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:: 2006 20 January :: 1.23 pm

six months single


:: 2006 17 January :: 11.58 pm

figures, he's doing the same thing he did before


:: 2006 7 January :: 1.13 am

wow my soap opera boyfriend kissed me

(some of you know what that means and or who that is)


:: 2006 5 January :: 1.11 pm

my grandma and grandpa's dog died
goodbye kenize

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:: 2006 3 January :: 12.16 am

wow i am starting to act a little like my sis, i fell for someone in the armed forces

*giggle giggle

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:: 2005 28 December :: 1.39 am

something happend
it seemed to good to be true
sadly it wasn't
it was all a dream
i had forgptton about it, and when i remmeber and realized it was just a dream
i almost started crying


:: 2005 23 December :: 1.57 am
:: Mood: annoyed

wow, isn't it great when people call you at almost 2 in the morning, its so much fun. it was vinnie

vinnie is a guy that is in hilarys class that does the art and bevs thing at cc. i make this short, he put his # in my phone, and we would talk a little bit on the phone, then i hadn't heard from him in like a week and i didn't feel like wasteing my time, because guys are stupid (jesse hits me in my leg) so i wasn't even going to bother, and they he called me, at almost 2 in the morning, and its not the first time he has done that. half the time he can't hear me and the other half i cna't understand what he's saying. and i guess he wants to hang out sometime but he lives in kalamazoo, so if we did meet up it would be somewhere in gr.

so there is my rambling for now.



:: 2005 21 December :: 11.49 pm

just lyrics
And in my twisted face, there's not the slightest trace
Of anything that even hints at kindness.
And from my tortured shape, no comfort, no escape.
I see, but deep within is utter blindness.
Hopeless as my dream dies, as the time flies, love a lost illusion.
Helpless, unforgiven, cold and driven to this sad conclusion.

No beauty could move me, no goodness improve me.
No power on earth,
No passion could reach me, no lesson could teach me

Long ago I should have seen all the things I could have been.
Careless and unthinking, I moved onward!

No pain could be deeper, no life could be cheaper.
No point anymore,
No spirit could win me, no hope left within me,
Someone set me free! But it's not to be.
So just let the world be done with me.


:: 2005 5 December :: 12.31 am

Love is just an illusion
A mere fantasy
Make up along with fairies, trolls and pixie dust
All things of a child who doesn’t know better

Love is just a barrier
Blocking us from our potential
Sending us doing a different path
The path that will ultimately lead to pain

Love is just a thought
It’s only a feeling because we think it is
True the heat beats red and sometimes burns
But that’s just eating the wrong food

Love is just a fairy tale
There is no pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
No knight in shining armor coming to the rescue
No happily every after

If love is just an illusion
Then why do I miss love so
Where is my pixie dust
My rainbow my knight in shining armor

To think I don’t need it is the illusion
The only illusion about love to believe its just an illusion
If you believe, to believe, then there is that fairy tale waiting to be found
So the question is.......

Where is my happily ever after


:: 2005 2 December :: 2.17 am

well i have my play this weekend
for those that care the show is at 7 at the kent, friday dec 2 and saturday dec 3 there is a earlier show on sunday not sure what time
thats something i should know but i dont oh well

nothing new has really happend lately.


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:: 2005 28 November :: 6.28 pm

help save an awesome show


:: 2005 26 November :: 1.40 am

Song from the musical wicked
“Dancing through life
Down at the Ozdust
If only because dust
Is what we come to!
And the strange thing:
Your life could end up changing
While you're dancing

“Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl
Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl”

“I'm through accepting limits
Becasue someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who'd ground me
Take a message back from me
Tell them how I am
Defying gravity
I'm flying high
Defying gravity
And soon I'll match them in renown
And nobody in all of Oz
No Wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!”

Kiss Me too fiercely
Hold me too tight
I meed help believing
You're with me tonight
My wildest dreams
Could not foresee
Lying beside you
With you wanting me

And just for this moment
As long as you're mine
I've lot all resistance
And crossed some boarderline
And if it turns out
It's over too fast
I'll make every last moment last
As long as you're mine

“I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew youI have been changed for good
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:
I have been changed for good”

and my favorite song NO GOOD DEED
Eleka nahmen nahmen
Ah tum ah tum eleka nahmen
Eleka nahmen nahmen
Ah tum ah tum eleka nahmen
Let his flesh not be torn
Let his blood leave no stain
Though they beat him
Let him feel no pain
Let his bones never break
And however they try
To destroy him
Let him never die:
Let him never die:
Eleka nahmen nahmen
Ah tum ah tum eleka nahmen
Eleka nahmen nahmen
Ah tum ah tum eleka: eleka:
What good is this chanting?
I don't even know what I'm reading!
I don't even know which trick I ought to try
Fiyero, where are you?
Already dead, or bleeding?One more disaster I can add to my
Generous supply?
Doctor Dillamond:
One question haunts and hurts
Too much, too much to mention:
Was I really seeking good
Or just seeking attention?
Is that all good deeds are
When looked at with an ice-cold eye?
If that's all good deeds are
Maybe that's the reason why
No good deed goes unpunished
All helpful urges should be circumvented
No good deed goes unpunished
Sure, I meant well -
Well, look at what well-meant did:
All right, enough - so be it
So be it, then:
Let all Oz be agreed
I'm wicked through and through
Since I can not succeed
Fiyero, saving you
I promise no good deed
Will I attempt to do again
Ever again
No good deed
Will I do again!”


:: 2005 22 November :: 3.51 pm

i went to the cedar springs high school play wizard of oz
and it was awesome, props to anyone involved
i'm in between classes right now, can't wait til wednesday night i'll get to see sarah noreen and i have seen her since june so thats exciting.
any way ttyl


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:: 2005 20 November :: 12.15 am

the results speak for themselves
You're crazy! YAY!
Now, if the world had more people like you, we'd be
cultivating chocolate and the ozone would be a
thing of the past.
^_^ Have a nice day.

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:: 2005 14 November :: 4.33 pm

i have lost over 20 pounds since july and i can fit into an 8

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