Wow...I'm happy for once...never thought this day would come
Ha ha...I'm in a great mood! Nothing can stop me! Well, multiple things can, but most things can't. Very cheerful. Not much to update on. Um...yea! Check this out...it reminds me of myself and chris, if chris was the dude with black hair.

http://www.penny-arcade.com/view.php3

He he...yea. So, ILYTL.

damn
Another weekend wasted, doing nothing and finding nothing. I've done jack squat. Apparently there was a soccer game yesterday, that nobody except somebody that isn't in soccer told me about. I know longer care for soccer. I don't know what it is, but I find it stupid now. Maybe there is a practice today, but if there is I'm not showing. I've stopped caring about a bunch of other things too, but that one is currently the biggest bitch.

Yeah, I've also managed to beat myself up mentally again, even though my life isn't so bad...I don't know how I do that, but I manage.

I'm still thinking about other things too. Always thinking. Which sucks, because I still beat myself up. Apparently I don't need others to mock me, because I can do it myself.

So, indeed, another shitty weekend...hey, lets follow it up with a bad week too. Then we can have another bad weekend and go through my cycle of hell.

Two days
So, I didn't really go into detail as to what happened at my meet yesterday, but just walk away knowing I sucked. The REAL fun was before and after the meet. Ha ha. I'm never buying another slinkie again.

Today was whack. It started out with the promise of a good day, but got progressively worse as time went on. Lunch today was the most awkward thing I've done in quite awhile. Plus it seemed one katie was depressed, and the other was pissed. If I seemed mighty depressed today, I was. I've been doing more of this thinking thing, and asking the right people the right questions. If I haven't asked you, don't concern yourself, I'll sort it out. Though I doubt many care.
Today I went to Nates and we messed around with his bow and arrow kit thing. Quite amusing, those are. Then I went home, played hoops, talked to katie, and went to nates again. Fun fun. Now I'm at home, doing nothing. Oh, but read whats lower down here...


I NEED HELP TOMORROW WITH CHORES. IF NOBODY CALLS/CONTACTS ME, I'LL JUST HAVE NATE DO IT.

Yup...very uninteresting entry yet again. Oh well. Not my problem, I suppose. ILYTL

The day of to
Another mucked up day. I started with a geography unit test. Eep. I had to throw unit in there. When you say test, people are like, no big deal. But when you throw an extra word in there people think, "Wow, that musta been tough" It wasn't too bad. I only guessed on about 20 out of 50. Geometry is always fun. First hour with is only fun because we were in the computer lab. I was on a video game site because I was bored, and she asked what career I was doing for the final presentation.

Me:Um...its like my dad's job, only simpler.
Her:Oh really? Whats it called?
Me:Um...well, its got a real long scientific name on it...um...well, its like a MRI tech...only its got a different name. Oh man. Um...jeez, I can' think of it...you know, for the sake of an argument, lets call it an x-ray tech...you know, cuz he works with x-ray's, hence the name x-ray tech.

Funny part is, I'm not going to do anything about a health career. I'll just tell her I changed my mind.

Band sucks, purely because I hate getting bitched at, then listening to others go,"you guys suck" Yeah, fuck off, ok? worry about your own playing ability. The only insturments I pick on, were the mellow phones, but I don't do that anymore.

miller was gone, and there was a sub. I had fun with jake and james. I need someone more like chris or moe in that class though...it'd be more fun.

Biology was last. And OF COURSE everyone had to be a little fuck because there were specimens there...whatever though. I failed that quiz, and right I should be studing biology, but why? I fail at any class regardless of the studying put into it.

Anyway, track was a sinch today, but its gonna be a royal bitch until the end.

I'm not going to the invite on saturday...but I don't know what I'm gonna do. Go, or not go? Well, we obviously know, but what am I gonna do that day? I dunno. If anyone's free, call me or something. I'm very open to suggestions.

Heh...um...I should probably apologize to chris, rob, and anyone else on the soccer team. I completely FORGOT about practice. That sounds like a lameass excuse, but hey, whatever. I was reading that gay book, and I looked up and said, hey, its about 6:45...then I thought and said, hey, shouldn't I be doing something. Then I remembered and thought oh well. I don't care. Soccer's...lost its feeling. Before I was like, YAY! soccer! run around like a fairy for no reason cuz we always get our ass's handed to us! But its lost its meaning. AYSO is stupid, I guess.

Anyway, I'll let you all go with this phrase I heard today.

Fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity.

Today
Today went really well. Nothing bad occured. Its quite strange...so I know its all gonna fall apart tomorrow. I'm gonna do something stupid, and its gonna bite me in the ass.

The track meet went well...I don't really know what to say. I did good, I guess...a 2:22 and a 2:20, so at least now I'm becoming consistent. Now my only problem is the really bad dry throat after a run. Stupid allergies!

Yeah, not much to talk about. Oh, I dealt with another preppy bitch first hour. We deserved to get bitched at, but not in the fashion she did it in. Made a big production of it, and kept staring at us. I mentioned something about not needing another preppy bitch to tell me what to do, and she left us alone. God. Why do preppy chicks only talk to me when they want something, feel the urge to bitch at someone, or see me depressed and make it worse. Ugh. Bullshit. I'll never hook up with a girl like that. Although, I don't think I'll ever hook up with a girl in general. No, I'm not gay...cuz I'm sure thats what popped into sischo's mind if he's reading this. Ok. I suppose I did my daily negativity by saying I'll probably never find a girl, so now I'm off. ILYTL.

None, you aren't special enough to get a subject
Yeah. Another wasted day. Did nothing.

Waited for a phone call all day, because I have nothing better to do. Nothing. And I mean it.

I think I missed practice for soccer today too. And I'm supposed to run, but I'm not going to, because I don't feel like it.

I've decided what I'm going to do for that essay to fournier. I'm not going to write an essay devoted to how she sucks as a teacher. I want to, but, she doesn't deserve it. Not yet. She keeps it up, and I'll find a chance to recreate this essay, and make it happen. I'll just bullshit her like I do all the other assignments this time. I'm sure david, joe, and jay will all be dissappointed, david especially. sorry guys, I have a pangs of guilt, and if you feel like doing it, go for it.

Tomorrows another meet. Yay. Woohu. Yippee skip. Hurray. Hopefully I don't suck, even though thats asking a lot. Plus my throat is still sore, so every time I get done running, my throat completely dries up and I can't breathe, and I'm usually pretty far from a drink of some sorts.

So yeah, more updation. ILYTL

The only thing that matters
is just following your heart

Job shadow
So I job shadowed my uncle...I fell into the nazi's program (i.e. school forcing job shadowing) and learned a few things about teaching.

Enough of that. On to the weirder stuff.

Turns out you can spot stero-typical kids at that age. At least I thought I could.

So this preppy fourth grader, comes up to me and starts bragging about how fast he is, how strong he is and stuff...then he asks how fast I am. I laughed and said, "probably fast enough to beat you in a race" He walks away, and comes back ten minutes later and says,"wanna race?" I tell him no. He starts to call me chicken, and I find the smallest weakest looking kid I could find and said,"I'll bet he could beat you blindfolded with one hand tied behind his back" He clammed up.

Plus I saw kids that reminded me of people I know now. A kid that reminded me of myself, chris, jacki, nate, and I sorta saw a part of david in a little kid.

Lol, the kid that looked like chris was hilarious. He made random comments, and started to do badly, got pissed, and stomped away and did other things. I was laughing really hard...but I didn't let him see.

The one with jacki was kooky. Looked like a very young version of her...and was really random...just started laughing REALLY loud out of nowhere once. She wore one of those...um, one things jacki wears...I don't know if it has a specific name.

The one that reminded me of myself, looked like me at that age, and acted like I did. Quiet and reserved. If questioned, he blew it off, or responded with weariness in his voice. I talked to him a LOOOOOOOONG while, cuz we got along pretty well.

Some kids hated me, others automatically liked me, and I had a good time, especially with my uncle. I want to be a smartass on my sheet thing but I don't know how many people will look at it, so I can't. That blows.

I realize that wasn't too exciting, but I just felt like updating. So, there you go. ILYTL.

off
Ok, you guys are going to have to get ready for some really depressing news.

I'm leaving for tonight and part of tomorrow.

Ladies, please don't cry, don't make this harder. I must go and learn many things about job shadowing.

So, I'm leaving for my grandparents tonight to go hang with my uncle tomorrow for job-shadowing. He's a P.E. teacher, which sounds like fun. Beats the extra special "virtual" job shadow.

Well, I gotta go. So I'll see you all again on thursday...maybe I'll get home wednesday night? I dunno. We'll see. ILYTL

Da da da
Yeah...today was...a day.

I woke up at about 11:00 and realized I needed to leave chris's, because we had to leave home by 12:00. My parents lied. We left at about 1. But the sucky part is, as I was leaving, roxanne (Chris's mom) had made an easter basket for me. Thats cool and I thanked her for it...but...thats bullshit. I had to go right away, and I walk out on their breezeway, and theres three baskets.
Rox:Happy easter!
Me:(whispers to self) dammit
Rox:So...are you leaving...
Me:yea...
Rox:oh...you can take it in a bag

So heres me, shoving that stuff in a bag, basically eating and running. Man, I didn't feel bad.

I got home, and started playing my new game. It's quite fun, actually. Then we left and went to my grandparents.

OK, this next part will be VERY important if you wish to get this later on. Alright. So my cousins...really REALLY like me. No, not sexually you sick fuck, I mean they just like me. They basically mimic me. And chase me. Holy hell, little kids like to chase me...quite a bit. So, I'll bet I ran more then a freakin mile, on a medium sized piece of property. But it was fun. My cousins are fun to be near, but everyone thinks its weird for how we act as a group. So, thats why few people have seen them before. I watched them play their "Dragon Ball Z" game, and noticed several patterns.
1)The characters were all breathing really hard
2)They always had ripped up clothes.
3)They repeated themselves frequently.
4)You'd have to fight the same person about 4 times in a row.

I thought it sorted sucked. Then, afterwards, I had to bike down to my grandfathers cabin he STARTED to build, but got cancer and couldn't finish it...:(
So, I've decided I'm gonna try to finish it for him...it really is his last living tribute. Somehow I'll do it. Even though I suck at building things.

Then I got home and hurt my arm, so I couldn't shoot hoops at all. So, I went in and played the game so more. Fun fun. I love how they make it sorta real-life, where they don't tell you anything, cuz you are a kid. Thats great man. I'd be slashing away at my sword to every prick that thought they'd say that.

So, um, yeah. That was my easter. Yay. Tomorrow is a meet (dammit) so I'll have to be ready to go...AND its away...crap. Stupid kenowa hills. So, ILYTL