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loserxdork

:: 2004 18 April :: 10.50am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: kiss me deadly



daniellie says fuck you this is friends only bitch

comment to be added - if you even care :(

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loserxdork

:: 2004 18 April :: 10.03am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: biohazard- shades of grey

quiz thingy & 4/18
Pick a band and answer only using that band's song titles:
Pantera

1. Are you male or female?
daughters of the queen

2. Describe yourself:
fucking hostile

3. How do some people feel about you?:
proud to be loud


4. How do you feel about yourself?:
im broken


5. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend/interest:
we'll grind that axe for a long time


6. Where would you rather be?:
the southern trendkill


7. Describe what you want to be:
regular people

8. Describe how you live:
good friends and a bottle of pills

9. Describe how you love:
13 steps to nowhere

10. Share a few words of wisdom:
strength beyond strength

->soo last night was nothing really. my mom went to a party so i had the house to myself (besides my sisters) but they didn't care what the hell went on. so i invited a bunch of people over [[leigh,cassidy,paris,leslie,val, kristi,tom,rob,andrew,greg,mark,mike,and john]] and we hung out. thennnn we called my beloved casey kaylin (who is like an older brother to me) to get us alcohol so casey went out and bought us 151 and O and we took shots. we were all drunk off our asses. everyone went home around 1:30? and then leigh,cassidy,and val slept over. we were calling people and fucking with their heads - haha it was soooo funny. soo val was being a slut and telling guys to come over so that she can give them head *VAL YOUR NOT A FUCKING SLUTBAG* - stop. soo then i called emilio and told him im not a virgin anymore and he told me he had to fuck me now - lolll. even though he has a girlfriend , wtf? now i know he probably did cheat on me. oh well. well, today im going to visit my grandma in the nursing home. she is coming home tuesday!<3 ahhh im sooo happy :) well, i hope everyone has a good day.

i<3derek

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loserxdork

:: 2004 17 April :: 7.14pm
:: Mood: yucky
:: Music: korn

i _____ Marissa.
Marissa is _____.
when i think of Marissa, i think of _____.
if i were alone in a room with Marissa, i would _____.
i think Marissa should _____.
Marissa needs _____.
when I see Marissa I_____.
without Marissa i(d) _____.
i want to _____ Marissa.
the worst thing about Marissa is _____.
the best thing about Marissa is _____.
i am _____ with Marissa.
the one and only word to describe Marissa is ______.

fill it out please.

->leigh and cassidy are here and we're babysitting my sisters. we are going out later if someone calls us! we're bored :-/


::edit:: THIS is how bored i am!
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I adopted a cute lil' monkey fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

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loserxdork

:: 2004 17 April :: 10.22am
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: none

bored
i n f o r m a t i o n
1. name: marissa
2. single or taken: single but i want him <3
3. sex: female
4. birthday: november 16th
5. sign: scorpio
6. siblings: nikki and alexis
7. hair color: brown with blonde highlights
8. eye color: hazel i guess
9. shoe size: anywhere from a - and 8 and a half
10. height: 4'11" and lovin it
11. favorite foods: fries,buffalo pizza,toaster strudel
12. hometown: im from bellmore but i live in east rockaway now

r e l a t i o n s h i p
1. who are your best friends?: sammi,jaymes,jenn,timmy
2. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope :(
3. did you send this to your crush?: nope, but im putting it in my journals
4. did your crush send this to you?: nah im stealing it from cristans journal
5. longest relationship?: a year, with bacci (on and off)
6. how many actual relationships have you been in?: 5 or 6
7. how many people have you kissed?: none of your freakin business
8. are you shy around your crush?: not at all
9. do you indulge in random hook-ups?: i have in the past but im done with that
10. still have feelings for any person you were in a relationhip with?: yeah, joey
11. do you know what it feels like to be in love?: yes i do
12. would you sacrifice your favorite possession for your
best friends?: duh

f a s h i o n | s t u f f
1. where is your favorite place to shop: um pac sun & thrift stores
2. have any tattoos or piercings?: 1 in each ear
3. what is your favorite thing to wear?: jeans,pyramid and skull belt,any red shirt
4. what is a must have accessory?: nothing
5. how much is the most you've ever spent on a single item of clothing?: $95 dollars for shoes $60 dollars on a steve madden jacket
7. who is the most fashionable person you know?: ummm samm
8. who is the least fashionable person you know?:i'd have to say dina
9. do you match your belt with your hair color?: uh no
10. what is the worst thing you've ever thought looked good?: hmm idk
11. what are you wearing right now?: black pants,wife beater,black tanktop,blue and green striped thong
13.what is the worst trend you see today?: i don't like the 'so lows' or however you spell it

s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs?: i have
2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: dandruff shampoo-just in case
3. what are you most scared of?: heights and bugs
4. what are you listening to right now?: nothing
5. who is the last person that called you?: sherri
6. where do you want to get married?: no clue
7. how many buddies are online right now?: 58
8. what would you change about yourself?: nothing
9. what are essentials in your life?: friends,music,pretty thrift shop clothes,antique stores
10. if you had the power to do any one thing, what would it be? see through clothes :-P
11. what nationality are you?: russian baby
12. do you send out holiday cards each year?: nahh

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
1. given someone a bath? i gave my cat a shower
3. bungee jumped?: no
4. made yourself throw up?: no
5. skinny dipped?: yup
6. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: haha guilty
7. cried when someone died?: yes
8. fallen for your best friend?: no no, never
9. been rejected?: um no
10. rejected someone?:yupp
11. used someone?: yeah :(

c u r r e n t
1. hair: down and straight
2. music: none
3. make-up: none
4. annoyance: my sisters
5. scent: nadaa
6. favorite artist: idk
8. desktop picture: it says 'shorty' hah
9. book you're reading: frank mccourt
10. cd in player: coheed and cambria -- no clue
11. dvd in player: none
12. color of toenails: regular?

im bored. leigh and cassidy are here...rawr

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 16 April :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: horny
:: Music: story of the year

bunch of things cause im bored
What Makes You Sexy? by eva71
Name/NickName
Gender
Sexy Body Part IsEverything
Special Talents AreLooking Innocent
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!


Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn
Your Name
You Are A:Classic Rocker
Your Favorite Band/SongBritney Spears - Slave 4 U
You Like To Read:The backs of cereal boxes
You Firmly Believe In:Nudity
Everyone Thinks You Are:An easy fuck
You Were Conceived:On accident
You Will Marry:A street-corner pimp
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!


Your Sexual Profile (you sexual deviant you...) by sparkledee
Name
Your Secret Kink ThingYou spank with a wooden spoon
Your Sexual StrengthYou break beds. Often. *grin*
Your Sexual WeaknessYour freaky noises during sex
Your Likely STDGenital Herpes
How Many Partners in Crime?3
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!


can you tell im bored? i need to do something!

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loserxdork

:: 2004 14 April :: 11.52pm
:: Mood: horny
:: Music: led zepplin

fun day
well, today was good after i got out of school. i gave nicole a ride home and then my mom took my to ruby tuesdays to get something to eat since i hadnt eaten all day. after that we went to pet smart and got my cat some catnip and then we went to bed bath and beyond. i got :

1.a whole new bed set
2.a box of the jelly belly chocolate candys and
3.2 boxes of sour apple altoids.

after that we went over to marshalls and i got:

1.a pretty skirt
2.a short slutty skirt
3.this adorable tube top
4.a fubu zip up sweatshirt that was normally $108 dollars but reduced to $18.
and thats basically it.

THEN i went to see my mentor and we talked and blah blah and then i went to national wholesale liquidators. there i got:

1.3 thongs & 1 pair of boy shorts
2.cool sheets and teddy grahmn sheets :-P
3.a hamper

i got soo much stuff today and i had fun :)

derek got his phone and computer taken away :-/

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loserxdork

:: 2004 14 April :: 11.47am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: bleeding through

in school
im in school and im bored, its lunch and i feel like shit

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 13 April :: 12.32pm
:: Mood: loserish
:: Music: eh, nothing.

i cant believe myself!
i can't believe that i actually forgot to tell everyone that i picked up daniellie too when i picked up leigh! aww i looove her

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 13 April :: 12.16pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: the ramones

not a bad night
soo last night i went to fridays to dinner with my mom and then she took me to sherri's and sherris dad took me,sherri,and doug to the club. we stood out in the rain for like 5 minutes and my hair got SO MESSED UP! well, we got in the club and guess who i saw? emilio! lol, he ignored me and i got really really pissed. THEN i saw sam who i haven't seen in a longgg ass time because she went to kellenberg :-/ aww. i also saw some girl who i go to school with. then when i was standing on a speaker some kid tapped me on the shoulder and was like 'my friends wants to dance with you' and i was like 'nahh' and they were really annoying! ughhh. then they opened the VIP room and it was really cool. they had a hot tub filled with pillows and me doug and sherri sat in there. we started getting bored so we left and walked to the gas station where i proceded to call [brian & rich and leave derek a message]. the guy started staring at us so we walked over to some closed nail place and stood there. i called [matt] because i was bored. my mom came and picked us up and while we were going to drop sherri & doug off derek<3 called me back. we talked for a while. after i dropped sherri & doug off we picked up leigh and i hung out with her. now im with leigh and we are going to get ready and then wait for rob & tom.

i<3dereksofreakingmuch!

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 13 April :: 9.23am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: fallout boy

im not a sexual person after all!
HASH(0x8aa5790)
My outercourse activity is snuggling!


Which Sexual Outercourse Act Are You? (with pictures)
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exactly, i'd rather cuddle than anything

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 12 April :: 2.46pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: bleeding through

just when i thought he couldn't get more amazing
he surprises me...YET AGAIN.

x silver skullz: well, thats just the way i feel...idk i feel so unsuperior
x silver skullz: like a piece of shit
dmbmustang8766: inferior?
dmbmustang8766: dont feel that way
dmbmustang8766: cuz ur not
x silver skullz: well, i do
dmbmustang8766: u shuldnt
x silver skullz: i dont know why i do
dmbmustang8766: :-\
x silver skullz: your just amazing, you really are
dmbmustang8766: aww
dmbmustang8766: im really not though
x silver skullz: more than any guy i've ever met...
x silver skullz: no you really are
dmbmustang8766: :-\
x silver skullz: i mean please, i've gone out with SO MANY guys and none of them have EVER asked to kiss me
x silver skullz: your just...amazing, really.
dmbmustang8766: egh, i just didnt wana get slapped or somethin
dmbmustang8766: i dont think so, but thanx
x silver skullz: whatever, thats what i think
dmbmustang8766: u still shuldnt feel that way though
x silver skullz: but i do, and i was just scared that you were never going to talk to me again
x silver skullz: or hang out with me for that matter
dmbmustang8766: no,
dmbmustang8766: actually
dmbmustang8766: i was worried bout u on the train
dmbmustang8766: cuz u didnt come online
dmbmustang8766: n u didnt cal bak
x silver skullz: and to be completely honest i like you ... a lot
dmbmustang8766: <3
x silver skullz: :-[
dmbmustang8766: aw
x silver skullz: :-'
x silver skullz: *:-\
dmbmustang8766: dont make that face lol, i <3 u
x silver skullz: and honestly, i know its not what you want right now but i could picture myself being with no one but you.
dmbmustang8766: awwww
x silver skullz: :-X
dmbmustang8766: awww. nonono i like u. . . hunn i rele gota get off though, il def ttu 2moro
dmbmustang8766: 2moro
dmbmustang8766: i mean later
dmbmustang8766: lol
dmbmustang8766: <333 mwaaa ilu
x silver skullz: ok ttyl xo mwa <3

...he is the most amazing thing in the world

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 12 April :: 11.30am

bored, going out tonight
well alcohol
You're addicted to.....

Alcohol!
Mmmmmmm, Mmmmmm, Bitch! I like you, alcohol is one
of the better things to be addicted to. The
only bad part is it makes you feel like doing
nothing and the next morning you get a terrible
hangover.


What are you addicted to? (pics!)
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this is for my boredom.

->im going to sherris around 7 and her dad is driving us to the club (2686) kim is asking her boyfriend if he wants to go. i miss her and i wanna see her!!! well, my mom is picking me up around 11:30. next weekend maybe i'll hang out and drink with brian and a couple of people and i might hang out with derek (aw i <3 him) well, i dont know what else to write because there is nothing. hopefully i'll convince my mom to take me shopping to buy a shirt for tonight because i dont have one to wear. im gonna ask brian to come to the club tonight and my mom will give him a ride home. well, bye bye kiddies :)

[[iheartderekwithallofmyheart<3]]

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 11 April :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: a static lullaby - lipgloss and letdown

quiz cause im bored..what now?
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::: Marissa Leigh
Birthplace ::: Oceanside, NY
Age ::: 15
Age you act ::: pretty old, not really sure
Current location ::: East 'Cock'away, NY
Eye color ::: hazely
Hair color ::: broawn with blonde highlights
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: righty
Zodiac sign? ::: scorpio
Height? ::: 4'11"
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::: Russian
Your hair ::: long and straight
Your fears ::: spiders and heights
Your perfect room ::: red walls,lots of leopard and band posters
What you practically do in a day ::: go to school,eat,online,phone
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::: aww,lol
Phrases you overuse ::: fuck you
Your first thought when you wake up ::: grrr i have to get through this day
Your greatest accomplishment ::: who knows?
Something you want to do ::: be with him <3
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::: coke
McDonald's or Burger King ::: mcdonalds
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: christina aguilera
Chocolate or vanilla :: chocolate
Adidas or Nike ::: adidas
Black or white ::: black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: bills - DUH
Burgers or hot dogs ::: burgers
Egypt or France ::: hmm france
Rock or rap ::: rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::: used to - haven't had a cigg in like a month!
Cuss ::: yupps
Sing well ::: eh
Sing in the shower ::: yeah *blush*
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: hmm mayyybe
Believe in yourself ::: not usually
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: when im bored, yeah
Play an instrument ::: none, i used to play clarinet
Want to go to college? ::: yes i do
Want to get married? ::: yeah
Want to have children ::: i wanna adopt
Think you're a health freak? ::: not at all
Get along with your parents ::: my mom most of the time
Get along with your siblings? ::: nahh
Think you're popular ::: no, im not nor do i want to be
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::: mmm no
Drank alchohol ::: yes
Smoke ::: no but i wish :(
Get high ::: nah
Done any drugs ::: nopeeeee
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: never have
Been on stage ::: nope
Gone skinny dipping ::: nah
Been dumped ::: nope
Dyed your hair ::: not in the past month
Stolen anything ::: nope
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::: scutch
Loudest ::: jenn
Most shy ::: lauryn
Blondest ::: .. sammi
Smartest ::: jaymes
Kindest ::: timmy
Best personality ::: thats gotta be krystyn
Most talented ::: jenn - DEFF
Best singer ::: jenn, haha
Most ghetto ::: christal/jaymes
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: paris
Pain in the ass ::: grrrr andrew
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: lol deff leslie
Funniest ::: jessyca
Best person for advice ::: sherri,sammi
Dependable ::: jaymes,tim,sal
Trustworthy ::: jaymes
Druggie ::: josh
Most likely to end up in jail ::: josh
Person you've known the longest ::: sammi/jaymes
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::: i dont remember
Last nightmare ::: .. i dont know
Car ride ::: to the rockville center train station
Last time you cried ::: yesterday, when i banged my head on the wall
Last movie seen ::: the whole 10 yards
Last movie rented ::: bring it on....AGAIN
Last book read ::: Frank McCourt
Last word said ::: shut up
Last curse word said ::: fuck
Last time you laughed ::: friday with derek
Last phone call ::: my mom
Last CD played ::: switchfoot
Last song you listened to ::: idk number 5 on the switchfoot CD
Last annoyance ::: haha my sister
Last IM ::: Roberto
Last weird encounter ::: umm idk
Last person you hugged ::: derek <3
Last person you yelled at ::: my sister
Last time you wore a skirt ::: ummm i dont remember
Last time you've been evil ::: always
Sarcastic? ::: ummm i am sarcastic all the time
Last time you fought with your parents ::: today
Last time you wished upon a star ::: i dont ever anymore
Played Truth or Dare ::: in like 6th grade?
Spent quality time alone ::: right now
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: yes
Do you feel lonely ::: ehh sometimes
Ever TP'd someone's house ::: no, its pathetic and ridiculous
How about egging someone's house ::: nahh, stupid.
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: ah, im scared- what?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: nope...
Yo Momma ::: STOP IT BITCH!
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: ummm not really
What do you think of George Bush? ::: asshole.
Any secret fetishes? ::: yupp ;)
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: hehe..maybe
How many languages do you speak? ::: uh 1!
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::: nahh
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you XP)) ::: darn :-/ lol jp

i was bored. i might go visit my grandma today but im not sure. i wanna go shopping. i wanna go to the club tomorrow but im not sure if im going to be allowed to. shit, i fucking hate easter because i have nothing to do because im jewish ahh oh well.

derekisasexyfuckingmofo<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 11 April :: 9.45am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: lamb of gd

im so nice!
well, i decided that since im so nice if anyone needs me to pay the $2 so that they can keep their journal i will - if you've been nice to me and you continue to comment :) i figured i have 10 spare dollars so i have to pay for myself and thats 8 so that leaves me with money enough to pay for 4 people.

->comment if you would like me to pay for you :)

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 10 April :: 3.45pm
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: unearth

wow, im a loser this is my 3rd time updating today :-X ahh its ok, i hope that you all are enjoying these journal entries. (im bored):

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i took all the sex quizzes, lol :) iheartderek<3

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