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brokenmentality (profile) wrote,
on 6-17-2005 at 2:30am
keegans car is so nice :)
no more crappy red one... woot woot

so tonight was good, he called me paranoid... whatever.
i think i feel better now though.

i dont like it at all.... *totally different subject* it just puts these terrible images in my mind because the other night i had a break down about it... i wish ______ would just move far far away and i would never ever have to think about what happend ever again... now that i know details... ugh, i could just be sick. i hate that part of him.

whatever right... cant change it eh? deal with it and move on erika, well its not that easy.

im really nervous for next year... for many different reasons.

i need to become dependent on myself more... i depend to much on my mom and keegan to keep me strong. why cant i just hold myself together... for gosh-sakes, i didnt even want to go to the dentist alone today (which i did end up going alone... yay for me) im afraid of needles, so i just wanted someone to comfort me... but i held my own today.. nobody was there to hold my hand or wait for an hour in the waiting room..... wait, now im kind of depressed.... step backwards erika, step backwards. hmmm, not good.

tomorrow is keegans performance at daybreak, i suppose i can brag him up a little..... they're getting paid 200 dollars to dance for 2 minutes... that 50 dollars for each of them for a mere 2 minutes.... thats crazy! but so awesome..... IHOP here we come! the performance is at 8:30... so we have an early rise day tomorrow... haha... i'll be getting up at DAYBREAK... mwah ha ha..... wow, teenage girls should not try to be corny and witty this late at night.

i've suddenly run out of things to say....
*crosses fingers..... (doesnt concern you why...)
*crosses them again.
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anachronism

06-17-05 10:44am

I know what you mean, I depend on others way too much. *cough Brad cought* Hehe, but *shrug* what can ya do?

I think in the next week or so we should plan our little 'double date' haha.. or just us two hanging out..so let me know when you're free. Unless you hate me and don't ever want to hang out with me because I'm ugly and fat.. which is probably the case..

:)

Well, talk to you laaater. Love youuu.

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anachronism

Re:, 06-17-05 10:45am

*cough**
I suck.

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brokenmentality

Re: Re:, 06-17-05 9:48pm

*cough.. yes you do*

NOOO im only joking.. i LOVE you...

i was just reading your entry and can totally relate. none of my friends even call me anymore just because i have a "boyfriend" and right... its not like we're ALWAYS with them. stupid people..... its like, people say that when you have a boyfriend you neglect your friends, when in all actuality, its the total opposite, they neglect you. *shakes fist at them.. all of them

wait.. whats that... is that a porch light way off in the distance.....?

ah well.. lol.

yeah, we need to get together this week or sometime soon, if i wasnt so lazy i'd go get my work schedual and put it on here or give ya a jingle... but you know CONSTANTLY being with my boyfriend 24/7 without any time to even BREATH let alone spend time doing ANYthing else, gets tiring.....

*laughs.... so i'll give you a call in the next few days.

i love ya hun..... *squeezes tight

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anachronism

Re: Re: Re:, 06-18-05 8:58am

Wow.. you have a boy friend and you replied to me?! I'm surprised! I thought when you had a boy friend you were constantly with them, ignorning all your friends. You never fail to amaze me Erika. ;)

Well, I best be off I have to go see my boyfriend! Haha.. well I actually do.. 6 months today! :)

Oh Wait.. it IS a porch light!
Let's porch communicate!!!

*mwahaha.. gotta love inside jokes
Love you *hug

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