I HATE THIS STATE!
I finally have something to bitch and complain about that is worth my time.

So I went to take my road test today. I was nervous all day long and I had a nice migrane going for myself. My dad picked me up and we went to the test spot. Of course, the black guy come walking my way, you know, the real mean one everyone talks about. So he gets in my car and he asks for my 20 hour form. What 20 hour form? See, I never have recieved one of these forms nor have I been notified about needing a form. So this uptight asshole who has nothing else better to do then fail white kids tells me I cant take my road test without this form. Every other kid I know had gotten a form from the test taker and moved on into their test but this man tells me that they "dont carry the forms." BULLSHIT! So I go home crying because this decently paid state employee, no better than I, man cant be a genuine human being. Anyone can forge a signiture or lie on this "important document" but it is manditory right? NO, It isnt even manditory because I was in Drivers Ed and over the age of 17. Stated right on this sheet of paper it states that a form is not nessesary if you fit those requirements. So I was totally scammed, my dad took off time from work for this bastard, and I have to do the same Goddamn thing on the 15th at 8:15 in the morning. Now, tell me...does that seem fair? My dad is going to call to try to get it sooner seeing how I got screwed over but knowing the DMV he wont be able to get through because they are a whole other bunch of assholes. Maybe we could go there and stand in a damn line for 3 hours and they will help us then....what do ya think? I swear, this state has some retarded leaders. Its bad when I have more common sense and am just plain more empathetic for the damn, filthy scum that live in this state. Thats a really bad sign.

So thats that.

GRAH!!!!!!!

BYE

Long time no write
Well...I havent written in a while mainly because I dont have much to say. I still dont today but sadly, I cant think of anything else better to do then maybe take a shower.

Yesturday Lauren and I were supposed to hang out but Im guessing she found something else better to do because she never called me. Its okay...im not as good as the rest of them anymore.

Sean is grounded all weekend so that ruins most of my plans.

So for the most part Im feeling pretty lonely lately. Thats fine...what can I expect?

Tonight (a friday night) I am working and it really sucks because I will be the only hostess on. That is pretty much insane. Oh well...It will keep me busy and I'll get some good hours.

I hate always complaining in here. I need to start finding good things to talk about.

Well, I'll go now.

BYE

What a bad day
Yes, a horrible day.

1) Sean was incredibly late to school this morning and we walked into each other yelling.
2) I had to go golfing in gym. It was rainy and cold. Luckily, we went in early.
3) People are annoying...duh
4) I had to go to a doctors appointment which was unbelievibly pointless.
5) Sean and I got stuck at Brooklyn because we are complete retards.
6) It is way too cold out for comfort.
7) Drivers Ed was too much thinking for today
8) etc.

On the up side, This weekend is going to be a lot of fun. Big Dip party...scary movie weekend...sociology experiment.

Should be good.

Well thats it

BYE

Honey, I'm Home
Florida was a good time. I stayed away from the people that bother me and I had fun. It was a beautiful weekend. Clear skies, 80 degrees. Today I got home and I got my 5 week report. I have a 90-100 in every class. So my dad took us out to Zebbs. I ate a lot. I have no choice but to go on a no eating diet. We'll see how long that lasts. I can at least ration myself.

Todays work schedule is pretty good.

Monday- 6
Wednesday- 5
Friday- 6
Sunday- 8:45

Tuesday Im going ciggerette shopping with Lauren.
Friday night is the Big Dip Party so that will be fun.
Then the rest of the weekend belongs to whoever claims it.

I guess I have nothing else to say now.

BYE

<3 half days
Im going to Florida on Thursday so I must say all of our prior engagments must be called off...ohhh yeah...thats right...I have none. In fact, I dont remember the last time that I did anything with anyone. Talk about being forgotten about!
Oh well...its over rated.

Anyways...Like I was saying before I went into a thing. Im going to a wedding in Florida on Thursday and I am coming home on Sunday. Im not really looking forward to it but whatever.

Today was good.

Yeah...thats as deep as I am today.

BYE

Foggy Windows
Yeah, my windows are foggy.

So I havent written in a long time, once again. If I felt like it was an issue Id do something but it doesnt matter.

Things are looking a little up and a little down. Work isnt that bad. Im going ciggerette shopping with Lauren on Monday and Wednesday and that will be good seeing how I havent talked to her in a really long time. Im going to Florida on thursday morning for the weekend. That has potential to blow the big one. I mean...I love florida but I never have good experiences when Im stuck in a hotel room with my mom and dad. Or a plane...the plane could be worse than the hotel. Maybe I'll be able to stay with my cousin.

So yeah.

Today Im going to go find a dress for the wedding. I like getting dressed up for occasions so that will be ok unless my mom and I start up.

Well Im going.

BYE

A little bit lonely

Ever feel like maybe youve got no one anymore. I dont mean Sean. I mean those other people...like my friends. Im so unimportant now. Do you guys remember when I was important. Yeah, we had fun and stuff...now Im on the outside of the picture, there for when we brush sides in the hall or whatever. Yeah, whatever.

So this week was pure hell in every aspect. I had a teacher violate my rights and degrade my feelings. I felt extremely lonely. I worked my ass off which is continuing into the weekend. I was tired, grumpy and sick. You get the idea.

No one even reads this anymore. Maybe because I never do anything so I never right about anything...or maybe because they dont care.

I'll tell you about my dream.

So first I was somewhere with someone and I was driving. I was pulling out and I watched these kids get hit by the truck on their bikes. I freaked out and called 911 and the kids just got up and walked away. So then I was with Colin and we were on a playground with these little kids. One kid on the ground fell and hurt himself and Colin jumped off and tried catching this little girl but they both fell and hurt themselves. So there were 3 people hurt. Afterwards Colin was in a wheel chair and his face was all swolen. So then I was with my dad and we were driving near Great Northern and the road turned into a different road that you went 60 down and it was really windy and downhill. So then it turned into water and we were in a boat. Our boat sank and this girl from school was there making fun of me. She was saying I was really annoying. She went to hit me and I started beating her up with an icecream scoop. I wasnt like bashing her with it but I was like tapping her in the nose and forehead with it until her eyes were watering really bad and she started crying. Then I was in NYC and I was with this lady who was hated there so we were trying to leave and the only way out was to climb this huge sand dune thing. I made it up and this guy started fighting another one and his mouth was all bloody. And that was it!

Work soon...buh

BYE

I think Im having a heart attack

I have a pain in my heart...I dont mean that corny "you hurt my feelings and my heart is broken" feeling...I mean my heart has a piercing pain. Im too young for this!

So Im really hyper and I dont really have a reason to be so its weird.

This week was gay and stuff.

This morning I went out driving with my dad. I pumped and payed for my own gas. Then I worked at Fresnos which actually went well.

I got home and found out that my car has a gas leak. Isnt that just awEsome?! I knew I was saving money for something! Yeah...

So want my wonderful list of events for next week??? Ehh...want em?! Ok here it goes...

M. Drivers Ed 3-4:30 Big Dip 4:30-cl
T. Drivers Ed 5-6:30
W. Drivers Ed 3-4:30 Big Dip 7-cl
Th. Drivers Ed 5-6:30 Big Dip 7-cl
F. Drivers Ed 5-6:30 Fresnos 5-cl
S. Fresnos 10:45-? Big Dip 4:30-cl
Sn. Fresnos 8:45-2ish

busy busy busy...and it would almost matter if I had better things to do...which I dont


Anyone want to take the SATs for me next weekend??? Or maybe apply to colleges for me? I dont feel like stressing out...nope not at all.


Im alll done!

BYE