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:: 2004 21 June :: 1.57 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: I'd Do Anything - Simple Plan

bzoink things!
What is your favorite..
gum:orbit
restaurant:cazador?
drink:water
season:fall
type of weather:rain/storms
emotion:umm..that fluttery feeling i get when im around people i love
thing to do on a half day:half day? like early out? uh..go to the park
late-night activity:writing poetry
sport:tennis
city:portland
store:er..kohls?
When was the last time you..
cried:couple days ago
played a sport:umm..probably in p.e.
laughed:yesterday
hugged someone:oh wow..last time i saw justin?
kissed someone:i kissed stryder last night
felt depressed:last night
felt elated:this morning
felt overworked:thursday before last
faked sick:last tuesday
lied:umm...not long ago
What was the last..
word you said:peekaboo
thing you ate:a lil chocolate bar
song you listened to:uhh..some song by less than jake
thing you drank:diet cream soda
place you went to:i went out for a run
movie you saw:little big foot
movie you rented:spy kids 3?
concert you attended:dashboard confessional
Who was the last person you..
hugged:didnt i just do this one? i think it was justin..
cried over:uhh...idk
kissed:STRYDER
danced with:justin
shared a secret with:mindy
had a sleepover with:wow lets think back a long ways...probably sam
called:my mother
went to a movie with:my parents
saw:my mum
were angry with:my father
couldn't take your eyes off of:lol..do i have to say?
obsessed over:er..isn't it obvious?
Have you ever..
danced in the rain:YES
kissed someone:stryder..
done drugs:nah
drank alcohol:a wee bit
slept around:lol. no
partied 'til the sun came up:mhmm
had a movie marathon:yea
gone too far on a dare:i dont think so
spun until you were immensely dizzy:all the time..ask justin
taken a survey quite like this before:yepp

The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety! brought to you by BZOINK!

Shower
What kind of shower do you use?:er..idk
Do you listen to music in the shower?:yepp
What kind of shampoo do you use?:head and sholders
Conditioner?:dove
Any other products?:well...dove soap and body wash, and shaving gel..dunno what brand
What do you do when you get out of the shower?:dry off
Do you blow dry your hair?:nope
Straighten/Crimp/Curl it ?:straighten it sometimes
What kind of ... do you use?
Make-up:dont really use make-up..neutragena cover-up
Fragrence:like perfume? ewww
Lotion:dont like lotion
Razor:venus
Tampons:tampax
Face mask?:nope
Other products do you use on your face?:aveeno cleansing pads
How often do you...
Get a haircut?:im not cutting it until yule
Where at?:my mum
Shave your legs?:a lot
Exercise?:try to everyday
Brush your teeth a day?:1 or 2
Brush your hair?:uhh..not a lot
Talk on the cell or phone?:usually quite a bit
Get a manicure/pedicure/do your nails?:NEVER
Cry?:way too much
Watch TV?:not too much
Go on dates?how many work out?:i dont really go on dates.
Either Or(Guys)
One who is obsessed or just a chill kind of guy with you:chill kind of guy
Tall/Short:tall
Built/lean:umm...lean
A jokester/Sincere:sincere
He's never home/Breakup with his ass:he's never home
Kisses/Hugs:hugs
Favorites
Brand of jeans? Size? Where do you get them?:probably..mudd size 3 at the moment. from kohls
Shirt you own:my Lost My Marbles shirt i think..or my dashboard hoodie
Skirt/Shorts you own:ick..
Shoes:my black high tops
Bra:my lovely black one..one of my lovely black ones i guess
Brand of Panties:um..mudd?
Product:er..idk
Friend:hard to pick justin or mindy
Scent:spearmint
Accessorie:rubber bands?
Place to hang at:home
A song (title)that describes your
Life:Numb by Linkin Park
Boyfriend:I'd Do Anything by Simple Plan
Best Friend:uhh...idk
Wedding Song:Wedding????
Song that you can dance to:All or Nothing by OTown
Last boy friend:ive no idea
Im running out of things to ask so...random stuff
Are you in loved with flip flops?:nope
How many shoes do you own?:5 or 6?
Do you like the store bath n body works?:not really
How bout the dollar store:that's a cool place
So are you actually a girl?:sometimes
Ok so if your not then are you a guy?:not really
A gay guy? Ok good enough then, cuz i was gonna say..::-)
Any last words about how this sucked?:i thought it was kind cool

A girl survey(or gay guys lol) 64 questions brought to you by BZOINK!

+ Basics +
Are you emotional ::emo! yeah
Do songs make you cry? If so, name a few ::omigosh, tons of dashboard songs..and some country
What about movies ::not really..the majestic really did though
What emotion do you usually feel ::uhh..lonely, bored
+ Sadness +
What does it take to make you cry your heart out ::being alone, or scared, or angry
How many times have you done that ::way too many
Where do you cry ::in my room
Do you hate crying ::not really
Do you like it when others cry ::that's cruel
Do you think tears make eyes look pretty ::mine turn aqua..ive never really seen anyone else cry..except lil kids
Who looks good when they cry ::lol..idk
How else do you express sadness ::poetry
Are you sad all the time ::i was
+ Anger +
What does it take to make you mad ::my father
What do you do when you're angry ::hold it all inside
How short is your temper ::pretty..with sarcastic comments anyways
How long does it take you to calm down ::awhile
What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad ::nothing really..i just go up to my room and cry
Do you freak out when others are angry ::uh..no
Has anyone ever recommended anger management to you ::nope
What's the worst thing someone's done to make you mad ::well..idk. i get lots of sarcastic comments from certain people *cough*jeff*cough*
Do you anger people ::yep
+ Joy +
How often are you happy ::uh..more lately
What makes you happy ::justin, the rain, music..
What do you do when you're happy ::dance, sing, spin in circles..
How optimistic are you ::not very
Do happy people make you mad ::if they're too happy
What's the worst thing someone can do while they're happy ::uh...idk
Ever been so happy you were dying to tell everyone ::not really
Ever been so happy you cried ::yeah
Do you smile a lot ::more lately
Kiss people a lot::i kiss stryder a lot
Who really makes you happy ::justin
Do you like doing things for people when you're happy ::no
+ Fear +
What do you do when you're scared ::pace..or just sit in one room crying
What scares you ::spiders, men...yeah that's about it
Do you like scaring people ::not really
Do you like the trill of being frightened ::on like rides and stuff
Does fear accompany anger in your case ::no
Ever been so scared you couldn't breathe ::yep
How often do you panic ::i did a lot..
What's the one thing that scared you more than anything else EVER ::those ginormous spiders in harry potter...lol
What do you do to calm your nerves ::just sit and wait it out
Do rollercoasters scare you ::not anymore
+ The strongest emotion +
What song never fails to get your strongest emotions going ::dashboard stuff
Movie ::the majestic
Commericial ::idk
Person ::umm..taylor jo
Thing ::hehe...idk
Sight ::the rain
Sound ::music
Food ::ewww..food is icky
Thing you're looking forward to/want ::uh..no comment
+ What do you do +
When the emotion suck ::try to hide from them
When the emotion rocks ::sing and spin
When there's no emotion ::sit
+ Would you rather +
Never feel again ::um...idk
Feel loneliness or anger for the rest of your life ::loneliness
Be happy forever and never experience bad times ::be happy forever
Cause misery ::what?
Feel misery ::oh..feel misery
Be alone ::umm..
Be with everyone you know ::be alone
+ Who +
Cheers you up more than anyone else ::taylor jo, mindy, justin..
Angers you more than anyone else ::er..my father
Scares you more than anyone else ::mexican guys
Makes you think about your emotions more than anyone else ::taylor jo
Makes you really care about how they feel and what they think ::lot of people

Emotions brought to you by BZOINK!

what pisses you off?:preps
why are you bored?:there's nothing to do
do you ever feel like no one in your family listens to you?:yep
who are you at school/college?:an outcast
are you cool?:no way
do you feel that your friends actually like you?:some of them
how do you feel about the internet?:it's awesome
how old do you think I am?:uh..15? i guess high though
how old would you like to be?:18
whats your home like?:kinda large and boring
how many pets do you have?:3 kitties and some fish
Whats your favourite animal?:kittens?
The white stripes are my favourite band...am I cool for likeing them?:sure
do you like them?:kinda
what's your favorite film right now?:the aristocats
who's your favorite actor?:tom felton or johnny depp
who's your favorite actress?:er...sandra bullock?
what was the last movie you saw?:little big foot
what ya listening to?:I'd Do Anything - Simple Plan
are you bored of this survey?:nope
what do you think of Johnny Depp?:hey..he's awesome
what do you think of Jack white?:er..jack black?
do you know who Cillian Murphy is?:nope
how many msn, aim friends do you have?:msn..like 16..aim..153 or something
how may do you actually know?:msn i know all of them..aim...like most of them
do you take surveys when you are bored?:yeah
whats the meaning of life?:there is no meaning
where are you from?:iowa..evil
do you think I'm interesting:sure
what do you think of drugs?:ewww
have you ever seen the film the breakfast club?:yep
do you ever ask people on line to help you with your homework?:lol..i'll have to try that
do you own a website?:lots
what is your favourite website?:er..woohu? lol
whats in your cd player right now?:michelle branch
do you like scifi shows such as *the following*?
Buffy:uh..it's okay
Angel:NO
The X files:never watched it
I'm from England so am I cool?:hell yeah
do you think people from England are snobs?:nah
have you ever met an English person?:yepp
what did you think of them:she's awesome
what type of mobile do you have?:mobile........?
this survey is over what did ya think?:must is be over?

Blah!,I'm bored...so take this survey if you feel the same way! brought to you by BZOINK!

Are you?
Sitting with someone::no
eating potatoe chips::no
trying to hold it in::no
talkin to someone on AIM::yes
About You
Age::13..nearly 14
height::5'4"
Boyfriend/girlfriend::justin :-)
Hair Cola::brownish
Eye Cola::grr..mood changing
Like or Dislike?
Chips:dislike
people:dislike..mostly
dogs:like
urself:dislike
cats:like
fish:like
sims:like
music:love
cloks:dislike
girls:both
boys:both
little people:like lil kids? dislike
bigg people:uhh..like?
me:DISLIKE
Do u hate me?
yes or no Do u HATE ME?:yes?
do u think im annoying?yes or no:yep

DO DO DO DIS SURVEY brought to you by BZOINK!

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:: 2004 21 June :: 9.50 am
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Breathe- Michelle Branch

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:: 2004 20 June :: 10.49 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: random songs stuck in my head

why.
i know why they push me.
why they're so keen on me hanging out with friends all the time.
why im supposed to get out of the house so much.
why they attack me with activities.

they dont want me to turn out like them

im not supposed to become a failure like them.
im not supposed to end up in some dead end job with co-workers i hate.
im supposed to "live up to my potential"
be somebody.

they dont want the best for me.
they just dont want another failure in the family.

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:: 2004 20 June :: 5.38 pm
:: Mood: drained

crappy fathers day
fathers day is such a hallmark thing.
who wants to celebrate their father.
mum went to the trouble to make breakfast extra special, but it's all fake.
now that im home from work they're sitting downstairs.
mum has the television on and my father is sleeping.
he was supposed to go out and wash the car, or work on slides, but he fell asleep.
why the hell do we celebrate fathers?
makes me think of robert.
err!
i think that men should be outlawed.
look how many "extra" kids we already have in the world.
women how would like children should adopt.
we just need to adopt until there are no kids left to adopt, and then we can use men for sperm donors.
all males should be locked up when they reach the age of 18.
yep.
that would be lovely.
so much less crime that way.
no more domestic violence, less rape, no more abortions, or unwanted kids..it would be so easy!
fathers day is supposed to be when you spend the day hanging out with your family playing games and grilling..right?
that's the way it always is on tv.
i hate holidays.
-holly-

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:: 2004 20 June :: 11.37 am
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: Life as a Father - Jeff Foxworthy (guess that's not really music..)

umm.
yeah.
i have to work today.
blah.
but sundays are easier than the week days so i guess i'll be alright.
i dont really like week days.
cos of madison.
ER!
everyone is leaving for SC camp today..well, almost everyone.
sam, amy, nik...uhh.
yeah, that's almost everyone.
:-D
hehe.
im to lazy to figure out exactly who all is going.
but i know for sure those three are.
sam and nik are such SC nuts.
tehe.
dunno about amy....blah.
jeff foxworthy tis funny.
hehe.
well, nothing else to really say.
later.
-holly-

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:: 2004 18 June :: 2.02 pm
:: Mood: peaceful
:: Music: Tuesday Morning - Michelle Branch

HASH(0x8a782e8)
You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what
that can always mean, because it can be defined
in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were
the spirits of passed away people who are
neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the
earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing
when you expect it least. So hence, if you have
a Lost Soul, then you are probably very
insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,
you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont
know your place. You seemingly dont have a
place in society or an interest. You are a very
capricious person, and are confused and
frustrated about where you belong. You crave
for the sense and feeling of home-but have not
obtained it yet.


What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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speak and spell
You're a Speak & Spell!! You nerd, you. Just
because you were disguised as a toy doesn't
mean you weren't educational, you sneaky
bastard.


What childhood toy from the 80s are you?
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Linkin Park
Numetal... You make some good stuff! The other
genres don't really like you but you reach the
masses with your touching lyrics... Just
remember it isn't all about fame...


What genre of rock are you?
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nothing
You're addicted to.....

Nothing!
Your addicted to nothing at all? Well..... ok I
guess thats a good thing but come on just think
of the possibilities!


What are you addicted to? (pics!)
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outcast
Your an Outcast Angel! These angels were once upon
a time, very loved, and of the highest ranks of
all the angels. But, when something terrible
happened in their lives, much like the
dark-angels, the outcats leave the heavens and
move down to earth. Out cats angel are not
nessearily evil. In fact, they are quite kind,
but filled with greif and guilt unimaginable.
Outcast angels are usually formed when they
have failed something, and ridden with guilt,
they are banned out of heaven, sent down to
earth, and live alone. They are always quite
and sad, and rarely contact with humans. If a
huam befriends an outcast angel, they have a
friend for life.


What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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365
You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.


What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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Jewel of the Sea
You are the Jewel Of The Sea. A mermaid with class
and style. You are worthwhile to meet. Your
freinds are mant since you are soooo populer.
You live in a palace with many anglefish
servants. You love your make-up and hairbrush.
You are one of a kind. Please rate my quiz I
think you are absolutly stunning?


What kind of mermaid are you? (Gorgeous Pics)
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(pah, yeah right)

rose
You've definitely caught the bad-angel's eye. He's
very interested in you and he loves your fiery
attitude.. hmm.. maybe something special is in
store for you..


would an angel, demon, or pure evil fall for you? (now w/ pics!)
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rose
Haiiro seems to be forming somewhat of a crush on
you. Your attitude and sexiness are definitely
what sets him off.. he must like dominant
women.. ;D


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img src="http://images.quizilla.com/I/icemakesyoumelt/1082551764_sevil-love.jpg" border="0" alt="evil-love">
Haiiro practically loves you! He's not so sure he
should be hitting on a human yet.. even though
he's hit on a lot of them, if ya kno what I
mean! *wink wink nudge nudge. Well you know
what they say, give those cute ones an inch,
and they'll take a mile! ;)


would an angel, demon, or pure evil fall for you 3 (pics!)
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evil-love
When Haiiro looks at you, he sees prey. Don't think
of it as a bad thing, he looks at everyone he's
attracted to as that. Most importantly, he sees
you as his main target in life, that he will
try hard to hunt down.. hmm.. he sounds like a
stalker. Aw, young love. ;P


would an angel, demon, or pure evil fall for you 4 (pics!)
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5
Haiiro is hating being apart from you. It's driving
him to insanity! What is it about you?! Haiiro
likes 'em feisty! Oh yeah, one more thing, he's
in this room right now.. *shifty eyes..


would an angel, demon, or pure evil fall for you 5 (new pics!)
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6_evil
Whether he's sitting in your living room, or
grabbing you from behind, Haiiro will never
leave you. Although he would like to believe
you've fallen as deeply in love with him as he
has with you, he won't be so fast to claim
you... but don't get your hopes up.. he WILL
own you. ;O


would an angel, demon, or pure evil fall for you 6 (new pics!)
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7_haiiro
Although you give a lot of attitude to others, you
warm up the most to Haiiro. Or your heart is
anyway. Haiiro is completely aware of your
affection, and would like to return it.. if ya'
know what I mean *wink nudge nudge ;D


would an angel, demon, or pure evil fall for you 7 (pics!)
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5
Trust me, you are practically under Haiiro's spell
whenever you look into his crimson eyes. You've
fallen head over heels with him, and you're
still falling too. ;)


would an angel, demon, or pure evil fall for you 8 (pics!)
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9_evil
After this whole experience, Haiiro has never felt
so worried about you. He would rather die than
lose you. Don't worry, right now, Haiiro wants
to protect you.


would an angel, demon, or pure evil fall for you 9 (new pics)
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youbelongtoevil
The day you went back to your house was the day you
made your final decision.. the one you want to
be with.. And you chose Haiiro. Although you
let Kirune-ra and Ih'kuaren down, you still
remained close friends. Ih'kuaren is working as
a pediatrion, and Kirune-ra is attending your
school. For some reason, they don't seem to
mind him being a demon.. And as for you and
Haiiro? Heh, well you two are so deeply in love
you know you'll always be with each other.


would an angel, demon, or pure evil fall for you 10 (final chapter)
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tehe
she made some more too..yippie!
evil11
OOH. Haiiro is somewhat intrigued by your
personality and firey attitude. There's
definitely more than a spark there.. more
like.. a burning city.. Keep it up! BECAUSE
you're the girl all the bad guys want ;D


would an angel, demon, or pure evil fall for you 11 (new pics! ;D)
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but the last couple dont work
so that's all for now.
later.

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:: 2004 18 June :: 7.37 am
:: Mood: hot

I'm The Ataris.
The Ataris


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:: 2004 16 June :: 5.51 pm
:: Mood: calm

Until The Day I Die by Story of The Year
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you,
for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too

You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does

We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say,
"remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you,
for you

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you,
for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!!!

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:: 2004 15 June :: 10.39 am
:: Mood: headache
:: Music: Unwell - Matchbox Twenty

A Poem Lovingly Dedicated To Mindy

She is You
I'm seeing you everywhere
All the faces I see are yours
You are in every single person
That little girl on the sidewalk
she is you
The elderly lady in the corner
she is you
And that lovely brunette
she, too, is you
Im missing you so much
All I can think of is you
You truely are everything to me

© holly 2004

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:: 2004 15 June :: 7.57 am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: random songs playing through my head

well i stayed home today.
which means She wants me to work tomorrow and thursday.
grr.
we'll see what david says.
time for some sleep now.
night.
:-)
-holly-

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:: 2004 14 June :: 10.11 pm
:: Mood: happy

oh...
did i mention i've another blog?
well, it's mostly poetry..and stuff about my BEST FRIEND!
yeah.
http://www.xanga.com/skin.asp?user=tiredauthority
feel free to check it out.
i love my best friend!
-holly-

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:: 2004 13 June :: 4.29 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Fine Again - Seether

blah
well, the weekend was pretty good.
friday we drove up to webster city.
there was a killer storm that night..and some funnel clouds and tornadoes around.
twas awesome.
the saturday we, uh.....oh yeah...we went to west bedn to see the grotto and um..yeah.
i dont really remember yesterday.
tehe.
but today we went down to story city and did some shopping and then came home.
yeah.
that's about it.
im done babbling.
:-D
later.

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:: 2004 9 June :: 8.27 pm
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: You'll Think of Me - Keith Urban

weekend
yeah..i need to update now, because i probably wont have time to until monday.
im going to work tomorrow.
yay!
and then friday mum and dad are leaving work early and we're heading to west bend for the weekend.
yep.
so that's about all i have to say.
blah.
this weekend is going suck.

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