it’s a disease they’ll never have a cure for

i got in trouble today.

i dont know whats going to happen.

..a galaxy of emotions
this day wasn't worth waking up too.

...so, my mother doesn't trust me when i am with craig.


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on a better note:

i now work at coldstone. you better stop by and visit me bitches.

:)

...take me away


... hm. it happend once again. i am such a dissapointment to myself.


... use me. use my body. don't worry about me. i am too numb to give a shit.


fuck.


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....you're no answer

...today sandy came over. we hung out at my house till 6 or so. then we went downtown to the movies with lesley. alex and joe never showed up :( ....figures. we saw the movie "the butterfly effect" and i litterly cried 3 times. after the movie, we went to apple bee's with manny. then off too coldstone and tropical smoothie.... good times. :)

.....
....if only





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new year... woo

happy fucking new year.

...it happend again. this time it hit me worse than ever.

on a happier note- <3 you lesley. tonight was fun.


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...i wish you were there for new years eve

..I'm reading your note over again..
...it felt good to hear your voice. its wonderful <3


so close, yet so far :(

...great fun
....went to bushgardens today with sandy and mandy. had a blast, like always <3

*moving tip #32- never put dog and cat in the same box
*sandy- "ew! you nasty boy"
*tampon or camra?
*sarah was on the lose in bumper cars.
*cat nap
*mandy lost me and her mom
*boychasing pays off once in a blue moon. :)
*angela marked her territory
*sleepover in van

lots other funnies, i just can't remember them all.

great times


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.....you are perfectly beautiful <3

why do you have to live so far away...?

hm......
.i have completely lost myself




..i dont matter. just take me away, take everything i have, take my body. i dont need it or anything.

...disapointed in myself
....It meant everything to you, and nothing to me.

...i feel like shit now.

... i have disapointed myself once again.

i HATE this

Fuck It. you don't understand how I feel.

..... tonight was great

...tonight was eventful. I went to the skate park with lesley, manny and kelly, but she left around 5. At the skate park there was a beautiful guy that I kept drooling over. We went to checkers and I had a chocolate milkshake and diped fries into it. yummy.... Then me and lesley walked around downtown for awhile and we almost got raped my these ghetto mexiconos. We went back to the skate park and hung out with gina and made frineds with matt and andy (the guy who is beautiful). Lesley, gina and I all got reputations as fence whores/booker whores. Lelsey was sold for 10 cents and I was worth 4 1/2 cents. ha. When I got home i got in trouble, but other than that, tonight was great.

..get divorced already
.... my parents are fighting once again. i don't see why they haven't gotten divorced yet. oh well, i am use to it....

...scared shittless and great music, what more could you want?
.....today i didn't go to school. I played hooky. ha it was great! All i did was eat, sleep and watch t.v. It was better than going to school. i hate school. I might even be a highschool drop out, who knows... but anyways, tonight sandy and I went to "Tomb Of Terror". It was a blast. the radio station 105.9 "the buzz" was there. Tomb of terror was kinda scary, and ofcourse i screamed and whatnot along with sandy. I had to drag her through it a couple of times. ha, love ya sandy. when me and sandy got out of it, we went over where 105.9 was set up and got free stickers and talked to d.j gootch for awhile. he is actually kinda cute. ha. then we sat down at a bench and had some intersting conversations and listened to music. after about an hour of that we went to talk to d.j gootch again and got his autograph(heh) then we left. tonight was great sandy......

.....family
...... i'm so fucking tired of the trailer trash house i live in and my shitty broken family. someone please adopt me......