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2004 7 November :: 10.17pm
the above is a map of all the states/regions before the civil war that were for/opposed to slavery. It appears nearly identical to the electoral map of the 2004 presidential election.
Red or Brown=for slavery (Bush)
Green=against slavery (Kerry)
a little bizarre...
a lot scary
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2004 21 October :: 9.57pm
Best. Picture. Ever...I miss last year :(
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2004 21 October :: 8.30pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: Gwen Stefani-What are you waiting for?
Take a chance you stupid ho...
:: 2003 26 October :: 10.08 am
:: Mood: relieved
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the art of losing
wow. we lost. but im not going to sit here and mope and complain, as there are many things to blame it on. lack of clutch hitting, bad relief work by ahem jose, errors, the hugeness of joe robbie stadium. these are all things that if made opposite, the yankees could have easily won the series. but they didnt, so why try to justify the past and whats already happened. true fans will say "wow that was an amazing season, we'll get em next year, hey we beat boston" and thats what it was like being in yankee stadium, in my opinion, one of the top 5 most amazing places on this earth, as that ground ball by posada was thrown to first (or was he tagged out, idk i didnt watch) and the marlins started celebrating, not one of us shed a tear. everyone was proud of the boys for the crazy ride they had gone through this year, and the way they managed to pull that club together and get this far. am i sad? yes, do i wish they would have won? yes, am i dissapointed in the players? absolutely not. the yankees and their fans pride and dignity cannot be shaken by any loss, not even in the world series, at home, without any runs, to an expansion team, yes an expansion team. the yankees have been around for a century. the tradition behind that team is so amazing, and the fact that they can have a classic-go-down-in-history-come-from-way-behind win in the bottom of the 11th at home in game 7 of the alcs against boston the second best team in baseball, shows that the heart, soul, and talent of the yankees cannot be touched by any loss not even in the world series, at home, without any runs, to an expansion team. I am so happy that this year i finally followed my liking for the yankees. im really surprised though at how much i learned and how much i really love baseball and that team. and even though my first year as a serious fan didn't end nessesarily the best way, i could not be any happier. so on monday and tuesday and when i go to miami, i will wear my baseball cap with great pride because i dont feel more proud wearing anything else. as joe dimaggio said "id like to thank the good lord for making me a yankee" :)
so congratulations yankees on an amazing season...you deserved all of it. and dont blame yourselves or anything else. its okay to lose every once in a while, it only makes you stronger and better. good luck and your fans will be waiting your return when the 2004 yankees are goin all the way again, and this time winning :)
^^^My post after the Yanks lost the world series a year ago. Obviously things are a little different than they were then. There was no dramatic game 7 win. Boston beat us. But reading that sort of gives me a glimmer of hope that I'll be able to get over this sooner than I thought. I've accepted that the Sox (gulp..) DESERVED to win this. They fought their mfing asses off and played with so much heart.
Losing is okay. Crushing, heartbreaking, go-down-in-history, potential curse breaking losses, are okay...
We just haven't had 86 years of practice. :)
So, we'll see you in 05 Yanks. I can't fucking wait. It's gonna be another crazy, amazing year. I'm so grateful to have something like this to look forward to, follow, and be passionate about. I'm happy to experience something like this so young to get used to crushing losses. Hopefully there won't be many more soon. Things are gonna be a little more boring without a game to watch every night, but hey, there's always next year.
AND GO CARDINALS!
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2004 20 October :: 11.53pm
:: Mood: shocked
I just cannot comprehend this situation.
What.
Just.
Happened.
I'm in a complete state of shock right now.
We just made history. Bad fucking history.
How could this happen?
3-0...3-0...3-0....3-0
CHOKE
3-4
I'm like feeling so many emotions right now, it hasn't really hit me. And I know I'm being selfish so much, but this is just miserable. I'm not going to go near a newspaper, news channel or any sports website for weeks, in fear of seeing them shitting all over our field and tainting it forever. I'm going to implode right now.
This is a bad day.
Really bad.
At least I have my other diehards to comiserate with.
All I can say is:
Go Cardinals
I really don't know what to do with myself.
On a light note, Brett just randomly i-med me...he's so nice, why did he move?
okay, things absolutely suck right now.
Where do I go from here?
OMFG this is disgusting
I hate David Ortiz, I hate Johnny Damon, I hate Kevin Brown, I hate Kevin Millar, I hate ground rule doubles, I hate umpires, I hate blown saves, I hate Curt Schilling, I hate Tim Wakefield, I hate Bronson Arroyo, I hate Terry Francona, I hate Red Sox fans
and I fucking HATE Bill Mueller
And I hate everything right now.
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2004 14 October :: 8.56pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Enter Sandman-Metallica (so got this stuck in my head after last night...MARIANO is the MAN)
Okay so last night was effing awesome. The postseason energy is just incredible. It's amazing. I forgot how different it is in the playoffs. I was at a Yanks/Sox game a couple weeks ago and even though we crushed them then, the energy doesn't even compare to this. I literally felt the upper deck bouncing up and down. No joke.
I can't believe it's 2-0, I'm pysched and can't wait to watch baseball all weekend.
Today felt like winter, and made me ask myself why the hell I've actually been excited for it. But I come home and I still am excited for it. Oh well. I'll be crying over it in a few months.
Soccer's almost over, which is really sad. This season has been so fun.
I've become such a slacker. I don't do ANY work. Ever. I need to get better study habits. Thank God it works out that I don't really have to study that much ever.
Spanish is the funniest class.
I'm really continuing having issues with this one person, it's giving me bad memories of the past and I don't know what to do. It's making me go crazy. Gahhh.
Speaking of the past..........yeah. Sigh.
okay well that's it.
cyaaaaaaaa
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2004 9 October :: 11.36am
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2004 25 September :: 6.34pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Switchfoot~Dare you to move
"What can I say? Just tip my hat and call the Yankees my Daddy."
~Pedro Martinez
Hahaha.
Holy Shit. Absolutely classic.
And Lindsay Lohan's new song is the funniest thing I have ever heard. I'm almost embarassed for her.
I was looking at like really old yearbooks from Elise's brothers and it's so funny and so cool.
Okay, that's it. I just had to post that quote, it's amazing.
And I guess I'll just have to entertain myself in making my own posts because it doesn't look like anyone else will get le job done.
much loveeeee..<3
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2004 21 September :: 8.12pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: No Doubt-Running
Be the one I trust most...don't stop inspiring me...
Sorry that my last post was a little crazy.
This weekend was so fun. The Yankee game was insane. Just amazing. 2 day weekend is gonna be rough.
So my back is just starting to get a bit better and whaddaya know? I get sick...grrr...I was on such a streak too.
I'm already getting lazy with school. It's just that my classes are so lax I can't stay focused...I haven't been challenged enough yet to get me to actually do work. And I guess it's hard to deal with my schedule considering last years was awesome.
I'm excited for this year though...all the extracurriculars, friends, seasons...I love all the changes of the year.
And I've finally gone back to a way I used to use all the time to express myself and use as personal-therapy...write; stories, "novels," whatever...it's amazing what you can concoct when you're imagination is spinning.
Wow this community is slowly dying. Come on guys, update! And more than once a year.
One Tree Hill Tonight ..Sickk
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2004 11 September :: 4.36pm
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: Buena Vista Social Club
First I'd just like to acknowledge and honor all those who died three years ago today and the brave policemen and firemen who risked their lives. It's a day that I recall so vividly and I will always remember and pray for every single person who was affected by it. It's an awesome thing to have lived through.
It really irks me when people like to pretend tragedies never happens. People just can't seem to handle sadness, it's some sort of disease that we pop a pill for and pretend doesn't exist. When someone loses someone close to them or is going through something very tough, people say: "Don't tell them your sorry or that you're concerned, I'm sure it's the last thing they want to think about." Who the FUCK are you kidding? It's the ONLY thing that they're thinking about. What a frickin lame excuse just to avoid an awkward situation. That's why I was so annoyed after 9/11 when people didn't talk about it...ever. NEWSFLASH: You can't just turn off the world and pretend like there's nothing going on in it. People like that bother me too. Okay, so you don't want to be scared and it depresses you, well um maybe if you payed attention it'd make the things that are depressing you about your life seem MUCH smaller and make you feel even better about how fortunate you are. There are things much bigger than your issues and pretending that they don't exist and that we're trapped in some bubble is ignant and immature. You should be thanking God every single day of your life if your loved ones are safe and that you haven't gone through a tragedy like 9/11 or any other tragedy for that matter. What if you lost someone you love...would you truly not want people to say they're sorry, would you truly want people to ignore 9/11 if you lost a loved one to a similar situation? I'm sorry if anyone is offended by this but it's how I feel and I truly think you're offending our country and the people who work so hard to make your life safe and give you opportunity if you DON'T care about them or the outside world.
I really am not writing this with anyone specific in mind so don't take it personally, but for the sake of our world; pay a little bit more attention, be a little bit more concerned, say you're sorry, pray, whatever, just care about something outside of your own life or your friends own lives. I know I can't change people, all I'm saying is just to care.
On a lighter note, first real night of 10th grade was actually really fun. I love this grade so much. Supporting the sophomore football troops was very cool. After that, some good talks. I love having real talks about everything once in a while and I really think people need to stop complaining that we have a stupid grade. We're cool. And you should appreciate Edgemont too. We're very fortunate to live here. So what we're a little neurotic and gossipy, what suburban town isn't? The grass is always greener on the other side. You're probably a lot happier and could make things much better than you really think.
School is fine I guess. I really miss my schedule from last year...Irreplaceable classes and teachers for sure. But I think I'll be okay. It's just hard to get used to it all.
I'm really looking forward to the year to get going. I hope things change a little bit. I'm just excited to see what happens. I get the feeling it'll be my best year yet. But, that's just one of my silly little inklings.
I hope everyone's enjoying their first weekend...homework yipeee...and can I get a what what? 3 days of school next week....niceeee...The Jews come through in the clutch..jus playin you know I love you all.
I know many people will feel annoyed by this post and think I sound holier than thou and never give me that satisfaction of agreeing with me but I know everyone reading this is an amazing person, and I'm sure many of you care and are concerned about the things I'm talking about already and deep down agree with at least a little bit of what I'm trying to say. But if there's anyone who didn't care and wasn't concerned before reading this or didn't care that much, if I even got them inspired just to turn on the news for 5 seconds tonight, I feel like I've parted the seas.
Much love and peace.
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2004 7 September :: 11.25am
:: Mood: pensive
Here we are again..
looking back I think I have changed significantly. I've changed the way I handle things and I think I've gotten more mature, and I've really just found myself...but I realize that I still suffer from a lot of the same things and still have that ever present worrying problem.
I associate times of the year with colors, smells, feelings, atmospheres and I'm looking forward to all of those times and changes...it's just a matter of getting into it. The first few days suck but once I'm in a groove-I really don't mind school most of the time. In fact, the Virgo that I am appreciates and likes the organization that comes with school. It's good for me.
That doesn't mean this wasn't the best summer ever though, and losing that is going to be very tough.
There's no looking back though. Considering how fast time flies, another summer will be just around the corner.
So I don't really know what the point of this update was other than to just get my feelings out and clear my head before school starts...Very me.
calm, cool, collected
Namaste<3
..All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again..
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2004 5 September :: 10.24am
:: Mood: sad
Memo to Pepsi-please stop taking low blows at coke.
Memo to Ms. Gillan-please stop being a horrible guidance counselor.
Memo to the Boston Red Sox-lose a game or two..or twenty-five...please.
Memo to the New York Yankees-Please do not punch walls and break your hands. Thanks.
Memo to Edgemont Boys-Please grow up...inside and out.
Memo to Napoleon Dynamite-You Rock. Please be real.
Memo to rd-Please re-find me. It can't just be over like this. It just can't.
So there's a brief list of the people on my mind...some obviously more of a big deal than others. I guess I'll get to that later.
So, my birthday was amazing, my family being here was amazing. But the time slowly dwindles away and falls to dust and here I am. This weekend was awesome, but I just can't believe it's over. I had to fight back tears on top of extreme laughter all of yesterday and last night. I finally know what it's like to have been at camp and really just love it. The thought of not seeing these people and not being here during this time of year for almost a year makes me sick to my stomach. And to think that I was worried about having to stay here until labor day...now I never want to leave.
It's not that I'm dreading school.
I'm dreading not being here.
I've finally found my little piece of heaven in these six weeks. Everyone and everything is just so different.
And I guess I'm kind of weirded out that everyone seems to have changed so much...and I didn't really that much. Or maybe I did, who knows. And school seems so sudden, even though we've had so much time to get ready for it, it's still abrupt...sophomores..I can't believe how fast time goes.
I have to go...I guess I'll finish later, but I don't really have a computer at home working...so enjoy my quickly typed thoughts.
I'm off.
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2004 27 August :: 6.49pm
:: Mood: excited
Whole Cow! Anotherrrrrrrrr year
So itzzzz my quinceeee....yay!
Having the family here has been awesome. And my dad's horse won yesterday! And he had another one that came in second.....I just love the game, I can't wait to buy my own horse. Those 10 seconds of them coming down the stretch are one of the most exhilerating 10 seconds I've ever experienced.
And I met Don Zimmer lol!
....And today was great; presents, tubing, jetskiing, massage and now the big partay! And I have to work like 26 hours tomorrow so I'm enjoying the day off.
I don't want this summer to be over.. :(
It's been the best of my life.
Ugh.
Well...much love to everyone...thanks to all the well-wishers!
Btw-my house was burgled and my schedule was found! I have 4th period lunch, 1st per chem 5th global and last spanish--thats all I remember. Comment if u have anything.
Oh, and how could I forget? We got a lawn jockey lol its awesome!
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2004 21 August :: 9.42pm
:: Mood: giddy
:: Music: aerosmith-sweet emotion
Just a briefer...
Going home sucked for the most part.
I've been able to do some really cool things at work...I got to sort of take a picture of the horses coming down the stretch so I was right next to them with mud flying everywhere and stuff...it was so cool, and then I was in the winners circle witnessing all the actionnn...It was so amazingly fun...I felt so important lol...and I was on espn and abc too...um, awesome!
hsb is good...very good.
Family is coming Tuesday--can't freakin' wait. And hopefully gals next week?
And I'm just having lotsa fun...It's just awesome. This place is the shit.
Funny Cide is racing tomorrow!!!
And my (and justine's) horse Just Gabi on Monday!!!
My best to everyone for the end of the summer...
xox
btw--did schedules come yet?
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2004 16 August :: 11.38pm
:: Mood: anxious
I like being home a lot less than I thought I would.
..but then again I'm back upstate in 3 days for another 2-3 weeks.
It's great seeing the stellars, really great, but I've really grown close to the people up there in saratoga. They're like family.
It's like I'm in some sort of a fantasy land up there and when I come back down here I'm reminded of all the things that make my life so hard sometimes...but I'm also reminded of a lot of good things.
But I guess I'm glad I'm back for now cos it's showing me how much fun I'm having and how awesome it is in saratoga.
So thank God it isn't over yet--and the best is yet to come.
Here's to summer, it's still very much happening...soon I'm back to the races.
But for the next 3 days...welcome back Edgemont. Hasn't changed a bit.
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2004 11 August :: 3.34pm
:: Mood: peaceful
Shit...August 11 already?!
Good God this season goes by so incredibly fast.
Things are good, as I've made some decisions that have been lingering in the back of my mind for a while.
I'm trying to clear my mind as much as possible and asess my goals and wants for the upcoming year.
Every once in a while I go through a time when I'm just so utterly satisfied about everything and I put things in perspective and there's this little twinge of happiness in my tummy...now I think I'm actually having one of those times. Which is weird because a few days ago I was all upset.
Gerspachs are coming in a couple days then family, friends, whoever...And this weekend I get to go HOME for a few days--yay home, I miss home. And I can see Stacey and Kate and whoever is back finally :) I can't wait.
I meet and see certain boys and the way they act and it honestly baffles me how different they are from the boys in our grade--and I look at them, some of whom are younger than us, and I'm just like "Wow, guys really can be like this?" I just wonder where most of ours went. It's good and bad. I'm so happy to have met this kid that I work with but at the same time...it's one month of the year. Who knows though, summer changes people.
I've finally realized who the people are that I treasure and cherish so much...And I'm so lucky to have so many of them. It's such a wonderful feeling to have people like that in your life.
And I know that's one thing everyone can agree on.
..Namaste..
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