2018 9 September :: 6.57 am
All pleasure and all pain is fleeting.
There will be a moment when everything ceases. It is the end.
There were never be a moment that lasts forever. Every posture and projection eventually fades.
Hanging upside down, I can have compassion for my failures instead of anger and resistance. I can accept mistakes as nothing more than signs of life. Attempts at moving through the world with more ease and more joy. I can have peace about the things yet un-done which instill feelings of reluctance and anxiety. What I need to get done, I will get done. Have faith instead of doubting at every turn.
2018 3 September :: 7.13 pm
OK, so things are actually going well for once.
I'm loving our new apartment. We both are. It's much easier to keep clean. We have a washer and dryer in the basement (!), a backyard with a garden, and neighbours with an adorable orange cat who inexplicably comes to visit us every day. I went nuts with two major trips to Target and one trip to Ikea to get us some new furniture. We have a new bed. We have a dining table now (OK, the "table" is two old office desks pushed together with four stools for chairs, but it's perfect for us). Together, we decided that I could use the second bedroom as a home office. So I bought a new desk, got an easel and a storage unit for my painting supplies, and now have the perfect creative space to set up camp and work from every day. It is absolutely everything I wanted.
Speaking of getting everything I wanted...
We went looking at rings one day last month. We're tentatively talking about setting a date. I got a recommendation from my therapist for a good couples' counselor. We're definitely in the pre-official stage still, but we're planning the next steps. Eek!!! S has his candidacy exams next week. So he's studying and stressing about those. But after his defense is done, we'll probably start moving ahead. So. Excited.
On that subject, K and C got married. Y and K came up and stayed with us for a few days and traveled up to Michigan with us for the wedding. S and I stayed with his parents in East Lansing, and we told them that the reason we can't go to Australia with them this Christmas is because it's going to be hard for S to take time off from his PhD program more than once during the next 3-4 years...and we want to go to Australia for the honeymoon. So they were like !!!!!! And we were like !!!!!! They've been sworn to secrecy. The only other people we've told are K and Y. So. Yeah.
Work is going really well. I'm getting paid a lot better at my CRM job. My teaching schedule is getting fuller again now that the kids are coming back to school. I'm in the process of negotiating another contract with my c-gig. I'm ready for fall to start. Just opened a nice bottle of wine, and we're making pizza for dinner.
So yeah. I think things are looking hella good from where I'm sitting.
2018 24 August :: 10.02 pm
2018 23 July :: 1.02 pm
MOVING A WEEK FROM TOMORROW
We're getting a real bed. We're getting wine glasses and a mop and hardwood floors. We're getting a basement, and a washer and dryer. We're getting the fuck out of here.
I have so much to do!
2018 20 July :: 10.00 am
I miss having a best friend. T-T
11 days until moving day!
2018 16 July :: 12.51 pm
15 days until moving day.