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pull--the--trigger

:: 2004 10 March :: 8.29pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: taking back sunday: your own disaster

i wanna get high.
I was going to type a long journal entry... waa waa waa... but now i don't give a shit. so soak it in.

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pull--the--trigger

:: 2004 9 March :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: finch

german rap is freaking AWESOME!!
Ha. Most of 7th period we listened to german rap. Except like a couple of the songs were english. Hmm. Mrs. Stocker is chill.
I am contemplating coming to school stoned. Hmm. I don't want to thursday - bio test.
I hate listening to the 'punk kids' making stupid comments... about EVERYTHING. Drives me crazy. "I have such strong views on everything, but especially things in which I have no experience." Waa, waa, waa. Shut Up!.
I'm so sick of people, every last one. "I hate my life"..."I'm a big baby"..."Waa, waa,waa"..."I love to waste time looking for things to be 'd e p r e s s e d' about." Ahh. The teenage word... depressed. And if you're not, god... you're not cool. jeez. it;s totally in this season. ha.
I was thinking of going out and getting the "i hate everyone" sweater I see all around, but only because I do.
I leave us with some dashboard.
-And this BITTER PILL is leaving you
with such an ANGRY MOUTH.
One that's VOID OF ALL DISCRETION
such an AWFUL TEARING SOUND.
With it's MEASURE ONLY EQUAL by the POWER OF MY STARE
GLARING OVER YOU and OVER YOU this FEELING OF DESPAIR
is NEVER WEARING OUT.

It's WEARING OFF
and it's LEAVING YOU with such a HEAVY HEART
and a HEAD TO MATCH.
The BOTTLE is WAITING.
the CAP is TWISTED BEGGING TO BE USED
and SO ARE YOU.-
...dashboard...
hate me.
tiffany

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pull--the--trigger

:: 2004 8 March :: 8.28pm
:: Mood: jealous
:: Music: story of the year

unacknowledged, unmentioned, am i even here?
I wrote a long comment, but woohu being gay didn't do it. Oh well. I've changed my mind. Whatever. Bitter Heart of mine.
Friends... why a neccesity? The whole about not liking them... kinda bad situations. I'm always ready to trust and let them in, but they just suck. Offer everything... you're going to have it taken. Such is life. so are people.

Die young and SAVE YOURSELF.

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 8 March :: 5.53pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: thursday

secure hatch before launch
I lied.. I am going to keep this journal :]

Err.. Thursday after school me and Lauren went to the AFI concert.. it was awesome :D The lead singer from Thursday has cheerleader moves..haha.

Over the weekend I went to my dad's house and came back to go to see Allison at the shrimp parade.. yay. I finally got my kettle corn I crave all year. :)

Tomorow is fcat and I like having it .. we get to see movies and we have no work in any other classes.

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pull--the--trigger

:: 2004 7 March :: 3.27pm
:: Mood: discontent
:: Music: yeah yeah yeahs - maps

damn people.
"I want to be labeled as..."

PLEASE! Jesus Christ. And the thing that bothers me most is that people try so hard and make themselves believe they're something they're not. I mean therapy people, but then that might make them think they're new label should be "psycho". I swear. "If I say this... or wear this... or do this, then maybe I can be this." Or maybe you should ... be yourself. Or is that too crazy thought?? Yeah. Hmm. Ponder it.

Anyways. This weekend I went to the Shrimp Festival. Got tan and sunburn. More sunburn than anything. It hurts. Then today I went shopping. Found a skirt, shirt, and pair of pants. It sucked trying clothes on with a sunburn. It's only a little space on either side of my shoulders. But damn does this shit hurt.

Making Ramen noodles. Bye.
-tiff-

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pull--the--trigger

:: 2004 4 March :: 5.59pm
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: lost prophets - last train home

For Teenah.
I just finished reading Tina's ebtry. I cried. I don't want to see those things associated with her. It hurt my heart. I mean I know how those things go. And it hurts me to know that it's happening to her. I mean I already knew, but it just sinks in hard. I couldn't lose her. I don't know what i would do without her. Honestly, if I found out she ended it, I would probably, too. It would be just the fianl push off the edge. Tina is kept in that special place in my heart. I'd do anything for her and I would never let her be hurt if I could help it. She's on of the best people I've ever known. I thurts me t see these things and know that if I tried I'd probably make them worse, but I can't help but try. I don't know. I want to make things better. So for Tina... this is for you and i love you with all my heart. You're pretty much the closest thing I have tp perfect, so with that I'll go. Love to you.

-Tiph-

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pull--the--trigger

:: 2004 1 March :: 4.52pm
:: Mood: mischievous
:: Music: Finch

I'm here.
This weekend was chill. I watched movies.
-'A Man Apart' with Vin Deisel
-'Heartbreakers' with Jennifer Love Hewitt and Sijourney Weaver. Which I bought. It was the movie Amanda and I loved. :(
-'Matchstick Men' with Nicholas Cage. It wasn't sad, but it just made my heart ache.
-'Under the Tucsan Sun' with Diane Lane
-'Halloween'... the first one
-'The Gooines' which was Sean Aston's 'big break'
And... spykids 3D shit which I didn't like so much, but I watched it with Dylan so it was all good.
I started to watch the Oscar's last night, but I had to shower and whatnot. I saw the first 3 awards given out and that's it. I know that Lord of the Rings won all 11 of their nominations. Which is wonderful. I love it!
I am bringing the Dashboard CD for love tomorrow. I wanted to bring Midnight Mile for her, but I may choose a different one for her to see. hmm. I have not yet chosen.
Chris burned me CDs: Brandston, Bright Eyes, Unsun Zeros, Thursday, Consumed, and some more Finch.
I am supposed to be going shopping with Mums tonight. I was trying to decide where to go for dinner... Ruby Tuesday or Sbarro. Both me and mums love both so, i can't seem to choose. But i'm thinking Ruby Tuesday.
My glasses, as i said before have new lenses, but they are too strong and when I wear them I am like dizzy and feel all spinny. Not like horribly, but the lady that looks like a wolf at the eye place is fixing thm to make them all better.
I think that mother is getting me 'A Man Apart' and Gone in 60 Seconds'. Yay. Happiness. All I ever do is watchh movies. But oh well.

I love tina, mucho. And everyone else. ha.

-Tiph-

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pull--the--trigger

:: 2004 26 February :: 8.31pm
:: Mood: quixotic
:: Music: sunny day real estate

what the hell is quixotic??
alright.
got me some new contacs. 6 pairs. my glassa got new lenses since i couldn't see thru them since my eye sight got even worse. oh yay. :(
tina got braces. and i never knew braces were so hott. ha ha. i love teenah!!
i have to clean my system of my drugs and go apply at winn dixie once again. i need to save up mucho money and fast.
i haven't been online for a bit seeing as my phone was royaly fucked up for a while.
Today i just found out about FCAT coming. i had completely not realized. seeing as i block everyone out. but only in important times. ha.
got new seats in german which sucks. because now i have bitch behind me and it's gay. and then the one who always laughs over there and the other up ther. and it's gay so i'm just going back to my old seat tomorrow. oh well. and just when seats were getting good. fuck. oh well.
i have decided in on a pontiac grand prix!! yay!! so fast. woo hoo.

About You
Name:Tiphanee
Age:15
Height:5'5
Hair Color:brown with red
Eye Color:blue
What school do you go to?:cypress
What's your mascot?:panther
Where do you live?:fort myers
Family
Who do you live with?:mom and little brother
Do you like your family?:yes
Do you have any siblings?:yes
How old are they?:22...17...10
Do you like them?:yes
What do you think of
AFI:alright
Korn:good
Justin Timberlake:homo
Chingy:annoying
The Beatles:good
Queen:alright
System of A Down:good!
Staind:good
Hilary Duff:hott
cheese:yum
Wayne's World:no
whores:cheap
the government:gay
pants:hott
Have you ever
smoked?:yes
done drugs?:yes
had sex?:no
got arrested?:no
been to a concert?:no
gotten drunk?:yes
stole anything?:yes
Random
Do you know the muffin man?:the one over on mulberry?? wasn't he some crazy killer/ rapist or some shit??
Isn't Revenge of the Nerds a good movie?:yes
Are you bored?:yes
Are you glad this is over?:not when i'm bored.

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i am now keepingxsecrets on aim. love you much.

am i losing you?

-tiff-

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 22 February :: 6.49pm

I'm not useing this journal anymore.. just to let you know.

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 19 February :: 7.10pm
:: Mood: cold

my birthday.. 26 days!
Ello poppet

Today I almost missed my bus because my dumb dog makes me feel bad for leaving her, so I pet her to make her un-sad and that makes me late. =]

1st period we had a spanish test, and I got a 40% on it. I hate spanish!
2nd period is stupid.
3rd period we learned about a "shit rock", and that you should not smell OR lick the shit rock :D I am going to miss Robert!
6th period we had to watch a baby being born.. and I am definatley not ever having a baby.
4, 5, & 7 i slept.

Alright, I'm going to go eat now.

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pull--the--trigger

:: 2004 18 February :: 8.05pm
:: Mood: chill
:: Music: law and order

this too
Three things that scare me:
1:the ocean
2:sharks
3:spiders
Three people who make me laugh:
1:little brother
2:Tammy
3:Mom
Three Things I love:
1:family
2:friends
3:Love
Three Things I hate:
1:bitches and hos
2:being single
3:all the drama
Three things I don't understand:
1:how people can't except just being them
2:how dad doesn't seem to care
3:how mom is always right yet i never listen
Three things on my desk:
1:water
2:apple
3:phone
Three things I'm doing right now:
1:eating an apple
2:talking to dylan
3:taking survey
Three things I want to do before I die:
1:get rich
2:make mom happy
3:world peace?? AH HA HA!!
Three things I can do:
1:2 words -- BEER BONG
2:type extra speedy
3:talk my way out or into anything
Three ways to describe my personality:
1:loud at times
2:sarcastic
3:willing to take what is given
Three things I can't do:
1:fly
2:rap
3:go without a jacket

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pull--the--trigger

:: 2004 18 February :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: drowsy
:: Music: people with taxes to pay.

talkin' shit and gettin' payback.
I babysat the dog today. Little bastard has sharp little teeth. Believe my hand can tell you. He's frickin adorable.
Elijah is coming home on Friday. Probly won't be at Mel's, but I don't know. I wanna chill with the guys, but i don't think that will happen with baby and all. I told Mel about "the thing" for "the guy". I'm sure she probly told people by now. damnit. When I told her at first she was all... "Oh god. Why?! Yuck." And then I asked why. And all she had to say was to exlpain all of his wonderful qualities. She said he wasn't bad afterall. :) And i said 'I told you so.' And didn't hate it one bit. Hmm. Do you believe in love at first sight?? Or could it be my feelings could be from being both extra high and extra drunk?? Who knows, but either way I'm happy I have them. Hmm.
Well. My friends are wonderful. They're what friends are sposed to be. What a relief.
Tina's new seat in Math... it's hott. ha. no. it's weird because she's far away. I feel so alone back there by myself. Tammy has completely stolen me of my riches. :(
I've been trying to work on a friendship with someone, but my efforts seem to be futile. Every time I put in any effort to care, it's shut out by them. Oh well. You can only try so much.
I feel in the mood when I love everyone. Which is rare since there are so many shitty people out there to ruin your day.
Since my little dive off the bus yesterday, my frickin arm and back are sore and bruised and whatnot. :( It sucks. God damnit.

Dad said he'll return the car. But I don't know when. I suppose when the cold weather goes away. He would have to ride the motorcycle at 4:00 a.m. in 50 degree weather. that wouldn't be good. And it sucks that I actually care even when he doesn't. Such is life.

--- I wonder --- Why is it that mother is always right yet I always find a way to not listen??

-me-

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pull--the--trigger

:: 2004 17 February :: 7.02pm
:: Mood: it's been a downer
:: Music: tbs - your own disaster

i fell off the bus this afternoon. ugh.
PLANS: Mother and I have decided that we are to trade in dad's car for a car of my own. That is if dad ever decides to bring it back. But that would also mean time for a job for me.

TO MY LOVE: Teenah! Did you love the movie? By the second or third time you watch it, you understand everything and completely love it. I'll have to remeber to borrow The Good Girl and Midnight Mile. Both good. Both jake gyllenhaal. Kevin + eyeliner = hott. I'm so glad you helped him feel sexy again. Ah ha ha.

I'VE OBSERVED: that people are gay. There are people who hat eto be labeled. They don't want to be another stereotype. And that's fine.
But then there are people who try so hard to be a stereotype. I'm not talking about the bimbo cheerleader and the horny jock either. I'm talking about people who aren't content just being themselves, meaning to be just another person in the world. They want a label. they want it so bad, they risk being stupid and losing friends. But what they don't realize is that everyone notices who they are and who they're not. So in the end, they just look dumb.

LINDS and SHOSH: i love you mucho!!
Teenah already knows my love for her. :D

I think 'lijah is coming home soon. :D

And people legalizing marajuana would just take all the fun out of it. (teenah!)

-tiff-

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 16 February :: 7.12pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: a plain morning

Hey guess what! I passed my drug and alcohol test..woohoo!

Anyways :] err Friday I went home with Chelsea and spent the night there.. that was fun. Than I went back to my dad's and slept.. what a great weekend.

So yeah, I think I will go do some homework now.

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pull--the--trigger

:: 2004 15 February :: 10.25pm
:: Mood: chill
:: Music: silence

update out of boredom.
alright.

weekend --- friday - below entry. ha.
saturday - slept completely thru the day until dark. then couldn't leave to go out because i was grounded for arriving late at the house.
sunday - slept in but only until like 11:00, which is early for me). got showered up and made plans for tonight, then last minute, me and mums get into an arguement.. and there go my plans... grounded once again. so...

i was searching and searching the web to find a bcakground that would look good and let my black font show up... let me explain the issue--- i had a great thign hooked up for the journal. loved it mucho. then i notice that i can't see the quote thing at the very top. because both my journal background and font were black. ad you can't see black on black. so i was pissed. i kept tryin to pick another background color, but was not satisfied. so i then asked assistance and started searching websites and looking at backgrounds. i found a few that i liked and i tried to get them to work. of course they wouldn't. so i just gave up after like an hour and decided just to change the font color. i don't like it as much as before, but what can i do. so that's that.

i missed tina today. we had a conversation going, i had to split, then i came back and she was gone. :( sad. and i was "waa waa". but that's alright. love her mucho.

i must depart my head hurts very much.

-tiff-

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pull--the--trigger

:: 2004 15 February :: 5.08pm
:: Mood: chill

the change
this is the new journal. this is my needed change.
this is the latest entry from my other journal.

friday night... after school my sister was supposed to pick me up, but i hopped the bus instead. then i went home and chilled for a bit. Then around 4:00, she drops by and says she's there to pick me up to go stay at her house for the night. i thought i was going on saturday, but not. so i called mums and got the final ok. we left my house and went over to trevor's. he got mel a puppy. we named him jack. then we hopped in the car and went over to shit-head's house to pick up some smoke. we smoked out in the car a couple times. then after, we were supposed to meet up with tonya and go over to brian's but she didn't or couldn't or something. so we went by brian's. trevor took me behind the garage thing and gave me a few shots of tequila. then we went back. we took brian over to dave's house. we chilled there for a bit. i got piss ass drunk. cait kept doing beer bongs. i think she did 3. and jeremy said that through the night he had done like 14. so, i was drunk and stoned and all the good stuff. more drunk than anything. and jeremy is gansta. ah ha ha. then the drama happened and we split. after about an hour or two at brian's we decided we should go over to dave's and seee if jeremy was ok. he was... his gansta ass. ha. there we kept drinking and smoking and the sort. later, when i was fully passed my 'being out of it' stage. i decided it was time to go around 2:30. we dropped brian at home around 3:00 and went back to trevor's. we got there around 4:00. then i slept 2 hours until we had to leave to get me home by 6:30. so when i got home i passed out. i slept all day today. from the time i was dropped off - 7:00 a.m. - to the time i woke up today - 5:00 p.m. -. i had a nice nap. tonight i wasn't allowed to go out, seeing as i was late getting home.


-if i'm just bad news then you're a liar.-

-tiff-

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 9 February :: 3.52pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: chicago soundtrack

Yoo :) Today Chelsea had crutches!! hah thats so funny. Kris was like .. "Chelsea your foot is SO swolen" and than Chelsea was like " Umm ... it's my knee" ahahhahahahahhaha it was the funniest thing I ever heard.

I accidentally took Molly's footbrace thing and I have it on now =) I am telling everyone that I fell down my stairs heh.


Me and Ashlie is funna go to the AFI concert :D aint dat camp!

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 2 February :: 4.15pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: this time imperfect

I saw Ashlie's journal, and now I want a journal makeover.. somebody fix mine! =)

Superbowl = great. How come nobody but me saw that naked guy !?

Anyways. I need to get a scheduele change or something, because I hate all my classes. Especially drawing cause I SUCK at it :p The only thing that I am looking forward to is the afi concert, and that is in like .. 31 days :)

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 27 January :: 2.48pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: nickleback

In health we are whatching a movie about suicide, and its so dumb that its funny. The girl beats chickens and than throws them in the fire. ha erica :)

woohu is retarded. i can never get on this stupid site when i want to.

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 24 January :: 12.56pm
:: Music: nickleback

okay get this :< i FINALLY got my mom to realize that we need a bigger house, so we went looking at some and i saw that chad's house was for sale and that house would be PERFECT cause i would get the whole downstairs.. and there is a pool :} so i was really excited and everything and she went back to her office to buy it and found out that some dick fucker bought it like.. a second before us. now it's gunna take like a million years for her to pick out a house.. i am so mad i could cry. not really but still.. that sucks.


ANYWAYS

my grandparents are here :] i like it when they come down because they are funny, but that means i cant do anything this weekend. i woke up this morning to my grandma yelling and cussing at the democrats on the news..she's so wierd :)

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 22 January :: 3.24pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: tv

At my dads right now because i had to look for my retainer =] i lost it here and i still cant find it.. ooh well.

we went to the computer lab in roberts class.. it was fun :] and in 6th period i had to run and steal MY sweater back from erica..STUPID

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 21 January :: 6.12pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: rhcp

slkdfjsoiaj! i'm already failing all of my classes >:P i didnt even get a renissance card for last quarter.. someone make me pay attention please :]

i might stay home tomorow, but i dunno yet..
we will see.



guess what! i'm camp like woah cuh :D

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 20 January :: 9.45pm
:: Mood: full

red rasberry! :}
yoller :] i bet you can all guess where i was over our 3day weekend... laurens duhhhh and we played softball the whole time and got real sore tekek. oh and we made cookies yuuuuuuum they were GOOD!

today would have been a great day if my STUPID nose wasnt running >:O plus our STUPID school is to poor to buy real STUPID tissues so i had to use some STUPID crap smelling toilet paper that i took from the bathroom and made my STUPID nose turn red.


i got to see anna today =) she snotted all over herself hahah

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 12 January :: 7.46pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: dashboard

I'M SOOOOOO sick of people who whine about how they have no friends and all this other bullshit and than you try to be nice to them and sympathize them and they're a BITCH back to you.. FAGGOTS


anyways.... lauren is quitting lacrosse and playing dumb softball so now i have to quit since i have no ride home anymore.. dang nabit.

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 9 January :: 8.36pm
:: Mood: gloomy

hola :] when i got home from school i went straight to bed, cause i was really tired.. and my mom woke me up at 7:30 to tell me that i had to go to my dad's tonight. blahhhh i have to go to a dumb play at barbara b mann .. " jesus christ SUPERSTARR" wooo :|


next week we are going to have lacrosse practice every day

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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xsimplysweet

:: 2004 8 January :: 3.52pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: dr.phil


School started yesterday and it felt like the beggining of the school year.. it was wierd. I had my classes switched to drawing/painting and health... and lemme tell you drawing and painting sucks! i know nobody in there and i suck at drawing =) Health is the only class that I am happy to go to.. and it's not the greatest.... Erica thinks our teacher is a stoner, but I think he is a pervert. tekeke

I have noticed that all the TRUE beach kids are really losers. I'm sitting in the cafeteria looking around and everone that is sitting by themselves is a beach kid... we're all dorks. :}

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xsimplysweet

:: 2003 30 December :: 4.07pm
:: Mood: blank

TOURISTS GO HOME
woo i got to go shopping and spend all my money i got for christmas :D now i actually have some clothes to wear heh.. lauren bought a pair a pants for 50$!! physco. oo and we finally went to that surf shop at time square.. i got a sweater =) ooohhhh my goodness the tourists have already started to flock down in their little packs to the beach.. traffic is crazy. I HATE THEM !

we have nothing to do for new years eve, except go to time square... b o r i n g

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xsimplysweet

:: 2003 24 December :: 9.48pm
:: Mood: sad

hallo :) alright well monday night i was at my dads and we had an 'early christmas' and i got a new cell phone and a credit card for the mall and some other stuff.. yay. my sister got this portable dvd player that i know she is going to break.. that little spoiled bitch ! oh and tomorow i get to have a christmas with my mom sooo good for me. i already saw some of my presents today when she went to work.. she put them all in her room and locked it but i made my sister break the lock heh :] ooook well i'm gunna go sleep i guess cause there is nothing else to do .. i hate pine island.

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xsimplysweet

:: 2003 20 December :: 5.32pm
:: Mood: BORED

went to the everblades game last night with chelsea =) it was very fun .. this time she didnt get anything stuck on her ass hahaha.. i got a puck and a shirt.. FINALLY! oh and chelsea is a very bad cook .. first she made me a milkshake and it made my stomach hurt and i had to lay down. than this morning she was cooking omlets and she set the stove on fire.. bad bad chelsapee. }:]

Anyways.. tonight is going to be boring BORING BORING. My dad went to some party so i have nothing to eat :P hmph.


i have TWO classes with carol!! YAY .. and NOOOOOOOO classes with cassie =( i am sad.

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xsimplysweet

:: 2003 17 December :: 2.41pm
:: Mood: FREEZING!

bb - b - updatin'
The spanish exam was so hard! AH i definatley failed it :P but in math i did much better :} i'm pretty sure i got an A soooo that should bring my grade up alot. Tomorow i have business sys. and ceramics so i dont need to study and lauren gave me alot of questions and answers for stachler soo its all good :)

Christmas is coming :D .. but i have to spend it in pine island :/ that sucks. oh! today we went to subway and on the way this rapist guy came and started talking to me and lauren about how he lives in chicago and some other stuff.. he uuugly.

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