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| pseudo-hope (profile) wrote, on 2-5-2008 at 5:11pm | |
| i don't know why i'm here. today has just been utterly nostalgic and i just feel so drained. i miss those day. the you and me days. wierd how three years later i still find myself adressing you in this blog. not that i even remotely expect you to read this. mostly i'm hoping you don't. or that you do. not quiet sure yet. i found your letter. "WTP! what's the p stand for? Pope. what the pope is going on in here?? we should start saying that" it honestly made me cry. i hate how looking back i'm able to draw all sorts of lines to how i things resulted. your friendship shaped me in ways i didn't think possible, and now we're just number higher in the myspace friends count to each other. but in a way, we we're headed there when we graduated from SAC. or more correctly, i was. i was so focused on finding this idealized high school group of friends that anyone else not fitting that mold was irrelevant. it's not the fact that i still haven't found that niche that arouses these pointless thoughts, just that i still find myself wallowing in things long out of my control. i could've been a better friend. should have realized when you were crying out. shouldn't have let things drift so far away. shouldn't have let these habits sink so far in. i don't think its in anyway out of the ordinary either to be thinking this way, just odd that i'm expressing it. now starts the battle of post/don't post. why am i here? |
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aerii | 02-06-08 8:08am <3 |
blackbutterfly | 11-14-12 9:20pm WTP is kind of blasphemous :p Although I wouldn't know much about that since I'm Jewish. :p |