2003 7 December :: 11.02pm
I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I hurt you. I'm sorry if you love me. I'm sorry that I hate myself and i'm sorry I can't make things right. I'm sorry I ever met you..but then again, i'm not. Because, I love you. And I don't know where i'd be without you. But again, you aren't a superhero. It's not your job to make sure i'm happy and safe. I don't care, why should you? Sometimes I want so badly to smack you for caring about me after all this, but then others I just want to hug you. Because, even though I don't know if I can make it thru...you know.
"For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you"
I know thats from an old song, and it's not that great...but I don't know how else to put it.
You're the greatest friend a person could ever have. And I treat you really bad. I'm very, very sorry. I put you thru so much because of the past. I should learn to let go. I don't know why you put up with my shit. You need to kick my ass. Because I hate what I do to you. And I know you do to. I don't know what to say. I love you.
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