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2006 5 May :: 11.49 pm
:: Mood: cold and lonely
:: Music: Catholic School Girls Rule - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Brr...
It's cold in my house.
And lonely...
I'm pretty cold and lonely right about now...
I think I'll go heat up my room and watch Wayne's World with my doggies...that sounds good to me! *thumbs up*=)
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2006 5 May :: 3.02 pm
errg...my mom is a meany weany sometimes. I can't go to the movies because she's homosexual...::mad face:: grr..!
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2006 4 May :: 9.42 pm
:: Mood: eh...confused in some way..
:: Music: Fire, Water, Burn - The Bloodhound Gang
So I got my hair colored today and cut. I kinda dont like it now. I liked it at first but when I got home and looked in the mirror...It's just very very...red! =|oh well...it's just hair I guess...what can ya do?
After gettin' mah hair did...Kelly, Mindy, Eddy, Kevin and I all went to buffolo wild wings or whatever. I wasn't too hungry because Ash and I ate ourselves silly at McDonalds so yeah...Kevin ate and payed for my food...haha!
I skipped golf again today. She's going to be mad at me. Oh well...golf sucks..
I think Gravid, Kelly, Mindy, and I are all going to the movies tomorrow night but I dont know if I can or not. My mama is a bitch every now and then. I have a fucking family reunion on Saturday. Mindy you should go with me! lol! That would be awesome.
hmm...yeah. I don't know. Things are weird sometimes I guess but all you can really do is shrug it off and forget about them...*shrugs and forgets*
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2006 3 May :: 3.19 pm
:: Mood: pissed with a passion
AGH!!!
So I just got my first speeding ticket no more than 30 minutes ago...! I was doing 69 in a 55 zone but he only marked me for doing 60. Probably because he saw the look on my face when he told me that my licence plate number didn't go to my car..it went to my mom's old car. And to top it off, my mom never put the new proof of insurance in the car it's still on the refridgerator. I'm so mad. I told my mom that I would pay for the speeding ticket and that was fucking it! I was almost in tears when the cop told me that. I thought right away that he was going to assume that we stole the car and then tow it away...I'm so fucking pissed. I cannot believe how ignorant my parents can be. And they will sit there and tell me for hours at a time how irresponsible I am and how I'll never make it on my own and whatnot. Then shit like this happens that completely shows they can't take care of themselves let alone their 16 year old daughter and they just kind of shrug it off and blame it on someone else. God do I hate that...So now I can't drive until my mom goes to the secretary of state and the court house and gets everything cleared up, IF she's grown up enough to do that on her own....!
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2006 2 May :: 9.07 pm
okay, I lied...one more thing to say...
Do you ever just wish very very bad things upon people you don't even know? Like, you've never even met them, but they have something that drives you crazy or something that you wish you had so much that you just wish they would die so it would be yours...yeah, I'm crazy...BIG DEAL!
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2006 2 May :: 8.40 pm
:: Mood: Emo-licious
Hmm...I just don't know what to really say anymore. It's not like things are terrible right now, I just keep expecting things to get better soon and they don't so it brings me down and I don't really like the feeling of being down all the time.
I really cannot wait until summer! School is stressing me out so bad..I absolutely hate it. Everything about it makes me not want to go more and more everyday. I find myself getting irritated with everyone that I see. The teachers, the people, and even some of my friends. I can't stand it. I'm on the verge of quitting golf. Noone ever wants to go to the meets or to practice and when I don't want to go to a meet, everyone freaks out on me. It really annoys me when I get yelled at for really gay shit.
I find myself missing people awhole lot lately. Like Brixon. I haven't seen him in forever it seems like. And granted I did get sick of him towards the end, now I miss him so much I don't know how I was able to say goodbye. I never realized how good of a friend he was to me. One of the best friends I'll probably ever have...and I highly doubt I'll ever see him again..and that makes me sad.
I've been missing Sona alot too. Like, it kinda feels like it just hit me that she left though she's been gone a year. It's weird when those things happen to you.
I just don't really know what to do with my emotions anymore. People have told me I don't express them very much and that I should more often but then again, I don't want anyone to not want to talk to me either. I just want everything to get over with so I can just have some time to myself to think about things. I feel so messed up lately. I find myself wanting to beg for former people to come back into my life. And that's just not fair to my feelings or theirs because I know even though that's what I think I want now, it's not going to be what I want for much longer. I just wish I didn't make things so complicated all the time. I frustrate myself. *shrugs* oh well, what can ya do?
I have a hair appointment on thursday. Mindy and I are hanging out and we're getting our hair done. Granted she's scheduled for 3:15 and I am scheduled for 6 lol. But I'm going to get it layered and dyed. I am excited. I need some change around here...
*emo sigh* Well kiddies...that's about all the bitchin' and moanin' I have left in me for tonight sooo...TATA!
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2006 1 May :: 4.11 pm
:: Music: Possum Kingdom - Toadies
I realized today that I daydream alot. And alot of it is about things that I want to happen but I know they wont. I need to grow up soon. Just let things go. I hate thinking, but it seems to keep happening and I dont know what to do about that...geesh...
I'm hungry, I love food. I love food almost as much as I love Mindy...lol!
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2006 30 April :: 7.33 pm
:: Music: Emily - From First to Last
I just slept for two hours. I feel exhausted now but happy that I did that. I want to go back to sleep but if I do I'll miss Desperate Housewives...and I just cannot let that happen to me. *emo sigh* I woke up, and my pillow was soked...I guess you just shouldn't always sleep with your mouth open or something...lol.
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2006 30 April :: 1.45 pm
:: Music: Saints and Sailors - Dashboard Confessional
Well, prom was fun...both of them. The after parties were fun. Friday night was a little too much for me though I guess...lol. John explained to me though, you're stomach is like a dance club. When you get all these clowns, russians, and mexicans in there, it's not a pretty sight. Because they start dancing crazy and fighting and then the bouncer comes in and says "Okay, everybody out..!" lol. I love John...
Welp, that's my weekend in a nut shell I suppose...
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2006 27 April :: 9.19 pm
:: Music: I will survive - Cake
I dont know if I'm going to go to school tomorrow or not and if I do, how long I might go. My sister, Janis said she would do my hair for me cause she's awesome. Hmm...who knows? I dont know. I know that no matter what I am skipping Anatomy because I dont want to fail that fucking test...ergg...! welp, yes, tomorrow better be fun or else I'll kill someone and we dont want that to happen. And better news, my daddy came home a day early so I'll have money! YAY! and I can go buy cameras! YIPPIE!! I love Mindy! =) yay!
I'll catch you homies on the flip side in my sweet dress! =)
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2006 27 April :: 3.47 pm
Gosh! The day that I finally feel better, well better than the other days, my mother finds a way to ruin it for me...
She's sucha bitch sometimes and it drives me mad!
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2006 25 April :: 4.15 pm
I love you guys...
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2006 24 April :: 8.56 pm
Have you ever asked yourself; "What's the point in even trying?"
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2006 24 April :: 6.25 pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: Secrets dont make friends - From First To Last
Things just keep getting better and better dont they...?
So, I've come to realize that you really cant trust anyone. There are a limited number of people that I desided that I can trust with most things. I just think I have to be more considerate towards myself when choosing friends and other people who want to have some kind of realationship with me. I'm sick of thinking I know someone and then turns out they've been lying to me or talking behind my back. Drama, drama, drama...I tell ya...I cannot wait until summer. Then I choose who I want to see each day. I'm sick of dealing with fucking backstabbing bitches who complain about their lives and then try to fuck up someone else's. Seriously, how can you be so two-faced?! ugh! I really hate people.
Fuck...!
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2006 23 April :: 7.41 pm
:: Music: Dutch Treat - Jaja Swab
"You know you're dating an emo kid when he has more razors than you"
Well, Battle of the Bands on Friday...Pretty awesome. I was a Judge. It was cool. Jaja Swab won! My boys!!! yay! Mike's band was there. *gags* God do I hate him. You know I was beginning to deside, I didn't hate him, I hated the situation...then I found something out. Okay, Friday Lauren golfed with a girl from Fremont whom claimed to be friends with a girl that dated a kid named Mike Todd at the BEGINNING of the school year...how ironic eh? I dated a kid named Mike Todd at the beginning of the school year as well...as soon as I heard that, my mind changed again...I hate him. With everything I have in me do I hate him. But what I hate the most is the fact that the more I hate him, the more I miss him...but I'll never, in a million years go back to that...I'm better and stronger than that.
Anyways, Saturday rolled around...had to work. Then Mindy and I went to the movies. We saw Benchwarmers. It was my second time seeing it and it didn't get old. Funny shit...I love that movie. Then I spend the night at Mindy's and had to be to work at 8 in the morning which blew but I got out at 1 so that's ok. We had our gay Spring Concert for band today. It was so fucking retarded. Oh well though I suppose. That shit is almost over with anyways.
Prom is this week which is pretty fucktastic! I cant wait! I'm going to look so hot. You're all going to want to do me but...I probably wont let you...ok I might but it's only because I dont want you guys to die cause I know if I was someone else who wanted to do me and I wouldn't let me, I'd die and that wouldn't be too cool. lol..yeah I'm pretty full of myself I know..
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