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:: 2005 3 August :: 1.13 am

Your IQ Is 125

Your Logical Intelligence is Exceptional
Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional
Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

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:: 2005 18 July :: 7.17 pm

Your Drunken Personality by Lavinia_Nightelf
Favourite drink
Usual Blood alcohol level: 75%
ClassificationCheap Drunk
Who buys your drinksYour sugarmommy
Where you end up the next dayJail in another city
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:: 2005 25 June :: 3.47 am

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

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:: 2005 25 June :: 3.40 am

Ex girlfriends are fucking stupid. Is there like a fucking idiot gene in them that makes them completely ignorant to the phrase, leave me the fuck alone. Since when does a "don't talk to me anymore" e-mail require a reply. What the fuck. LEARN BITCHES. SO STUPID GAWD.

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:: 2005 31 May :: 12.27 pm
:: Music: Gorillaz - Feel Good Inc.

People are weak.

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:: 2005 31 May :: 12.21 pm

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:: 2005 23 May :: 7.08 pm

So Jordan called me crying because she got in a fight with her mom, I'm on the phone. Mike decides to use his dial-up internet while I'm on the mother fucking phone to I guess find a girl to fuck in a random chat room like her did before and kicks me off the phone. So I use the phone a few times and kick him off the internet. He comes up and starts bitching about me not needing to use the phone and the computer at the same time so I remind him that we have cable internet for a reason and he responds with a "that's not what I asked."
Fuck him.
So, I've made a decision. I'm trying to find an apartment, not that for from work, or even a house. I'll get a house and have some people live there with me and pay rent to me which I'll use as house payment. It'll be roomier then an apartment with less regulations and neighbors.
Oh, and anyone who wants to vandalize something feel free to come up here and smash up his trucks or key them or something. Don't worry, even if I have nothing to do with it he'll blame me anyways.

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:: 2005 23 May :: 7.06 pm

:: how jedi are you? ::

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:: 2005 23 May :: 1.17 pm

A person will die from total lack of sleep sooner than from starvation.
Death will occur about 10 days without sleep, while starvation takes a few weeks.

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:: 2005 20 May :: 8.56 pm

Indestructible douche
Oh man I feel terrible for ruining betsinger's weekend. But it's all good because I have the money to pay for the damages. For some reason, I wasn't too bothered by it at all. I took responsibility and felt really down to earth about it. Weird.

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:: 2005 15 May :: 7.26 pm

I'm so pissed off. I want to kill everyone and everything. Fuck this shit.
First I was told I'm getting a car, now I'm fucking not. What the fuck. Then Mike tries giving me this lecture about how I should act like a man and respect everything. Bull fucking shit. Maybe I should go fuck some women I met on the internet for a few weeks and lie to the women I've been dating for a year. Then I might be in line for a respect talk.
I don't respect myself. Bingo, and don't you think it's a little dangerous to fuck someone over who doesn't care about what happens to themselves or others. I don't know, maybe I'm just over reacting a little or maybe I'm finally letting go of my sanity, but I want to burn down this house and everyone in it.
I could really care less. I never asked to be born. I never asked for any of this bullshit. They say life's not fair but aren't you supposed to get a break at least once and a while. Fuck this. I think I'm going to go die now.
I have few actual friends anymore that I could call to hang out with, nothing to do, nowhere to go, nowhere to be, no where I want to be.
I've thought about suicide as an option for weeks now. You know, the longer time goes on, it keeps popping up, and it looks better and better everytime. I'd be afraid of the pain, but even that would go away. Then I wouldn't have to worry about anything, or deal with anyone's bullshit. The only thing I would want to do is say goodbye. But how exactly do you tell everyone goodbye without letting them know where you're going?

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:: 2005 26 April :: 3.54 pm

So Jordan broke up with me. I'm more relieved then anything. There were times I didn't feel like I could tell her things, and she always thought I was lying to her. She's too much like Connie, and treated most things like they were some type of huge drama. *Shrugs*. Oh well, I think I'm going to stay single for a while.

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:: 2005 18 April :: 1.06 pm

So boooored...god I want this car. got 19 minutes...can't wait...to get out of here. I have work tonight. Tomorrow I'm going back to the mall. I want those leather vans. *sigh* So many wants so few ways to get them. So I went to Morley and had a barbeque with Will, Mark, Zac,Michael and the few others that showed up. It was pretty sweet, we played basketball and football with a random black guy and his nephew Dantevius and ate tons of food. We had some sweet boxing matches too.

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:: 2005 14 April :: 4.56 pm

Messenger Plus! 3.50

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:: 2005 6 April :: 5.09 pm

Well last night I was hanging out with Jordan, Taryn and Whitney. It was alot of fun, but Jordan had to be home by ten because her mom is paranoid. On the way back I kit a trash can (on purpose) and stalled out. Taryn and I pushed the car about 200 feet away from the scene of the crime and luckily my car started back up. We went to Taryn's house and hung out and shared a tub of ice cream while watching From Hell and Fight Club. I woke up around noon and rushed to Jordan's because I was 2-3 hours late for hanging out with her time.
We came back to my house afterwards and then went to Fine Tattoos where I got my ear pierced for the first time. I am no long an ear virgin. It was stolen by a fat man with a belly ring and 5 pound weights on each ear. But he was pretty cool about it. Yep. I'm out.

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