what I think you can either agree or disagree.

There is evil in the world, always has been, always will be because we were given choices.
You want that cookie? You can either steal it or pay for it.
Choice is yours.

God doesn't tell you to take the cookie or not. Or maybe he does. Point being is you don't have to listen. I didn't have to listen when I was told to move 2,220 miles from my home.

Let me try again.

It annoys me when people wave their religion in my face. Flaunt it. Say God gave me this! Or I've been called to do this!
Instead of announcing it, JUST DO IT!
Or better yet keep it to yourself.

I don't even know anymore. This is something that has always bothered me and I can't express why!

All I know is every religious status I read, I feel this tension inside, annoyance.
Maybe I'm frustrated they have a purpose and I don't?


Let's try something else.

I believe in God. I believe in the universe. I believe in love. I believe in chances. I believe in reasons. I believe in science. I believe in choice.

I believe. But I'm not religious.
Because I can't stand what comes along with it.
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05-09-14 6:34am

I really feel ya on the religious language thing. I'm starting my discernment process for ordained ministry and work in multiple churches, so I'm totally part of that scene. But I just always feel weird when people express their interpretations through a very religion-oriented lens, even though I can understand and identify with what they're saying. I've never been able to put my finger on what makes their heartfelt statements sound annoying or silly! Maybe because so many people use that type of language to manipulate and try to demonstrate convictions that aren't there?

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Re: , 05-11-14 6:14pm

Possibly. Like you have overly express it to make sure everyone else knows it's true. Maybe because you yourself are having difficulty believing in it?

Like how liars embellish what they're saying to try and make it more truthful even though it just makes it more of a lie?

Not saying that it's a lie, that's the only simile I can grasp at. Because the whole idea is still abstract to me.

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