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valoth (profile) wrote,
on 10-5-2011 at 12:54am
Beans were spilled last night, albeit abruptly[read: poorly].

I probably left her in a mess around her friends. If I did I bet theyd say "dont go" "hes an asshole" or something of that nature.
Those sentiments really help right now...NOT.

I didnt mean for this to happen but it happened. I cant help that I feel this way about her. What I can help is whether or not I should bother trying to feel this way about her. If she cant tell me that, then I can try to decide.

Shes mad/sad about not having answers for me. Im mad because I need answers. I told her I would make them for her if she cant. I really dont like the answer Ill end up using but I know that its probably the best I can offer since shes "a free spirit" and she might "wake up one day and not like you[me]."

Isnt this what a relationship revolves around? Liking someone, then being with or without them over time. Changing with or without them. Then deciding if you dont want to be with them one day or staying with them for more days?

I really hate this.

This whole thing makes me think about Rachel and how I had that issue come up again and again. Makes me hate myself when my self esteem is already basically at rock bottom.


If bad things happen to good people, then do good things happen to bad people?
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liz

10-13-11 8:58pm

relationships are about commitment as you said in a later post. No one is going to feel 100% about stuff 100% of the time. The big question is in a relationship are both people willing to fight through those moments of doubt. It sounds like this girl is a bit immature in the relationship game and she wants what she wants when she wants it. As a girl who used to be that way all I can say is that I am sorry you are going through this but perhaps some indifference on your part is whats going to be necessary for her to realize what she is missing out on.


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valoth

Re: , 10-13-11 11:57pm

Thank you Liz!
I appreciate the advice.
I also aplogize for my 'emo' side being something you have read. I dont like how I post or what I post on here, but I feel its my 'of the moment' thinking/feeling on any given situation. Lately the situation is revolving around this. Ive managed to keep work bullshit off of here, and thats for another entire reason I dont event want to get into.

I appreciate your criticism and honesty with your view point on the subject. With Pj being away now Ive lost my sound board to bounce issues off of. Damn his kick ass career! (lil' jealous) >.>

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