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blackcandynecklace (profile) wrote,
on 8-22-2004 at 2:10am
Current mood: surprised
Subject: omg eric
omg eric all of a suddden imed me and all this crazy words came out of him

Phate318 [11:07 PM]: heybabe
BlkCandyNecklace [11:08 PM]: hey
Phate318 [11:09 PM]: how are ya
Phate318 [11:09 PM]: i think i saw u at the mall today
BlkCandyNecklace [11:11 PM]: nope
BlkCandyNecklace [11:11 PM]: lol i wans't at the mall today
Phate318 [11:11 PM]: haha oh well then im retarded
BlkCandyNecklace [11:13 PM]: :-P
BlkCandyNecklace [11:13 PM]: no
BlkCandyNecklace [11:13 PM]: i was at kohls
Phate318 [11:15 PM]: Oh
Phate318 [11:15 PM]: so was i...yesterday
BlkCandyNecklace [11:16 PM]: yea what's going on?when do you start school?
Phate318 [11:16 PM]: not too much workin alot, monday i start school
BlkCandyNecklace [11:17 PM]: cool
Phate318 [11:19 PM]: yep
Phate318 [11:19 PM]: hows ur bf
BlkCandyNecklace [11:19 PM]: he's good
BlkCandyNecklace [11:20 PM]: how are all your friends?
Phate318 [11:21 PM]: their all gone
BlkCandyNecklace [11:21 PM]: aww
BlkCandyNecklace [11:21 PM]: you miss them?
BlkCandyNecklace [11:21 PM]: well of course
BlkCandyNecklace [11:21 PM]: that was a dumb question
Phate318 [11:21 PM]: yes
BlkCandyNecklace [11:21 PM]: i'ts ok they'll be back soon right?
Phate318 [11:21 PM]: i screwed up wth u
Phate318 [11:21 PM]: and im sorry'
Phate318 [11:21 PM]: i should have spent more time
Phate318 [11:21 PM]: its my fault
Phate318 [11:21 PM]: im stupid
Phate318 [11:22 PM]: yea
BlkCandyNecklace [11:22 PM]: i'ts ok
BlkCandyNecklace [11:22 PM]: no your not
Phate318 [11:22 PM]: yes i am
BlkCandyNecklace [11:22 PM]: yoru not stupid
Phate318 [11:22 PM]: u are such an awesome chick
Phate318 [11:22 PM]: i was soooo stupid
Phate318 [11:23 PM]: ive never had a girl write me a card like u dod
Phate318 [11:23 PM]: idd
Phate318 [11:23 PM]: did
Phate318 [11:23 PM]: and i felt so special
Phate318 [11:23 PM]: i dunno ur just so...great, and i wish u were mine
BlkCandyNecklace [11:23 PM]: :)
BlkCandyNecklace [11:24 PM]: tha'ts so sweet. your an awsome guy too
Phate318 [11:24 PM]: thanks but im super serious, i dropped the ball and im sorry
Phate318 [11:25 PM]: i wish i could make it up
Phate318 [11:25 PM]: to you
BlkCandyNecklace [11:27 PM]: i really don't know what to say
Phate318 [11:27 PM]: sorry
BlkCandyNecklace [11:27 PM]: no please don't be sorry
Phate318 [11:28 PM]: i know but i still like u and i cant help it
Phate318 [11:28 PM]: ur just the total package, looks, brains and personality
BlkCandyNecklace [11:31 PM]: your a great guy, you really really are. and i'm sorry that it all happend like this. it makes me feel really really bad that i went ahead and got a boyfriend , but for real i really had thought that you lost interest in me.
Phate318 [11:31 PM]: no NEVER
Phate318 [11:31 PM]: i still like u so much
Phate318 [11:32 PM]: i miss not calling you or u not calling me, i dunno u are just so cute!...but i guess this new guy is just soo lucky, i know he is
BlkCandyNecklace [11:35 PM]: i'm sorru
BlkCandyNecklace [11:35 PM]: *sorry
Phate318 [11:36 PM]: dont be babe
Phate318 [11:36 PM]: i screwed up
Phate318 [11:36 PM]: i wanted to call u and see if u wanted to come over and watch a movie but i didnt
BlkCandyNecklace [11:38 PM]: when?
Phate318 [11:38 PM]: tonite
BlkCandyNecklace [11:45 PM]: well, this is unexpected. i have no idea what to think. but as of now we can't be together.
Phate318 [11:45 PM]: :(
Phate318 [11:45 PM]: im so bummed
BlkCandyNecklace [11:45 PM]: :hug: i'm sorry
Phate318 [11:46 PM]: i wish i could have at least kissed u to show u how i felt towards you, the time that we were close
Phate318 [12:32 AM]: ok im goin to bed
Phate318 [12:32 AM]: good nite
Phate318 signed off at 12:32 AM

i tried to call jorie, but she was busy, noone was online and i couldn't get a hold of vanessa, so i just sat here and tried to figure somthing to think. i just havne't been thinking about it, it's not a big deal, ti jsut weird
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08-24-04 7:13pm

im sorry i wasnt available jen.

for that really sorry i havent been around you that much lately.

i dont even wanna think about it cuz its gonna make me cry and i dont want to cry...

but i wanted to spend time with neil before he left. as much as people try to convince me that ill see him all the time...i know theyre wrong. we both have lives, and when cathy visits, i dont even get moments to talk to her seriously really anymore. not only that, the next time i get to spend time with neil, we'll both have changed, and not to mention how much we'll grow apart in the next few months. i can deal with hul and spencer and wender leaving, although i miss them, losing neil is almost like losing you.

i dont mind that you're spending loads of time with mushroom. you look so happy with him and im so happy for you.

i love you and im sorry. also sorry that you have to deal with me the next couple of months cuz god knows im not going to be a bright yellow crayon...more like cornflower blue (lol from the movie...)

as for eric...well...he was sweet to you for a while but...::shrugs:: i dont have to lose people and you have to miss opportunities to realise that you cant sit around when they are in front of you.

i love you.


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