:: 2008 19 August :: 10.24 pm

We bought a house today. 1494 3 Mile Rd.

It's a nice house.

My parents also got two offers on their house.

If you want to see the updates we made to their house, there are pictures. Follow the link: http://public.grar.com/public/addmed.mac/list?MLS=727193

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:: 2008 13 February :: 11.26 am

So I am trying to figure out if I am a genius or everyone is not as smart as I give them credit for.

I just got back my exam from my intro class today and I did very well *52 out of 50* I got one wrong with three extra credit points. the one I got wrong was even something minor (I forgot one word in the definition of a short answer question).

Being such an easy test, I figured everyone else would do fairly well. I don't feel as if I spend extra time outside of class. I don't feel as though I pay extra close attention in class. I did think that some people were taking the test a little too seriously. I think they were very stressed aver the test due tot he fact that it was mostly short-answer essay with only 3 multiple choice. Some people had pages and pages of notes, others made flash cards. I spent about five minutes reviewing the material. No big deal.

Apparently it was big deal. I saw a couple of the tests of my classmates. They got 37 out of 50. That's a 74%. I finished 30% higher than they did. Those two must not have been the only ones to finish that bas either because the class average is a 37.

Not that I am trying to toot my own horn here, and I guess I really shouldn't considering it is a 100 level college course, but these people have to be smarter than this.

What is your life meant to be?

:: 2008 28 January :: 11.48 am

So I know I'm not around much. Here or anywhere for that matter.

It's amazing what getting married, moving to a far off distant place (well Kentwood isn't that far off and distant for some people, but it seems so to me, especially everyday when I drive to work), work 50 hours a week, go to school, and having a dog can do to you (yes, I had to figure out that I actually wanted this paragraph to only be one sentence).

All that might be changing. Well, not all of it. Well, actually, not most of it. I will still be married, working, going to school, and having a dog, but I might not be living so far away. We (Mica and I) have reached a tentative rent-to-own agreement with my parents to live in the house I grew up in. We're both very excited. As much as I resented the town when I was growing up, I really miss it there. Everyone knows I don't like change and leaving there just makes me feel isolated. My job lets me be involved in the community, and I am involved in so many things it will be nice to be back there. So, from now on we will be spending our weekends painting and doing all sorts of things to get the house ready to move into at the end of April. So hopefully I will be seeing you all soon, not jsut through the drive thru ;).

What is your life meant to be?

:: 2007 12 October :: 10.14 pm

I find myself sitting here writing this hoping that at some point tonight I will have an internet connection to steal from one of our neighbors so I can share this all with you.

This is the Marriage Eve. Tomorrow I will be married. As much as some people talk about how scary marriage is, I have not felt any of that. Yet. Right now takes me back. I am sitting in our apartment all by myself. You know, the bride and groom are not supposed to see one another, it is bad luck. It takes me back to all those years I spent at home, alone by myself on a Friday night. My parents would be up at the lake and so would my sister and I would have the whole house to myself. That is just the kind of dork that I am that I spent many nights, at home by myself when other people my age were out partying, meeting new people, or just generally indulging in whatever kind of behavior our generation uses to escape. Knowing this fact it is pretty amazing that I found anyone to marry me at all.
I mulled over my options for tonight. On the way home I thought about stopping at B-Dubs, sitting at the bar drinking soda in pure obscurity while watching playoff baseball. I thought about going to see a movie all by myself (the only other time I did that was when I was utterly depressed and had a teenage girl tell me how horrible her life was because she had to change positions for softball). I thought about coming home, calling Keith and seeing if he wanted to stay with me for a few hours. But after thinking all those options through in my head I decided that me here by myself was the best course of action. Why? Well this is what I came up with.
When I would spend all that time alone I would do nothing most of the time. However, there were times when a creative force would just take hold of me and I would be compelled to write something, pick up a guitar and play until my fingers hurt, or just merely wax philosophically until I had so many good ideas in a row that I could not write them down fast enough. I thought tonight had that kind of potential. Besides this, what you are reading now, I think nothing else is going to happen.
For me, those nights of philosophical thought seemed to happen sitting in my room. While it was nice when my parents were gone and I could do anything I want, but did nothing, it was always better when I could be locked away in my room late at night. The nights I liked to be the most creative were the nights that were supposed to mean something. I would stay up really late on Christmas Eve in those years. Locked away in my room, watching TV, all those Christmas commercials on, everything decked out in green and red. I would lie under my blankets in my sweats, the heater turned on and the sweet smell of hot metal because it had run for too long. I would wonder about this Christmas, or what the year had been like and how next year could be better (or I would just swear off commercialism as the downfall of American civil society and go out the next day and buy stuff). It was a mixture of optimism and hope that got me going, for a long time that was all I had to cling to. That is what tonight feels like.
I have all the optimism and hope in the world tonight. It feels like Christmas Eve, but 10.000x bigger. I am getting the best present in the whole wide world. God has sent me the world’s biggest Tootsie Pop. For two years I have slowly been trying to get to the delicious center and tomorrow is the day it finally happens. Tomorrow I get a wife, and that is the best present a man could ever get.

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:: 2007 10 October :: 1.25 am

Okay, so I know I haven't updated in ?????? 9 months?

Sorry about that.

Life gets busy.

First of all I would never recommend Davenport University to anyway. Perhaps more details to follow in another 9 months.

I have a puppy. Should I say we have a puppy. And right now she is sick. Apparently she has a virus that is highly contagious and is deadly if not treated. We caught it early, so hopefully she is going to be okay. She seems fine right now, we just have to make sure she keeps eating and drinking.

I was watching the parade on Saturday. It brought back to me memories of being in a band. I don't know why. It just struck me that one of the coolest things I had ever done was play in a parade. The opportunities that God gives you are truly amazing.







Oh yeah, and for those of you who haven't realized yet, I'm getting married on Saturday. Peace.

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:: 2007 11 February :: 8.55 pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Santana, Supernatural Album

What is your life meant to be?

:: 2007 4 February :: 9.55 am

161 TIMES!!!!
Barely over 140 times last year.

2007 Detroit Tigers telecast schedule

Tigers to be on TV 161 times
REGULAR SEASON APRIL

Mon. 2, TORONTO, 1, FSN / WJBK

Wed. 4, TORONTO, 1, FSN

Thu. 5, TORONTO, 1, FSN

Fri. 6, at Kansas City, 8, FSN

Sat. 7, at Kansas City, 2, No TV*

Sun. 8, at Kansas City, 2, WJBK

Mon. 9, at Baltimore, 3, FSN

Tue. 10, at Baltimore, 7, FSN

Wed. 11, at Baltimore, 7, FSN PLUS

Thu. 12, at Toronto, 7, FSN

Fri. 13, at Toronto, 7, FSN PLUS

Sat. 14, at Toronto, 1, FSN

Sun. 15, at Toronto, 1, FSN

Mon. 16, KANSAS CITY, 7, FSN

Tue. 17, KANSAS CITY, 7, FSN PLUS

Wed. 18, KANSAS CITY, 1 FSN

Fri. 20, CHI. WHITE SOX, 7, FSN

Sat. 21, CHI. WHITE SOX, 1, FSN

Sun. 22, CHI. WHITE SOX, 1, WJBK

Mon. 23, at L.A. Angels, 10, FSN

Tue. 24, at L.A. Angels, 10, FSN

Wed. 25, at Chi. White Sox, 8, FSN

Thu. 26, at Chi. White Sox, 8, FSN

Fri. 27, MINNESOTA, 7, FSN

Sat. 28, MINNESOTA, 1, FSN

Sun. 29, MINNESOTA, 1, FSN

Mon. 30, BALTIMORE, 7, FSN

MAY

Tue. 1, BALTIMORE, 7, FSN

Wed. 2, BALTIMORE, 1, FSN

Fri. 4, at Kansas City, 8, FSN

Sat. 5, at Kansas City, 7, FSN

Sun. 6, at Kansas City, 2, WJBK

Tue. 8, SEATTLE, 7, FSN

Wed. 9, SEATTLE, 7, FSN

Thu. 10, SEATTLE, 1, FSN

Fri. 11, at Minnesota, 8, FSN

Sat. 12, at Minnesota, 3:55, FOX

Sun. 13, at Minnesota, 8, ESPN

Mon. 14, at Boston, 7, FSN

Tue. 15, at Boston, 7, FSN

Wed. 16, at Boston, 7, FSN

Thu. 17, at Boston, 7, FSN

Fri. 18, ST. LOUIS, 7, FSN

Sat. 19, ST. LOUIS, 7, FSN

Sun. 20, ST. LOUIS 1, WJBK

Tue. 22, L.A. ANGELS, 7, FSN

Wed. 23, L.A. ANGELS, 7, FSN

Thu. 24, L.A. ANGELS, 1, FSN

Fri. 25, CLEVELAND, 7, FSN

Sat. 26, CLEVELAND, 7, FSN

Sun. 27, CLEVELAND, 8, ESPN

Mon. 28, at Tampa Bay, 7, FSN

Tue. 29, at Tampa Bay, 7, FSN

Wed. 30, at Tampa Bay, 7, FSN

Thu. 31, at Cleveland, 7, FSN

JUNE

Fri. 1, at Cleveland, 7, FSN

Sat. 2, at Cleveland, 7, FSN

Sun. 3, at Cleveland, 1, FSN

Tue. 5, at Texas, 8:30, FSN

Wed. 6, at Texas, 8:30, FSN

Thu. 7, at Texas, 8:30, FSN

Fri. 8, N.Y. METS, 7, FSN

Sat. 9, N.Y. METS, 3:55, FOX

Sun. 10, N.Y. METS, 1, WJBK

Tue. 12, MILWAUKEE, 7, FSN

Wed. 13, MILWAUKEE, 7, FSN

Thu. 14, MILWAUKEE, 1, FSN

Fri. 15, at Philadelphia, 7, FSN

Sat. 16, at Philadelphia, 3:55, FOX

Sun. 17, at Philadelphia, 1:30, WJBK

Mon. 18, at Washington, 7, FSN

Tue. 19, at Washington, 7, FSN

Wed. 20, at Washington, 7, FSN

Fri. 22, at Atlanta, 7:30, FSN

Sat. 23, at Atlanta, 7, FSN

Sun. 24, at Atlanta, 1, WJBK

Mon. 25, TEXAS, 7, FSN

Tue. 26, TEXAS, 7, FSN

Wed. 27, TEXAS, 1, FSN

Thu. 28, TEXAS, 1, FSN

Fri. 29, MINNESOTA, 7, FSN

Sat. 30, MINNESOTA, 3:55, FOX

JULY

Sun. 1 , MINNESOTA, 1, WJBK

Tue. 3, CLEVELAND, 7 FSN

Wed. 4, CLEVELAND, 7, FSN

Thu. 5, CLEVELAND, 1, FSN

Fri. 6, BOSTON, 7, FSN

Sat. 7, BOSTON, 7, WJBK

Sun. 8, BOSTON, 1, WJBK

Thu. 12, at Seattle, 10, FSN

Fri. 13, at Seattle, 10, FSN

Sat. 14, at Seattle, 10 FSN

Sun. 15, at Seattle, 4, FSN

Tue. 17, at Minnesota, 8, FSN

Wed. 18, at Minnesota, 8, FSN

Thu. 19, at Minnesota, 1, FSN

Fri. 20, KANSAS CITY, 7, FSN

Sat. 21, KANSAS CITY, 7, FSN

Sun. 22, KANSAS CITY, 1, WJBK

Mon. 23, at Chi. White Sox, 8, FSN

Tue. 24, at Chi. White Sox, 8, FSN

Wed. 25, at Chi. White Sox, 8, FSN

Thu. 26, at Chi. White Sox, 2, FSN

Fri. 27, at L.A. Angels, 10, FSN

Sat. 28, at L.A. Angels, 3:55, FOX

Sun. 29, at L.A. Angels, 3:30, FSN

Mon. 30, at Oakland, 10, FSN

Tue. 31, at Oakland, 10, FSN

AUGUST

Wed. 1, at Oakland, 3:30, FSN

Fri. 3, CHI. WHITE SOX, 7, FSN

Sat. 4, CHI. WHITE SOX, 7, FSN

Sun. 5, CHI. WHITE SOX, 1, WJBK

Mon. 6, TAMPA BAY, 7, FSN

Tue. 7, TAMPA BAY, 7, FSN

Wed. 8, TAMPA BAY, 7, FSN

Thu. 9, TAMPA BAY, 1, FSN

Fri. 10, OAKLAND, 7, FSN

Sat. 11, OAKLAND, 3:55, FOX

Sun. 12, OAKLAND, 1, WJBK

Mon. 13, OAKLAND, 7, FSN

Tue. 14, at Cleveland, 7, FSN

Wed. Aug. 15, at Cleveland, 7, FSN

Thu. 16, at N.Y. Yankees, 7, FSN

Fri. 17, at N.Y. Yankees, 7, FSN

Sat. 18, at N.Y. Yankees, 3:55, FOX

Sun. 19, at N.Y. Yankees, 1, WJBK

Tue. 21, CLEVELAND, 7, FSN

Wed. 22, CLEVELAND, 7, FSN

Thu. 23, CLEVELAND, 1, FSN

Fri. 24, N.Y. YANKEES, 7, FSN

Sat. 25, N.Y. YANKEES, 7, WJBK

Sun. 26, N.Y. YANKEES, 1, WJBK

Mon. 27, N.Y. YANKEES, 7, FSN

Tue. 28, at Kansas City, 8, FSN

Wed. 29, at Kansas City, 8, FSN

Thu. 30, at Kansas City, 2, FSN

Fri. 31, at Oakland, 10, FSN

SEPTEMBER

Sat. 1, at Oakland, 3:55, FOX

Sun. 2, at Oakland, 4, FSN

Tue. 4, CHI. WHITE SOX, 7, FSN

Wed. 5, CHI. WHITE SOX, 7, FSN

Thu. 6, CHI. WHITE SOX, 1, FSN

Fri. 7, SEATTLE, 7, FSN

Sat. 8, SEATTLE, 7, FSN

Sun. 9, SEATTLE, 1, FSN

Tue. 11, TEXAS, 7, FSN

Wed. 12, TEXAS, 7, FSN

Fri. 14, at Minnesota, 8, FSN

Sat. 15, at Minnesota, 7, WJBK

Sun. 16, at Minnesota, 2, FSN

Mon. 17, at Cleveland, 7, FSN

Tue. 18, at Cleveland, 7, FSN

Wed. 19, at Cleveland, noon, FSN

Fri. 21, KANSAS CITY, 7, FSN

Sat. 22, KANSAS CITY, 7, FSN

Sun. 23, KANSAS CITY, 1, FSN

Mon. 24, MINNESOTA, 7, FSN

Tue. 25, MINNESOTA, 7, FSN

Wed. 26, MINNESOTA, 7, FSN

Fri. 28, at Chi. White Sox, 8, FSN

Sat. 29, at Chi. White Sox, 7, FSN

Sun. 30, at Chi. White Sox, 2, FSN

Home games in CAPS

FSN — FSN Detroit.

FSN PLUS — Alternate channel provided by cable / satellite providers.

WJBK — Channel 2 in Detroit (games also air on other regional affiliates to be determined).

FOX — FOX Saturday Baseball Game of the Week (available locally on Channel 2).

ESPN — ESPN Sunday Night Baseball.

* The April 7 game is not available to be televised because it is scheduled within the exclusivity window for the FOX Game of the Week.

All dates/times subject to change. All times listed are Eastern.

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:: 2006 2 November :: 7.01 am

What is the ultimate torture for someone who writes all the time and is good at it?
Getting graded down on your writing.

I got a paper back that I wrote awhile ago for my Bio Lab. I got 18.5 out of 25. And I got marked down for grammar and flow. GRAMMAR AND FLOW. How do I get a B+ in my capstone which is all about your ability to write, and can't manage it in a stupid Bio class. To make matters worse, the kid in my group who always shows up late, never does any work and mooches off of me and the other guy got a 21.5 out of 25. Are you kidding me?!
Now I'm glad I didn't do well on my lab report. I totally bombed it and I know it. It's okay. I just hope it's worth her time to give it the grade it deserves. However, no matter what grade I get I'm still going to pass the class. I did the math. I don't like her. I gave her a horrible evaluation at the end of the semester. I mean, she didn't even know what we were doing in that class. She never got the instructions right and got lazier and lazier throughout the semester. This is one of the true professors I really dislike.

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:: 2006 7 November :: 9.36 am

I'm enjoying facebook right now. I like how they tell you what your relationship is to someone, like they are the ultimate authority.

This is what is says about my relationship to Mica: Mica is your significant other. You hooked up and are dating.

This is what is says about my relationship with Michelle: Michelle is your friend and relative.


Facebook is like a soothing voice. A corrective mother telling you what your relationship with everyone else in the world is. It could come in very handy if I ever get amnesia.

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:: 2006 6 November :: 5.39 pm

Is a rose, if by any other name, still not lovely?

Is a crutch, if by any other name, still not aiding and abetting in the coping with or enjoyment of life?

It's spilled from one journal to the next, it might as well be my turn to host the discussion for awhile.

I think I know what Rube's is getting at. I say crutch, you think bad. I say tool the facilitates walking (as in the literal definition of crutch), you say good. In this way, I say crutch+drugs as a way to cope with life, you say no. I say tool+plant, you say a way to feel happy or get enjoyment out of life.

That brings it back to the whole debate. If you are using a drug to get enjoyment, or to "feel good" then are you not using the drug in such a way that it could be considered a crutch (def. a tool which is used to do something that was previously unable to be accomplished considering the circumstances). Why would you need a drug to make you "feel good" if you could not otherwise "feel good" without the drug?

What is your life meant to be?

:: 2006 3 November :: 12.47 am

God I'm a nerd.

http://www.lizardpoint.com/fun/geoquiz/
US Geography: 150 of 150
Africa: 141 of 162
Asia: 84 of 87
Australia: 22 of 24
Canada: 35 of 39
Caribbean: 42 of 66
Central America: 41 of 42
China: 40 of 93
Europe: 107 of 111 (damn former states of Yugoslavia)
Mexico: 29 of 96
Middle East: 85 of 87
Oceania: 57 of 96
South America: 39 of 39
World: 33 of 33

What is your life meant to be?

:: 2006 15 October :: 2.01 am

After 22 years of waiting.

WE'RE GOING TO THE WORLD SERIES BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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:: 2006 3 October :: 9.39 am

I don't care is we win the division or not. If we would have made it to the ALCS, everyone would still be picking the Yankees. I am now starting to gain more respect for what Red Sox fans have to endure.

The Yankees are a bunch of over-pampered overpaid jerks. The onyl thing they have to worry about is if there MVP thridbaseman has a mental issue with throwing.

The national media ignored us for the first three months of the season. They said we would blow it. Well, guess what, we didn't blow. Sure, we lost the division by one friggin' game to the Twins. So What!! No one even picked us to win 90 games, let alone lead the division for the majority of the season.

The experts be damned. I saw one where the Tigers were ranked dead last in starting pitching and bullpen out of the four teams in the American League. Who lead all of baseball in starting pitching this year? That was us. Not the damned Yankees, not the Twins who have nothing behind Santana. Who's bullpen has better guys in it than ours (we've had our moments, but you can't tell me that Scott Proctor is better than Joel Zumaya)? I saw one that had Robinson Cano being a better second baseman than Placido Polanco. There is a blatant piece of east coast biased bull I've ever seen.

We had to prove ourselves during the season, now everyone is going to make us prove it again in the postseason. And we will.

DS Tigers over Yankees 3-1 A's over Twins 3-2 Padres over Cardinals 3-0 Dodgers over Mets 3-2

CS Tigers over A's 4-2 Dodgers over Padres 4-1

WS Tigers over Dodgers 4-3

What is your life meant to be?

:: 2006 19 September :: 10.23 am

After spending a significant amount of time this morning reconnecting with my network (catching up on friends page and going to facebook), I realize how relatively important that all of this was to me nearly a year ago. I put my life back together online. I hate to admit it, but Mica and I would never had even started talking had I had to meet her in real life to begin with. And look how fantastically that has turned out.

But now, now my life on here does not seem so important. Maybe it's because I've fallen back into my old habits, as far as just using it to maintain knowledge of all of you. Yes, I do, I read, very detailed entries, so just remember that when you keep going on about things. But I really think the reason is that I have a life outside of this. I can keep up with my friends, but I don't need to be intimately involved anymore because I have a life outside of this. I wonder if there is any research on this as far as people retreating to the internet in times of depression or lonliness. Hmmmm.............

But anywho. I've decided to try an make this a long entry, just to punish you all.

Stress is starting to get to me, but I don't want to talk about it because I just have to get perspective on work. Once I do that and realize that they are not paying me enough to stress out over little things like the stuff I get upset about, I'll be fine. It's kind of like those nights that I used to come home from Monday night practice, extremely tired, but also still wound up from rehearsal. I used to fall into a half-sleep state where I was in a dream, but back on the field. Until I could actually get some good sleep I would have to convince myself in this dream state to put down my Tuba and lay down at the back of the field and fall asleep. Then I would be fine. It's just a matter of perspective.

I got a weird call last week. Thursday night at work my dad called me and said that he had gotten a rather strange phone call from a guy who was looking for a bass player. This guy was a completely stranger and he got my name from a guy that I haven't seen in about three years. Anyways, his bass player had quit on him and he had a party to play this weekend. He wanted me to come play with his band cold. I'd never met the guy, never played with anyone in his band. I didn't even know what kind of music they played. We talked a couple of times on the phone, he told me where the party was and I showed up. Kind of a weird circumstance. I've had weird things happen all because of music, but this was the strangest. We played, at the end of the second set (I didn't know many of their songs, and I faked it, some good others really bad), my amp started to cut out. They had to go get another amp for me to play through. I felt really bad. One of the things you don't wanted to happen when you're playing with a bunch of new people is for your equipment to not work. They got me another amp and by that time it was around 11:30pm. They, the rest of the guys in the band, had given up on playing anything that they had on their song list. WHich is good, because some of the stuff was a little complex, not the kind of music you want to play on the fly. So we tossed around ideas and started playing some of the simplest songs that they knew. That set ended up rocking. Up to that point I didn't really have a good feeling about the night. I started to think that maybe i was just out of it. I hadn't played in awhile, I might just have lost what I had. But I didn't. We played stuff that I knew and that was easy and we really fell into a groove. It was awesome. I haven't had that experience all summer. So it was a good time.

Okay, well now I think I've bored you enough with the mindless details of my life. So now that you've read all that pointless crap, I will say good bye.




Good Bye.

What is your life meant to be?

:: 2006 15 August :: 3.22 pm

Something I realized today driving home. I was listening to NPR (yes, I'm a nerd, get over it), and they were talking about Cuban-Americans and the way that the Cuban-American community feels about Castro's illness. Anyway, none of that is important other than to say that the new Cuban Americans, the children of the original population, the ones who were wronged (or righted depending on your perspective) by the new regime, are somewhat apathetic and non-political. It made me realize the penance of our generation. The obesity, the sloth, the lack of work ethic, I realized where it all came from.

The penance of our generation is that we have lost all interest. We have given into the machinations of man, the construction of society. Without knowing anything else other than freedom, with no direct oppression to fight, we choose apathy in a society where no choice is a choice. When choosing not to participate is just as valid as participation. If we only do what we have to in order to get by, we'll be just fine mentality. No inspiration, just talking puppets. Now how to fix that? How do you inspire the uninspirable? How do we take control of our own destiny? It's a question that every generation has to address, we can't let the answer be silent like so many of our voices still remain.

What is your life meant to be?