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:: 2017 13 September :: 5.54 pm

It would be so easy and freeing to slip into madness... Life is becoming far more surreal and less tangible than before. It's hard to judge what matters and whether societal constructs like consequences are even possible or are just in my head.


:: 2017 15 August :: 9.54 pm

Everyone is talking about how they want to punch Nazis.

Let me just say this, I would rather live in a country that allows me to protest for anything I want to say than a country that doesn't allow me to protest at all. So many of my friends hate that everyone is using freedom of speech but that is far better than running over the protestors and I'd much rather hear someone allowed to speak their minds than see people being thrown in jail for uttering those words at all.

I hate racists. They are the scum of the earth. My job involves getting rid of them and I love that... but violence begets violence. The reason why the Civil Rights movement was so effective was because of Martin Luther King Jr, not Malcolm X. Dr. King used his words and his reason to speak to the bistandards of the horrible atrocities and convince them of his cause, convince them to rally with him, convince them that his black brothers and sisters were not violent but were peaceful and just wanted a country to call home that would allow them to raise their families safely, freely, and with basic human rights: exactly the same thing the bistandards desired for themselves.

I don't think punching white nationalists is the right thing to do however completely it shuts them up. The point of America is not to silence the people.

At the same time, no one deserved to be run over either. That was such a terrible thing.

During the course of my life, I have had to learn the consequences of both racially-charged language and violence. I have learned. I have grown. I understand the gravity of my actions and I hope others do as well.

If we are headed for civil war it would be a tragic thing. I will continue to believe that a non-violent course of action is what is right. One day I may get punched for saying that myself but until I use self-defense, that is what I have hope for: a non-violent end to this conflict.


:: 2017 2 August :: 10.35 pm

I fucking hate some dreams.
This one the most.

I have never felt worse.


:: 2017 27 July :: 7.11 pm

I am so tired of pretending like things are okay.

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:: 2017 23 July :: 11.54 pm

Sometimes I hate everything.

Sometimes I don't feel anything.

Sometimes I have guilt for arguing and exploding but in all actuality I'm not angry at all and have no idea why I perpetuate all the bullshit that I do.

I'm garbage.


:: 2017 20 July :: 9.32 pm

Tonight was wonderful <3


:: 2017 17 July :: 5.10 pm

Fun night with Kayla to come! Wooo!!! ^-^


:: 2017 13 July :: 8.30 pm

I need another vacation... already.


:: 2017 9 July :: 3.31 pm

I feel so alone.


:: 2017 5 July :: 8.01 pm

I've decided. I want to have a party where
everyone gets high/drunk af and plays N64 and SNES.

I need another TV. People can rent those, right?

I'm going to do it at my apartment.

Somehow, much like other events I've had, I feel like no one is going to show up... Ugh. The Pacific Northwest is balls for open, trustworthy communication. The Seattle Freeze is a real fucking thing.

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