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:: 2005 31 October :: 9.32 pm

Yay my Halloween was fun. =)

Ace came over around 6:30, and we cleaned my spotless, but still it was really fun not having to do it by myself.
I gave out candy with my mom til Ace got there, cause I wasn't sure if he was even going to come or not.

Hope everyone had a good Halloween. =)

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:: 2005 27 October :: 11.00 am

My stomach really hurts. =(
I wish it was the weekend. I really miss Ace. It feels like forever since I've spent a day with him, when only it's been like 5 days.

I'm hungry.

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:: 2005 25 October :: 11.02 am
:: Mood: drained

I'm really feeling overwhelmed.
I'm bombing some of my classes, and I don't know what's happening to me. I can't remember ANYTHING anymore.
I used to be such a good student. Now I just feel like nothing.
I feel so drained, and I just want to quit.
I think there's only one or two classes I have an A in, and grades are being turned in at the end of this week. We get our report cards on the weekend. I am so nervous.
I ALWAYS do well, especially on the first quarter. My head is just blank, all the time. I'm bombing Spanish III, and Drama II. Algebra II is the only class I really enjoy, and I think I only have a B in there, even though I do all the homework.
I think something has changed in my head over the summer, because last year, taking tests was what saved my grade, and now it is what kills it. No matter what class it is, I'm not any good at taking tests. My memorization skill is shot.
I don't know what's going on, but I'd like it to stop, I don't want to become a slacker. I do ALL my work, I never have any homework, I do everything I'm supposed to in class, I get all the little things right, it's the big things I bomb and I hate it. That's what hurts my grade the most.
At least I get to go to my psychiatrist this Thursday and maybe she can figure out something. Cause I can't live with this.


:: 2005 24 October :: 8.33 pm

God my face is dry as hell. Literally.

Damn this weather change.

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:: 2005 24 October :: 3.36 pm

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:: 2005 24 October :: 3.20 pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Tonight, Tonight :: The Smashing Pumpkins

I wish Ace would get home. =/ He's out putting in applications even though he already got a job. Weird.
I miss his guts, and he needs to get home.

I think they had the air on at school. I couldn't feel my hands, my feet, and my joints in my knees hurt really bad, and felt like they were frozen. It's ridiculous.

It's no better in my house though. =(


:: 2005 24 October :: 11.12 am
:: Mood: hungry

Well this is what used to be blacktears844. I made a new journal. Woopee.

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