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:: 2004 12 April :: 11.30 am

bored, going out tonight
well alcohol
You're addicted to.....

Mmmmmmm, Mmmmmm, Bitch! I like you, alcohol is one
of the better things to be addicted to. The
only bad part is it makes you feel like doing
nothing and the next morning you get a terrible

What are you addicted to? (pics!)
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this is for my boredom.

->im going to sherris around 7 and her dad is driving us to the club (2686) kim is asking her boyfriend if he wants to go. i miss her and i wanna see her!!! well, my mom is picking me up around 11:30. next weekend maybe i'll hang out and drink with brian and a couple of people and i might hang out with derek (aw i <3 him) well, i dont know what else to write because there is nothing. hopefully i'll convince my mom to take me shopping to buy a shirt for tonight because i dont have one to wear. im gonna ask brian to come to the club tonight and my mom will give him a ride home. well, bye bye kiddies :)


4 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2004 11 April :: 12.45 pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: a static lullaby - lipgloss and letdown

quiz cause im bored..what now?
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::: Marissa Leigh
Birthplace ::: Oceanside, NY
Age ::: 15
Age you act ::: pretty old, not really sure
Current location ::: East 'Cock'away, NY
Eye color ::: hazely
Hair color ::: broawn with blonde highlights
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: righty
Zodiac sign? ::: scorpio
Height? ::: 4'11"
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::: Russian
Your hair ::: long and straight
Your fears ::: spiders and heights
Your perfect room ::: red walls,lots of leopard and band posters
What you practically do in a day ::: go to school,eat,online,phone
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::: aww,lol
Phrases you overuse ::: fuck you
Your first thought when you wake up ::: grrr i have to get through this day
Your greatest accomplishment ::: who knows?
Something you want to do ::: be with him <3
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::: coke
McDonald's or Burger King ::: mcdonalds
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: christina aguilera
Chocolate or vanilla :: chocolate
Adidas or Nike ::: adidas
Black or white ::: black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: bills - DUH
Burgers or hot dogs ::: burgers
Egypt or France ::: hmm france
Rock or rap ::: rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::: used to - haven't had a cigg in like a month!
Cuss ::: yupps
Sing well ::: eh
Sing in the shower ::: yeah *blush*
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: hmm mayyybe
Believe in yourself ::: not usually
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: when im bored, yeah
Play an instrument ::: none, i used to play clarinet
Want to go to college? ::: yes i do
Want to get married? ::: yeah
Want to have children ::: i wanna adopt
Think you're a health freak? ::: not at all
Get along with your parents ::: my mom most of the time
Get along with your siblings? ::: nahh
Think you're popular ::: no, im not nor do i want to be
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::: mmm no
Drank alchohol ::: yes
Smoke ::: no but i wish :(
Get high ::: nah
Done any drugs ::: nopeeeee
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: never have
Been on stage ::: nope
Gone skinny dipping ::: nah
Been dumped ::: nope
Dyed your hair ::: not in the past month
Stolen anything ::: nope
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::: scutch
Loudest ::: jenn
Most shy ::: lauryn
Blondest ::: .. sammi
Smartest ::: jaymes
Kindest ::: timmy
Best personality ::: thats gotta be krystyn
Most talented ::: jenn - DEFF
Best singer ::: jenn, haha
Most ghetto ::: christal/jaymes
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: paris
Pain in the ass ::: grrrr andrew
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: lol deff leslie
Funniest ::: jessyca
Best person for advice ::: sherri,sammi
Dependable ::: jaymes,tim,sal
Trustworthy ::: jaymes
Druggie ::: josh
Most likely to end up in jail ::: josh
Person you've known the longest ::: sammi/jaymes
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::: i dont remember
Last nightmare ::: .. i dont know
Car ride ::: to the rockville center train station
Last time you cried ::: yesterday, when i banged my head on the wall
Last movie seen ::: the whole 10 yards
Last movie rented ::: bring it on....AGAIN
Last book read ::: Frank McCourt
Last word said ::: shut up
Last curse word said ::: fuck
Last time you laughed ::: friday with derek
Last phone call ::: my mom
Last CD played ::: switchfoot
Last song you listened to ::: idk number 5 on the switchfoot CD
Last annoyance ::: haha my sister
Last IM ::: Roberto
Last weird encounter ::: umm idk
Last person you hugged ::: derek <3
Last person you yelled at ::: my sister
Last time you wore a skirt ::: ummm i dont remember
Last time you've been evil ::: always
Sarcastic? ::: ummm i am sarcastic all the time
Last time you fought with your parents ::: today
Last time you wished upon a star ::: i dont ever anymore
Played Truth or Dare ::: in like 6th grade?
Spent quality time alone ::: right now
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: yes
Do you feel lonely ::: ehh sometimes
Ever TP'd someone's house ::: no, its pathetic and ridiculous
How about egging someone's house ::: nahh, stupid.
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: ah, im scared- what?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: nope...
Yo Momma ::: STOP IT BITCH!
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: ummm not really
What do you think of George Bush? ::: asshole.
Any secret fetishes? ::: yupp ;)
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: hehe..maybe
How many languages do you speak? ::: uh 1!
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::: nahh
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you XP)) ::: darn :-/ lol jp

i was bored. i might go visit my grandma today but im not sure. i wanna go shopping. i wanna go to the club tomorrow but im not sure if im going to be allowed to. shit, i fucking hate easter because i have nothing to do because im jewish ahh oh well.


4 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2004 11 April :: 9.45 am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: lamb of gd

im so nice!
well, i decided that since im so nice if anyone needs me to pay the $2 so that they can keep their journal i will - if you've been nice to me and you continue to comment :) i figured i have 10 spare dollars so i have to pay for myself and thats 8 so that leaves me with money enough to pay for 4 people.

->comment if you would like me to pay for you :)

8 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2004 10 April :: 3.45 pm
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: unearth

wow, im a loser this is my 3rd time updating today :-X ahh its ok, i hope that you all are enjoying these journal entries. (im bored):

i follow the crowd @
I do it because it's cool

What type of Woohu user are you?
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I scored a 78% on the "Are you SEXY?" Quizie! What about you?

I scored a 76% on the "how sexual are you" Quizie! What about you?

i took all the sex quizzes, lol :) iheartderek<3

I think im broken

:: 2004 10 April :: 11.07 am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: nothingface

this is me...

and now - derek <3...

...and now thanks to tiffany [ ] i know how to put pictures in my journal!!!

now all i have to do is send in my $2 to andy!

16 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2004 10 April :: 7.54 am
:: Mood: rejuvenated
:: Music: something corporate- konstantine

amazing day <3
omgggg yesterday was an amazing day. i went to get my nails done because i was seeing derek but i ended bumping up into some girl and my one nail got really fucked up. oh well, i took the 6:44 train bellmore and met up with derek and got a hug :) then we walked to the movie theater and bought 2 tickets to i think the movie was called the whole 10 yards maybe? lol. after we bought the tickets we had like 20 minutes so we went to see some car that i personally didn't like but derek did because it was a stick. yuckkkk. we went in to see the movie and i coulda sworn that he didn't like me cause it seemed like he didn't wanna touch me or whatnot. BUT during the movie our arms were pretty much on top of eachother. during the movie brian bleeped me so after the movie i called him back and he wanted to know what i was doing and i told him that i was in bellmore and wouldn't be back into oceanside/east rockaway till sometime after 11. sooo after the movie we walked around and then ended up in the train station parking lot looking at cars and derek goes to me 'would you be mad if i kissed you?' and i said 'yeah, cause i have something in my mouth' and he said 'spit it out' and i did and then he kissed me :-D. after that we ended up holding hands and walking. then we ended up hanging around on the benches by the train station looking at the passing cars and saw an unmarked cop car :-O well, when it was time for me to get my train we hugged and i didn't want to leave him :( but he is damn well close to perfect.


6 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2004 9 April :: 9.38 am
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: marilyn manson - the beautiful people

hopefully a good day
i just wanna tell everyone how incredibly amazing the antique store was. i have never seen such cool stuff! blahh im talking to christian and he's yelling at me for nothing again. LMFAO :) it's actually funny when he gets mad at me. but anyways - derek says we're hanging out around 7 or so today, i hope we actually do because i need someone to calm me down and also to get me out of this piece of shit town, hey that rhymes - haha. well, im bored - very and i need to take a shower so im going to listen to some music and talk to some people (like the new journal by the way?) i'll be changing it to a cool leopard looking background because now im obsessed with leopard due to the bench thingy i got yesterday. i decided my room is going to be painted red and all my other stuff is going to be leopard. it's going to look SOOOO cool :)

guy's are confusing :-/

5 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2004 8 April :: 7.32 pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: switchfoot

i just came back from furniture shopping. we went to some antique store that was going out of business. they had the most AMAZING stuff!

-a leopard velveteen bench
-a cool as hell chair from the 50's
-2 horsey things (that are cool!)
-6 shotglasses in a holder
-a lamp

i love antique/thrift shops

Which Punk Band Member will you marry? by butt-hole
You will marryChris Carrabba of Dashboard Confessional
Number of kids5
Cost of your wedding$91,602,071
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

[(i was bored)]

2 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2004 8 April :: 11.45 am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: judas priest

i love my joshy :)
i love my bestest friend joshua liam lyons!!!

happy birthday sweetie we love you more than life *happy 16th* hunni bunches of oats

3 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2004 7 April :: 10.21 am
:: Mood: mad
:: Music: finch- what it is to burn

what the hell?
i just wrote a HUGE entry and woohu deleted almost everything i wrote :(

-matt is coming over today
-i went to sweet hollow rd. and mt. misery last night (didn't see anything interesting)
-eddie is giving me a 10 inch
-sherri came over
-i got coldstone (birthday remix)
-tried to get eddie or roberto to take us back to mt. misery/sweet hollow rd, no go :-/

6 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2004 5 April :: 9.16 am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: something corporate- konstantine

well, last night was aright. my mom didn't get up till like 4:30 and then we went out to dinner to iHOP and then to the supermarket and then i came home. i came online and talked to chris (from bellmore) and he picked me up for alittle and we went to coldstone but it was SOOO busy, grr i was soo in the mood for coldstone. thennn we drove around for alittle bit and then he decided to drop me off and we'd hang out another time when he had more time and we'd go to the brew :). i found out that he's going to ozzfest (and so am i) so im going to hang out with him there too. after he dropped me off i saw kristi and paris, last night was a pretty decent night :)

me=guy confusion :-/

4 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2004 4 April :: 2.09 pm
:: Mood: crampy
:: Music: nothing

i miss joey
i miss marlo,eddie,ryan,denny & jack
i miss my old house
i miss my messy room :-/
i miss how we used to have fun together
i miss jenna<3
i miss seeing sammi and laina every weekend
i miss late night phone calls with jaymes
i miss shows with jenn
i miss colin and the glen cove bowling alley
i miss him pretending to care
i miss his touch
i miss us bitching at eachother all night
i miss 'the crew'
i miss broadhollow theater (camp -kim,chris,and kevin)
i miss the monster in the corner at the mall
i miss going to the mall with *him*
i hate the way he makes me feel
i hate regular snapple and soda
i hate that i love him but i hate him
i hate that i can't get him out of my head
i hate having cramps
i hate being me
i hate when people yell at me
i hate having only 1 bathroom in my apartment
i hate living on the second floor of a house
i hate that i can't stop thinking of him
i hate that i like too many people
i hate that he has been away from me for too long :(
i hate being without him
i hate when people piss me off
i hate a bitch from lynbrook on my boces bus
i hate how he makes me feel
i hate fighting and hatred
i hate people who are racist
i hate the racial slurs people make about me being jewish
i hate when people don't answer me online
i hate when people are sarcastic (it clashes personality)
i hate a lot of rap
i hate bathing suits
i hate the beach
i hate when people steal my cell phone
i hate when my phone dies
i hate cleaning
i hate male chovanistic guys
i hate when girls get bitchy over nothing
i hate PMS
i hate reading books that are boring
i love derek
i love making fun of people who make fun of me
i love my cell phone and the computer
i love drinking
i love being myself
i love urban outfitters
i love pac sun
i love when i talk to *him*
i love
i love my friends on woohu
i love hanging out with sherri
i love going to ozzfest :-D
i love josh & timmy
i love being in plays
i love erica
i love singing in the rain
i love my black planet chair
i love having him there for me
i love the mall
i love the color red and black
i love having tips
i love the song 'the reason' by hoobastank
i love dancing to funny rap songs
i love being stupid with my friends
i love going to concerts
i love the downtown
i love walking around aimlessly
i love just being on earth
i love samm,scutch,jenn,vix,and lauryn
i love maris,jessy,krys,and chris :)

now you go.
i miss____
i hate____
i love____

4 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2004 4 April :: 11.29 am
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: toxix -britney spears

i am an indie snob!

How indie are you?
test by ridethefader

You're just too cool for school, aren't you? You're pretty narrow minded
and opinionated with regards to music (and probably most other things
as well). But you're allowed to be, because you really are better
than everyone else. You take pride in obscurity.
You probably prefer vinyl too, you elitist bitch.

indie snob?!?! huhhhh what?!?! crazyyy

4 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2004 3 April :: 12.42 pm
:: Mood: grr...pissed
:: Music: eh, some cooking show

[ series 1 - your ]
-- Name : marissa
-- Birthday : nov 16th 1988
-- Birthplace : oceanside, NY
-- Current Location : east rockaway, NY
-- Eye Color : hazely
-- Hair Color : brown with blonde highlights
-- Righty or Lefty : righty
-- Zodiac Sign : scorpio
-- Font : tahoma baby!

[ series 2 - your favorite ]
-- Music : anything really - rock,metal,punk
-- Cartoon : umm rocket power?
-- Color : red/black
-- Rose: i love red roses :)
-- Slushy Flavor : umm idk
-- Magazine : cosmopolitan (theres sex stuff in there)
-- TV Show : any day now,everwood,7th heaven
-- Song at the Moment: the reason (hoobastank)
-- Language : english (cause i can speak it)
-- Spice Girl : i dont really remember...
-- Food & Beverage : cheesy fries from outback and uhh diet coke
-- Subject in School : ummm lets say health issues
-- Weekend Activity : going to concerts
-- Ice Cream Flavor : cake batter w.crunch bar from coldstone :)
-- Roller Coaster : i dont like em

[ series 3 - what is ]
-- Your most overused phrase on aol : lol,brb,bbl,bbs
-- The last image/thought you go to sleep with : derek<3
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex : eyes
-- The Best Name for a Butler : maxwell
-- The wussiest sport: not sure....
-- Your best feature : my hair
-- Your bedtime : umm i dont really have one
-- Your greatest fear : umm idk
-- Your greatest accomplishment : honor roll?
-- Your most missed memory : the cruise :)

[ series 4 - you prefer ]
-- Pepsi or coke : coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King : mcdonalds
-- Single or group dates : single
-- Adidas or Nike : adidas
-- Chicken nuggets or chicken fingers : chicken fingers baby
-- Dogs or cats : cats, my cat
-- Rugrats or Doug : rugrats
-- Single or taken : taken
-- Monica or Brandy : i can't tell you, i dont really know
-- Tupac or Jay-Z : neither
-- Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes : fuck you with all your BS music
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea : nesteaaaa
-- One pillow or two : one
-- Chocolate or vanilla : chocolate
-- Hot chocolate or hot cocoa : hot chocolate
-- Cappucino or coffee : coffee
-- Boxers or briefs: boxers baby ;)

[ series 5 - do you ]
-- Take a shower everyday? : pretty much
-- Have a(any) crush(es)? : yes i do :)
-- do you think you've been in love? : yes
-- Want to go to college? : uh huh
-- Like high school? : no, i hate it
-- Want to get married : yes i do
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys? : yeah i do
-- Believe in yourself? : not at all
-- Have any tattoos/where? : don't got any
-- Have any piercings/where? : 1 in each ear :)
-- Get motion sickness? : in elevators
-- Think you're a health freak? : not at all
-- Get along with your parents? : with my mom, but not with my dad at all
-- Like thunderstorms? : ah, they scare me!

[ series 6 - the future ]
-- Age you hope to be married : 23
-- Number and Names of Children : 2 adopted, shoshanna and ryan
-- Where do you see yourself at age 20? : college
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding : just being with the man i love all night long <3
-- How do you want to die? : in my sleep
-- What do you want to be when you grow up? : psychologist,radio broadcaster on like z100 would be fun too
-- What country would you most like to visit? : austrailia

[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
-- Best eye color? : blue
-- Best hair color? : dark brown
-- Short or long hair? : crew cut :)
-- Best height? : 5'6" or up
-- Best weight? : that doesn't matter to me
-- Best articles of clothing? : pants?
-- Best first date location? : walking around holding hands
-- Best first kiss location? : anywhere
-- What facial feature do you find the most attractive? : eyes

[ series 8 - other ]
-- When's the last time you slept with a stuffed animal? : not too long ago
-- How many rings until you answer the phone? : depending
-- What's on your mouse pad? : nothing
-- How many houses have you lived in? : 4
-- How many schools have you gone to? : 7
-- What color is your bedroom carpet? : i have wood floors
-- Would you shave your head for $5,000 dollars? : NEVER, i loveeee my hair!
-- What was the best time of your life so far? : nothing really
-- Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? if she was better than everyone else
-- Would you marry for money? : nope
-- Have you had braces? : nahhh
-- Do you pluck your eyebrows? : no, i have my signature triangle on my left eyebrow
-- Do you ever cut or hurt yourself? : sometimes i dig my fingernails into my arm
-- Would you live without a computer? :
-- Do you drink enough water? : sometimes
-- Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: not usually
-- What is your favorite fruit? : cherries, im addicted :)
--Do you eat wheat bread or white bread? : wheat, cause thats what mommy buys
-- What is the last movie you saw? : i really couldn't tell you
-- Do you kiss on the first date? : sometimes...if it feels right
-- Are you photogenic? : not at all
-- Do you dream in colour or black and white? : i dream in both :)
-- Are you wearing fingernail polish? : acrylic tips with red polish!
-- Do you have any dimples? : dimples are only in the middle of your
-- Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? : both
-- Do you want to live to be 100?: if im healthy, yeah
-- Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair? : ummmm idk
-- Do you like salty food or sugary food the most? : salty - im a salt fiend
-- Is a flat stomach important to you? : important? nahh
-- Do you or have you played with a ouija board? : haha yeah
-- Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? : unless there extremely degrading to another person, yes
-- When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? : off
-- Do you believe in magic? : yeahh
-- Do you have nightmares frequently? : no but i have WEIRD ASS dreams
-- Do you like your nose?: haha, yeah im happy i didnt get the big jewish/italian nose that runs in my family
-- Do you think you can draw well? : nahh
-- Do you listen to music daily? : yeahh
-- Do you like to watch cartoons? : not really
-- How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? : over 10
-- Do you like your friends? : they wouldn't be my friends if i didnt like them

5 things that scare you:
1. dying
2. rapists
3. being in a car going really fast
4. the dark, sometimes
5. neat freaks

5 things that make you laugh:
1. idiots
2. my friends
3. people who are dickasses to you and then try to be your friend
4. prank phone calls
5. me- lmfao

5 things you love:
1. my friends
2. metal music
3. concerts
4. my cell phone
5. derek<3

5 things you hate:
1. when CDs skip
2. when people are mean
3. when people steal things
4. boy bands
5. the snow

5 things you don't understand:
1. depression
2. suicide
3. my life
4. why people steal
5. cliques

Right now you are:
1. talking to corey on the phone, ughh
2. talking to matt on the computer
3. being mad
4. thinking
5. loving derek <3

please fill out the entry before this :(

I think im broken

:: 2004 3 April :: 1.16 am
:: Mood: lethargic
:: Music: some TV show i dont know

1. Your name (optional):
2. What You Think About Me:
3. Am I one of your friends?:
4. Am I nice to you?:
5. HONESTLY do you think I'm Hot, Pretty, Cute, OK, Ugly, Disgusting?:
6. Do you ever think about me off line?:
7. What do you like best about me?:
8. What annoys you most about me?:
9. Two words to describe me:
10. Do you notice a strange habit I have?:
11. What is the nicest thing I have done for you?:
12. When you hear my name what do you think of?:
13. What is my best feature?:
14. What person do you picture me with?:
15: Where do you think we'll be in 10 years?
16: Do we spend a lot of time together? If so, what was one of the best times we've ever had together?

Opposite Sex
17. Would you ever go out with me?
18. Would you ever kiss me?
19. Would you ever take a trip to a deserted island with me?

Put an 'X' or a remark for Each one that Refers to Me
20. Outgoing -
21. Shy -
22. Caring -
23. Nice -
24. Sweet -
25. Mean -
26. Weird -
27. Crazy -
28. Smart -
29. Stupid -
30. Dark -
31. Bright -
32. Funny -
33. Freaky -

34. Say anything about me:

im lazy,fill this out...please??

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