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:: 2004 26 December :: 11.42 pm

moved to user certainty

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:: 2004 12 December :: 1.21 am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: konstantine - something corporate

i need to update in here again

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:: 2004 5 June :: 9.58 am

i don't know if i am going to update this journal anymore...nick has left, so the only reason i have stayed is for eric but i think he wants nothing to do with me...

what a waste of $2...

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:: 2004 3 June :: 9.47 pm

eric -

i'm sorry for whatever i have done wrong.

whatever it was i didn't mean to.

please forgive me.

...katy

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:: 2004 29 May :: 3.22 pm

update...lol

life sucks, that's all i can say

i need a boyfriend

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:: 2004 23 May :: 5.23 pm

Enneagram Test Results
Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||||||| 61%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||||||| 77%
Type 3 Image Focus |||||||||||||||| 62%
Type 4 Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 81%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||| 56%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||||||||| 81%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||| 37%
Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||| 38%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||| 35%
Your Conscious-Surface type is 4w3
Your Unconscious-Overall type is 4w3
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Personality Disorder Test Results
Paranoid |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Schizoid |||||||||||| 46%
Schizotypal |||||||||| 34%
Antisocial |||| 18%
Borderline |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Histrionic |||||||||| 38%
Narcissistic |||| 14%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 46%
Dependent |||||||||||||||| 70%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
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:: 2004 23 May :: 5.17 pm

Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results
Sociability ||||||||||||||| 42%
Aggressiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Assertiveness |||||||||||||||||| 54%
Activity Level |||||||||||| 38%
Excitement-Seeking |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Enthusiasm ||||||||||||||| 50%
Extroversion ||||||||||||||| 50%
Trust ||||||||||||||| 46%
Morality ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Altruism ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Cooperation |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Modesty ||||||||||||||| 50%
Sympathy |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Friendliness |||||||||||||||||| 60%
Confidence |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Neatness |||||||||||||||||| 54%
Dutifulness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Achievement |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Self-Discipline |||||||||||||||||| 54%
Cautiousness ||||||||||||||| 46%
Orderliness |||||||||||||||||| 56%
Anxiety |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
Volatility |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Depression |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Self-Consciousness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Impulsiveness |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Vulnerability |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
Emotional Stability ||||||||| 22%
Imagination |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Artistic Interests |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Introspection |||||||||||||||||| 54%
Adventurousness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66%
Intellect |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Liberalism |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Openmindedness ||||||||||||||||||||| 65%
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:: 2004 22 May :: 7.36 pm

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

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:: 2004 21 May :: 3.37 pm

call me if you need me, the next couple days may result in a long absence

i did it.

it's over.

i think he is happy.

i wish i were dead.

please excuse me while i go cry.

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:: 2004 20 May :: 3.47 pm
:: Music: everything sucks when you're gone // mxpx

urg..
so i haven't had a REAL update in 2546874456576874 years so here goes nothing:

I'm sick of people's shit, seriously...i can't take it much longer. I nearly jumped over a desk to knock james mitchell's teeth out. A faculty member asked me if i need to be escorted off the property. I swear to fucking god i'm gonna kill somone...

I'm sick of aaron's shit. TOMORROW IS THE DAY!! I'm ending it...i gave him that fucking CD mix today...fuck i hate him sometimes...

urg, i'm going to post him a message in my LJ...i hope he enjoys it...bastard

---> Katy

"I hope you choke on those words, that kiss, that bottle...." - fall out boy

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:: 2004 19 May :: 3.18 pm

EPC and Eleanor's Fall show on saturday may 29th at 5:30pm...anyone wanna go with me? we can make a day out of it....

...katy

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:: 2004 12 May :: 9.14 pm

i wish i were good enough for someone...or just worth someone's time....

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:: 2004 26 April :: 9.57 pm

i've been reading my old entries...i'm lucky to be where i am at and have what i have...

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:: 2004 19 April :: 6.26 pm

today wasn't good...it wasn't bad either...just weird...i have too much on my mind...


that damn exacto is whispering my name again...

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:: 2004 18 April :: 5.10 pm
:: Mood: unsure

She paints me blue // something corporate

Tonight I watched the lights go out in your house
Wondering how I could get so deep
And you could still get sleep
In vain I blame my trembling on the cold air
But I can't hide that I've relied on you
Like yellow does on blue

And you're my
Good feeling
I'm kneeling
Inside a room she paints me blue
And you are
My reason
For breathing
Inside a room she paints me blue, again

Atlanta started raining on me
And teenage love was underground
Tonight I'll break the surface
Atlanta started raining on me
And no young girl was claiming me
Or naming me and destiny gets nervous

And you're my
Good feeling
I'm kneeling
Inside a room she paints me blue
And you are
My reason
For breathing
Inside a room she paints me blue, again

And you're my
Good feeling
I'm kneeling
Inside a room she paints me blue
And you are
My reason
For breathing
Inside a room she paints me blue, again

Atlanta started raining on me
On me
Atlanta started raining on me
On me

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:: 2004 18 April :: 5.08 pm

I love you...


you're my reason for breathing

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:: 2004 18 April :: 12.44 am

eric don't be sad

katy lurves you...



that is all for tonight

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:: 2004 15 April :: 5.43 pm

grand theft autumn // fall out boy
where is your boy tonite? i hope he is a gentleman.
and maybe he wont find out what i know: you were the last good thing about this
part of town.

when i wake up, im willing to take my chances on the hope you hate him
more than you notice i wrote this for you.

you need him. i should be him... i could be an accident but im still trying.
thats more than i can say for him.

where is your boy tonite? i hope he is a gentleman.
and maybe he wont find out what i know: you were the last good thing about this
part of town.

someday ill appreciate in value, get off my ass and call you.. but for the
meantime ill sport my brand new fashion of waking up with pants on at
4 in the afternoon

you need him. i should be him... i could be an accident but im still trying.
thats more than i can say for him.

where is your boy tonite? i hope he is a gentleman.
and maybe he wont find out what i know: you were the last good thing about this
part of town. (repeat)



yeah this song is rad, eric had me watch the video last night...i heart it lol

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:: 2004 7 April :: 5.33 pm

i realized today that girls make life out to be such a big fucking drama...jesus, go take a prozac ladies. lol yeah...there's this person I hate and I have some choice words to say to them that i've been holding in for a dog's age and I may soon decide to simply tell that person how much i hate them. heh-heh-heh I'm so mean guys.

so i have pneumonia...blows ass for quarters, let me tell you.

I wish I were pretty homies

<3's
||Katy||

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:: 2004 30 March :: 8.38 pm
:: Music: Lifehouse

Hanging By a Moment

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm Chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm Hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and I question where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm Chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and I question where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment here with you.

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:: 2004 20 March :: 10.43 pm
:: Mood: in lurve
:: Music: Lifehouse // Take me away


This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
This time you burned me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away

I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do

I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Don't give up on me yet
Don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
But don't let me stay here alone

This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
I've seen enough
And it's never enough
It keeps me leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

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:: 2004 19 March :: 8.42 pm

meh, i need a new screen name on here...suggestions are welcome...

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:: 2004 14 March :: 11.37 am
:: Mood: I have a headache..
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional

This Bitter Pill
Walking away
It's not the same as running
Is it to you now
That you've run this in the ground?
and you say "Take this,"
This medicine is just what you deserve
Swallow, choke, and die.

And this bitter pill is leaving you with such an angry mouth
One that's void of all discretion, such an awful tearing sound
With its measure only equaled by the power of my stare
Glaring over you and over you, this feeling of despair
Is never wearing out.

It's wearing off
And it's leaving you with such a heavy heart
And a head to match
The bottle is waiting
The cap is twisted, begging to be used
And so are you.

And this bitter pill is leaving you with such an angry mouth
One that's void of all discretion, such an awful tearing sound
With its measure only equaled by the power of my stare
Glaring over you and over you, this feeling of despair
Is never wearing out.

Wearing out, wearing out.

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:: 2004 14 March :: 11.36 am

woo i made a new icon, it's on my lj too, but i'm thinking about makeing a specific one for woohu...hmmm...*ponders*

<3's
||Katers||

ps - nick i heart you...spread the word of frontanism...!!

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:: 2004 12 March :: 4.57 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Thrice // Stare at the Sun

I sit here clutching uselessness
keys from doors that donít exist
I crack my teeth on pearls

tear into the history
show me what it means to me
in this world, yeah in this world

because I am due for a miracle
Iím waiting for a sign
I stare straight, into the sun
and I wont close my eyes
until I understand or go blind


seen the parts but not the whole
studied saints and scholars both
And no perfect plan unfolds
do I trust my heart or just my mind
why is truth so hard to find, in this world,
yea in this world

because I am due for a miracle
Iím waiting for a sign
I stare straight, into the sun
and I wont close my eyes
until I understand or go blind

know that thereís a point Iíve missed
father stone i haven't kissed
a sky that never graced my wrist
a mirror hasn't left my fist
but I can't help
Feeling like I'm

feeling like Iím due for a miracle

Iím waiting for a sign
I stare straight, into the sun
and I wont close my eyes
due for a miracle
Iím waiting for a sign
Iíll stare straight into the sun
And I wonít close my eyes

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