:: 2007 10 September :: 4.37 pm

i gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But I was lonelily looking for someone to hold
In a way I lost all I believed in
And I never found myself so low
And you let me down
You could've called if you'd needed
But you lonelily got yourself locked instead
And you let me down
It's one thing being cheated
But you took her all the way through your bed
And now you're coming home

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:: 2007 7 September :: 11.14 pm

the average person daydreams every 19 seconds.

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:: 2007 24 May :: 11.54 pm

"Oh you dear sweet girl. I do love you."

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:: 2007 2 May :: 7.37 am
:: Mood: tired

right now i kind of feel like he's the only one who really cares.

9a8wehflas;kjd

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:: 2007 28 April :: 7.20 pm
:: Mood: sad

i have to write this down before it drives me crazy.

im upset
and i hate it
because i feel like there is no good reason.

i just feel so helpless and alone. and i feel like when he moves he's just going to leave me behind and forget about me. and im so scared because i really like him... seriously.
i think its more than just an infatuation.
and god damnit.
i just wish he didnt have to move and that i could see him more.
and that i could have seen him last night.
i feel so bad about last night. so fucking bad.


but i dont know.. i just feel like i'm going to be stuck here with a broken heart while he's hours away, smiling and living on without even a second thought about me. i dont want him to forget me.
and i dont want to be this pessimistic, because i know thats not how it is.
and i want to know why i keep thinking this though.



when i'm with him, im happy.
and i love that.
and i dont have to worry about anything.
and i can be myself.
and i dont want to lose that.


i dont fucking know...

god, i feel like a jerk.

and i dont know what i should say to him.
or what i should do.

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:: 2007 18 January :: 6.39 am
:: Mood: determined

i just want to see his face.

1 shot | bang

:: 2006 30 April :: 9.14 pm

there's one thing i have to say so i'll be brave
you were what i wanted, i gave what i gave
i'm not sorry i met you
i'm not sorry it's over
i'm not sorry there's nothing to save

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:: 2005 25 September :: 8.29 pm

call the cars, fuck the stars

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:: 2005 14 August :: 11.43 pm

Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you

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:: 2004 25 April :: 6.01 pm

dont turn around, i'm sick and i'm tired of your face

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