Now I'm holding my face in the basement Scratching away for any trace Of affection you will leave Falling victim as the publics prey


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:: 2005 23 February :: 5.55 pm

i have days. i hate days. they all make me wait.

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:: 2005 20 February :: 11.00 am

smile like you mean it.

i miss you.
i feel like i havent seen you in a lifetime.
come back to me?

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:: 2005 30 January :: 11.46 am
:: Music: Saints and Sailors

this weekend was fun. now i have three fucking papers to write that i havent even started, and i have to work tonight. i fucking hate my life.

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:: 2005 26 January :: 6.15 pm

time just loves to pass in the most aweful ways with me.

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:: 2005 25 January :: 8.05 pm
:: Music: The Used- Yesterday's Feelings

i have a problem making decisions. i never realized this before. i can't even decide if i regret what i did. it's quite an odd feeling. i had previously made one decision: that the future was not something for me. i don't want one. now, im being told that im being given one anyways and asked what i plan to do with it. such a tedious task, but then all of life is tedious. i hate my life. im sorry if you hate yours.

damn you.

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:: 2005 23 January :: 1.41 pm
:: Music: the killers

your head is full of crap

you are all making somthing out of something so completely redundant, it's really nothing. dumbasses. what difference does it make?

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:: 2005 19 January :: 1.10 pm

"But greed is a bottomless pit
And all freedom's a joke, we're just taking a piss
And the whole world must watch
The sad comic display
If you're still free, start running away
'Cuz we're coming for ya
We're gonna read them out"
- Bright Eyes "One Foot In Front of the Other"

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:: 2005 17 January :: 9.24 am

what would you do if i went blind?

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:: 2005 17 January :: 9.15 am
:: Music: the Postal Service

doot do doo.

no school. no friends. no plans.

sarcastic Yaay.

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:: 2005 16 January :: 12.34 pm

i've built this place into a prison. i've confined myself solitary.

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:: 2005 16 January :: 11.19 am
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional

she had a history of killing herself and i had a habit of dying.

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:: 2005 15 January :: 12.17 pm

i do not want to be what i am any more. this affects you. you are what makes me hate myself.
i do not know how to change without pissing you off and losing friends.

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:: 2005 12 January :: 12.32 pm

you made my head ache, you were that great. but now you're gone and life is wonderful
-Bright Eyes "I Woke Up With This Song in My Head This Morning"

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:: 2005 8 January :: 10.22 am
:: Music: tears for fears- mad world

out into the snowshine
rays of streaming flakes of pale like ashes

life makes me want to die. school makes me want to kill myself. so do you.

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:: 2005 5 January :: 6.23 pm
:: Music: atreyu

i started retracing my steps to find what i lost. so im recalling every memory that i possibly can, starting with the oldest. im writing most of them down. its quite fun.

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