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valoth

:: 2011 14 September :: 9.00am

I go from an awkward time with this lesbian ordeal where she actually told me she felt confused for awhile into another wonderful thought moment,'

Fuck me. I hate my brain.

If she isnt going to give into having a real relationship and title it properly Im going to get increasingly irate over time. Why do I want a title? Why do you think? I want her. Im insecure and I like titles. I enjoy that tiny amount of ownership it offers me. That comforts me.

If she meets someone else while doing this "Im happy, lets just keep it how it is." She WILL more than likely lose me as a friend and as someone who lo..likes her.

Im on the verge of trying to turn my life around...AGAIN. I cant put my love life on hold for her while she figures herself out with this lesbian bullshit and college guys. I need someone(now) and Id like that someone to be her, but if she wont give me what I need then I will be unable to keep up a strong face.

If she reads this then I hope she understands. Small victories mean miles of happiness.

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valoth

:: 2011 1 September :: 12.47am
:: Mood: confused

Fuck!

What do you do when the girl you like just started college, in a new city, and you dont see her very often?

Ok

Now what do you do when said girl were to suddenly now meet a bunch of other girls? ...Who were gay.

Ok

Finally, what do you do if you think one of said girls is liking your girl too much? (Or from what youve seen/heard it would appear this way)

The thought of a gay girl possibly taking away your girlfriend really sucks. Seriously. WTF do you do?


upchuck

:: 2011 12 April :: 7.09am

Several new posts from some old friends. It's nice to see that everyone is unsure about thier lives. Who knew we would all be dealing with such "adult" issues nigh on ten years ago.

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valoth

:: 2011 19 February :: 2.44pm

The rant to end all other rants...I had.
Ive been slowly working on writing something huge. Every event in my life that still haunts me in some fashion. Every event that I recall thats ever kept my mind awake at night frustrating the hell out of me. What I have already is about 6 pages long. So, I can only imagine how bad things will be by the end of it.

The good news is I think putting these things down somewhere will def help.

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valoth

:: 2010 25 October :: 7.31pm

I cannot stand pompous people. I cannot stand being belittled.

All the little walls, all the little rules, they mean nothing to me.

I deny you self satisfaction over a declaration of being better than.

Fuck you. Fuck the high horse you think you rode in on.

News for ya, your horse smells like shit.

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valoth

:: 2010 17 October :: 10.39pm

Fuck this shit. Working 99hrs in 2 weeks sucks balls. Not looking forward to another like that again.

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valoth

:: 2010 25 June :: 4.43pm

"Fear profits a man nothing,The Skin of our lives was woven by the All-Father long ago.Run from your fate if you will,hide in a hole,you will not live a moment longer.Running will only make you die tired."

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valoth

:: 2010 22 June :: 11.00pm

Why does it seem like all the decent positions asking for help are always the ones for customer service or sales?


GRRRRr

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valoth

:: 2010 9 June :: 4.09pm

I feel like I've been run over by a truck
I don't care much about anything
I'm happy to sing
I'm lacking the passion to do anything
I feel like I've been run over by a truck
I don't care much about anything
So give me a ring
And tell me to wake up and do anything


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valoth

:: 2010 6 June :: 3.16pm

G.A.D.

Im really loathing it.

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jim9nin

:: 2010 26 May :: 10.47pm

"A small controversy has risen, after a report that President Obama would not be attending a traditional Memorial Day ceremony at Arlington National Cemetery. Instead, Obama will spend the holiday with his family in Chicago.

Traditionally, presidents would lay a wreath on the Tomb of the Unknown Solider. Some conservative groups are angered by the move.

"Obama will however make it back to Washington in time next week to honor Paul McCartney, who has sacrificed so much for the freedoms we enjoy," seethes conservative commenter Michelle Malkin."

Another great move by the President.

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valoth

:: 2010 8 May :: 11.01pm

Dr. Death is a good movie.

I support his general idea. People should be able to choose.

There are so many things in this world that you really can have a choice over. Life and death is at the top of that list.

You didnt choose to become alive. If you are living near death's door like the patients he takes are, then why shouldnt they have control over their own damn lives?

Religion or not seriously. Being forced to live a waking nightmare is not fair. Permanently disabled from the neck down? Rapidly advancing Alzheimer? That is just not right.
If the person wants that to be over, then let them have that choice.
Dont force them to hold on because you feel the need to hold onto them.
If you love something enough then you should let them go because of their own choice in the matter.
Dont let your pride override their will.


Consider me a horrible person for saying it if you wish. I dont care. I am entitled to my opinion and I believe in it.

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valoth

:: 2010 30 April :: 1.45pm

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valoth

:: 2010 17 April :: 3.37am

Im a bit slow on the news so this is late but um...Im in the clear to report it!

The sun ate a comet on april 12-13; a rather big one too.

8minutes after this happened we started being bathed in its explosion radiation flare. A huge one too! We are still here and nothing went crazy. I was slightly shocked at this. The largest flare recorded in the last 15yrs. Spectacular image for ya on the link below too. Ya I know its color tone is wrong, its on purpose.
Sun eats comet!

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valoth

:: 2010 28 March :: 3.46am

Level 2 Judge: 13 Mantra Rules

Anowon Sage ruling:

113.9a Just because an object or player is being affected by a spell or ability doesn't make that object or player a target of that spell or ability. Unless that object or player is identified by the word "target" in the text of that spell or ability, or the rule for that keyword ability, it's not a target.

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