<center>And i can still hear the sound of love, run dry...</center>

:: 2005 24 March :: 10.01pm

wow!
Check this out

:: 2005 22 March :: 8.12pm

1. Give me your number?
2. Have sex with me?
3. Let me kiss you?
4. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
5. Let me take you out to dinner?
6. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. Take a shower with me?
8. Be my bf/gf?
9. Have a fling with me?
10. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
11. Buy me a drink if I didnt have money?
12. Take me for the night?
13. Would you let me sleep in your bed?
14. Sing kareoke w/ me?
15. Go in the doctor's office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
16. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
17. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
18. Do you like my style?
19. Do you think I'm funny?
20. Do you care about me?
21. Would you cry if I died?
22. Would you dance with me?
23. Would you sing happy birthday to me?
24. Would you hold my hair back at a party if I was throwing up due to intoxication?

:: 2005 20 March :: 9.42pm

you know, i think it was a good thing that i kept going. The experenice has taught me alot. i think they've kept me out of trouble

:: 2005 9 March :: 5.43pm

well lately i have been working on a site for the youth group, it's going allright. there isn't much for me to put on there until we have or next meetin.
Here it is

:: 2005 6 March :: 8.12pm

some reason i feel like i don't belong there, i feel like the kids there don't like me. i don't think they do. am i not supose to be there? do they not want me there? should i keep going? help me out what should i do? because i sure don't. every sience things have happen with me and her i just don't feel like i should go anymore, things just arn't the same. i just wish thing would go back to normal yes i know there isn't really anything that is normal. well atleast you guys don't no what my version of normal is. but i just hope that my version of normal gets back

:: 2005 5 March :: 10.25pm

why can't life go back to the old days
Like in 5th grade? i just wish they cold, back when school didn't really even count, now school is just so damn demanding. just like girl friends can be sometimes. i just wish it could go back

:: 2005 21 February :: 10.31am

Hell yeah i just found out that when I go to Texas this summer were going to stay on the beach right on the golf of mexico Hell yeah

:: 2005 21 February :: 10.13am

i love that movie "Little Rascels" i used to have it but i don't no where it's at now.

7 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2005 18 February :: 11.40pm

tonight went more shitty then i thought, i knew it wasn't true. it was just excuse. i did have a little fun down at the kent helping katie Aardima out

BigTy623

:: 2005 15 February :: 3.02pm

well... today went really good. even though i am really tired it went well. happy birthday day Liz hope it's going well.
talk to you later
Tyler

:: 2005 14 February :: 7.15pm

WOW! i'm in such a good mood right now! someone just showed up and made my day great

3 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2005 14 February :: 5.25am

happy valentines people

11 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2005 13 February :: 3.17pm

hi everyone,
how was the dance? I HAD FUN YESTERDAY even though i didn't go to the dance. i went over and helped my uncle work on the suburban. that was fun

1 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2005 12 February :: 10.20am

well... i hope you all have fun going to swirl tonight, i am going to my uncles today so i can help him the engine back in the suburban. i think it's gonna be alot of fun :). more fun the going to swirl by myself. so i just hope all of you who do go have fun talk to you all later
Tyler

:: 2005 11 February :: 5.21pm

thats the way i feel, thats what i felt like i did.
King Of The Hil On FX

...[Ryan

:: 2005 11 February :: 5.20pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: sum 41-pieces

i tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it...
im back!!!

ill try to update this as much as my livejournal.!!

love you all!! <33

:: 2005 11 February :: 12.27pm

thank you andy for doing that to my journal, well today is a good day. i didn't get my homework done so i had my mom call in for me :) it was a ruff draft that had to be done

8 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2005 22 January :: 1.52pm
:: Mood: annoyed

help

so sorry to inform ya'll but im going to use livejournal as my journal unless i can fix how my woohu looks. it seems to say error everytime i try to modify it. hmm. if u can help that wuld be great. if not, check me out at:

www.livejournal.com/~dumbblonde1137

k thanks. <3

:: 2005 18 January :: 5.16pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: john mayer

he puts the color inside of my world...

today sucked. it was soo0o0oo cold and i wore a skirt so i froze. 1st hr was lamer than lame. 2nd hr took a test, did horrible. 3rd hr slept. 4th hr was umm..shame? 5th hr did a DBQ. it was kinda easy. 6th hr paid attention actually. 7th hr talked to my-oh-so-rad sub. shes so cool i love her. i wish she was our real teacher...after school hung out with gusto and damian. went home and me, niki, nicole, camila, gustavo and alyssa went to buy nicole a pregnancy test to see if shes preganant. = NEGATIVE. so thats good. and she dumped donnie. yay! <33. came home and yeah. now im stuck here thinking. thats not a good sign...i dont trust myself thinking about things for so long. mayb ill go like hang out with sumone...errr.

later.

:: 2005 16 January :: 11.41pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: maroon 5

but things get crazy, living life gets hard to do...

today was ehhh. went to the mall with camila and met up with sam, krisitn, eventually gustavo and jeremy came too. we saw eric and nick. ooo! and i saw johnny nonni! <3 he scared me. lolol. omg we saw this group of guys that looked gay so we followed them into american eagle and sam starts talking to them and they like...i dunno if they're are gay or not. one wasnt for sure cuz he wanted kristin lol. then sams mom took us home to camilas.hung out there. then jeremy, gustavo, chris and max showed up. we all hung out and shit and played pool. it was sorta fun..then sam, chris, and max left. then yeah. then i had to go home at 11:30 and everyone pissed me off anyways. came home in tears but amanda made me feel better! <333. yeah now im tired. so im gunna sleep. peace motherfuckers.

<33 ?

:: 2005 15 January :: 9.47pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: my chemical romance

for all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took...

wow tonight was lame. fell asleep for a while and then woke up to eat dinner and my brother like ran away and was missing...whatever. then went to nicoles cuz she needed help with something.. it was funny. she went like freako lesbian on me in the garage lol then we both had to pee so we went to the bathroom, got toilet paper and peed on the side of her house --cuz we're fucking cool like that. hahaha wow we're idiots. it was friggin hilarious. then i went home and yeah. im boreddd.

<33333

1 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2005 15 January :: 4.48pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: usher, jon and luda lol

we'll be lovers and friends...

omfg. im so bored. this weekend sucks. camila has to babysit tonight so does nicole. sam got grounded and....? thats like everyone (as sad as that sounds). so im probably not gunna do anything tonight..urghhh.

i guess i'll just keep waiting...

<3

:: 2005 14 January :: 10.57pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: none

2nd best day of my life:

my daddy took me and camila to the mall. there was literally no one there. we walked around and shit, talked to protagonist brian. then ate sesame chicken at a japanese place. it was funny. her parents piked us up after we made complete fools of ourselves outside of the mall. then they went to home depot so me and camila walked to ben and jerrys to see if piercing boy really does work there....HE DOES!!! so we went in to buy ice cream and he gave it to us! omg i kept the cup!! LOL. it was beautiful, just like his face. then we ran into danny inman and bryan at blockbuster. me and camila ran across 441 like 90439 times.-almost died once. ran into juliano, got stalked by 12 year olds, climbed a mountain, got asked to smoke pot with sum guys, and stole a ryan cabrera picture. yes.,it was good fun. lol. but im so happy i was piercing boy. i hadnt seen him in 3 weeks... hahahaha.

<333

1 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2005 14 January :: 4.26pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: lonestarrr.

he called on her on the road jus to hear her say "i love you" one more time...

today sucked. 1st hr was incredibly boring. i slept mostly. butttt ommmg me and hayley were so happy cuz seth simmons (our military dude) finally wrote bak! -but not to us personally...fagggg! 3rd hr is so fucking gay. i hate that class and i hate the ppl in it. mr. adler wuldnt let me sleep. urggh. lunch was lame as usual. 5th hour was boring and yeah. chemistry we had our darling sub again. <3. firedrill. and work that i didnt do. it was pouring after school...ehhh. then kyla got all mad at me cuz she went thru sams shit and read a note i wrote to sam and yeah. personally thats ur problem...u shuldnt have been going thru other ppls shit. whatever. theres so much drama that all i can do is laugh. hahahaha. tonight is going to be lame. cuz i dunno what to do...ehh.

<33

:: 2005 13 January :: 6.06pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: lonestar

and i'll gently kiss your lips, touch you with my fingertips...

school was ehhh. i looked hott today tho. lolol. english was gay. spanish i did good on my skit. lunch was gay like usual. sam lost our notebook...ehhh. history was lame. algebra was ok. did all my hw with sean. after school had to write an essay for ms. dice. talked to damian and camila (god i love that kid hes so funny) then to luke (who hates me) and went home. stilllll wasnt allowed to drive so i walked to wendys with nicole. saw noone. then had to go to camilas to do "something" hahahahahahahahahhaha. then went home. now im bored. and im getting sick. blahhh.

<333

:: 2005 12 January :: 4.45pm
:: Mood: upset
:: Music: my chemical romance

im not okay...i promise.

today was good sorta. got my license...woo. then daddy took me to mcdonalds for breakfast =] . got to school in time for fourth hr. then lunch. thats starting to be my least favorite part of the day. everyone was making me upset. i even broke down and started crying...of course no one noticed cept allie cuz shes my love. rest of the day was gay. after school like no one was there. went home and then i couldnt even take the car cuz of sum insurance shit. that pissed me off. then ppl online were making me mad and then my family starts bitching at me so i go in my room and have one of my breakdowns. i get better and max and camila call. i found out sum shit and it put me in an even worser mood. im so upset right now. and i broke a promise. ehh.

i wish piercing boy still had first lunch. he was the only thing that got me through the day at school. i never see him now. but i think i like someone else now...but im not gunna get my hopes up, jus gunna see howit plays out...i swear to god this is the only thing keeping me sane. gahh.

:: 2005 11 January :: 5.42pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: ryan cabrizzle! <33

and everything that you thought was fine, has turned its back into more than time...

today was cool i guess. enviromental was soooo friggin boring. law studies= new class. with gayyyyy people in it. desiree is in it thank god. so is brittany and sean. donnie, katie, theo, and courtney are in it,..ugh. that was boring today. lunch was okay..i has pasta thrown at me? and still , no piercing boy. i miss my love. i wore all black today to mourn his loss. lol im sucha fag. then history was ehhh. took notes and i culdnt sleep cuz justin kept waking me up...stupid bastard!! then chemistry had a sub. she was cool-like gothic but not really. black nail polish pale and black coat. it was cute. lol. that class was super boring. after school i had an NHS meeting, then got home like 3:30 and then went with nicole up to wendys to do our math hw. we saw sean, kevin and josh up there. then we left and saw max and then nicole left and alinas mom piked me up on the side of the road and took me home. lol. i <3 her. yeah now im gunna go eat dinner. license tomorrow!! wooot. im scared/mega nervous!!
....oh yeah, and anthony chavez has a crush on me. hmmm..its cute. lol. random,...but cute. haha.

laterrrrr! <33

:: 2005 10 January :: 4.42pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: spanish song by ryan <33

i cant even help my self...

you are the one...

-ehh first day back at school. all same classes except 3rd hour. now i have law studies.ehhh. it fucking sucks. piercing boy isnt in my lunch anymore *tear* tomorrow im wearing all black to mourn his loss. but hes in nikis 4th hr. i wanna switch but i cant. gahhhhhhhhhhh. so mad/sad. anyways...i paid attention in history *clap for me* lol. fucking arsalan annoyed me in 6th and so did sean. whatever. omg after school we talked to damian. he is fucking hilarious i love that kid. lol. then grandma took me driviing after school cuz she got new brakes and she wanted me to get used to them. walked to publix w/ camila so she culd get cake frosting. ran into max, talked to him for a bit then walked home. talked to ronnie and yeah. now im bored. peace.

<33

...you are the only one i want.

:: 2005 9 January :: 8.18pm
:: Mood: distressed
:: Music: i will by ryan cabrera <33

do you ever wonder, if we were not friends?

today was L A M E. woke up at 10 and went home from camilas house. took a shower talked to people online and then got ready. then my daddy took me driving. we went to the DMV to practice the course cuz i went thru it in drivers ed. last year. omggg i suck soooo bad at parking. literally spent a good 30 mins jus trying to park. then we went to KFC and ewwie. my chicken was like a tad pink so i wuldnt eat it. then drove home. i love when my daddy takes me places like this. we talk. mostly about his past and my future. i gets me thinking about college and whatnot.. came home and nicole wanted to go walking so we did. walked up to wendys and max stopped by to say hi. saw emily up there. then we walked back and talked to sum dude named dream. he was cool. then went to my house and sat on my driveway. seth and jd stopped by then everyone left. ate dinner and decorated both me and camilas and me and sams slambooks. now im dreading school tomorrow cuz its an even day and i didnt write an essay for english...eek!!

<33