So maybe this time, I'll speak the words of life, with your fire in my eyes, but that old familiar fear is tearing at my words. What am I afraid of?

 

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eddy

:: 2007 1 December :: 8.44am

I saw the most ungodly beautiful sunrise on my way home from work this morning. I say 'ungodly' because it was actually pretty foreboding in a way. Even a bit malignant. The sun itself had a beam of red light that shot straight up into the sky, like some weird searchlight, and the clouds around it were just bathed in deep red, though it got lighter and more orange as time passed.
All I could think about was how much I wanted my camera right then. Sometimes I wish it were much more portable. =(

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eddy

:: 2007 30 November :: 8.12am


I ate my first snow of the season this morning. =]

It tasted just like all the others.

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eddy

:: 2007 29 November :: 10.18am
:: Music: Muse

Okay, so I was driving down the road the other day when we actually had sunlight. And I saw my sunglasses laying there and thought I should wear them. So I put them on and I think, "Wow, these are fitting kind of wierd, I think someone sat on/kicked/stepped on, or otherwise maimed them in some fashion." (Yes I really think like that) and I just keep going for a while longer, then I notice they have a couple scratches on the lenses that make it annoying to look out of. So then I think, "Shit, these are like almost brand new, now I'm angry." And so I start looking at the scratches, and then I start looking at the rest of the sunglasses more critically, and I stop, and a realization hits me. "Hey, these aren't mine."

And so...the moral of the story is...I have someone's sunglasses in my car. So....If you are missing some sunglasses then let me know =]
And If you haven't been in my car in the past month or so... I know they're not yours. =]

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holiday

:: 2007 8 November :: 1.12am

Yep I still check this from time to time
Wow it's been a long time since I posted. Let's see....what's up with my life...
Caleb turned a year old on Oct. 26! Yay. He had his doctor appt on Tuesday. Stats when he was born: 6 lb 10 oz, 19 in long.
Stats when he was a year old: 22 lb, 32 in long

He is soooooo tall! Seriously, he's in the 97% ! He's 97% taller than all other 1 year olds! The doctor said with his height he's the size of a normal 17-month old. But his weight is just normal.

Carazy. This year has gone so fast. I am in my 3rd year at GRCC still no sign of graduating anytime soon. ha. Still cookin up good things all the time. Not working right now, just a stay at home mommy. Charlie and I are doing great. We're living in Wyoming right now, but we might be moving to Traverse City in the next couple years. It's sad I don't really have much to write about after all this time. Except Caleb, he's wonderful.
He's brought so much to my life, I love him so much.

Anywho I need my beauty sleep, HA! Nah, I have a date in the morning with a little boy to watch Clifford cartoons!

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eddy

:: 2007 31 October :: 10.20am


Song or Suicide

Sorrow rebuild me as I step out of the light
Misery strengthen me as I say my goodbyes

I heal my wounds with grief
And dream of you
And weep myself alive

Sleepwalking Past Hope

I hid the keys to unlock love's heart
To hold you in my sweetest pain and suffering
Everything's unfair in our lust and war
Redemption beyond right and wrong

In our hearts love keeps sweet-talking to despair
And goes on sleepwalking past hope
All is lost in this war
And all we can do is to wail and weep to the saddest song
Sleepwalking past hope

I unlit the light to embrace the dark
To be near but not to turn into you my darling
Forever we're lost in our souls' storm
Reflections of each other's faults

I gave up long ago
Painting love with crimson flow
Ran out of blood and hope
So I paint you no more


My hell begins from the 10th and descends to the circle
Six hundred threescore and six
And from there I crawl beneath Lucifer's claws just for one last kiss

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eddy

:: 2007 30 October :: 10.35am

I've decided I can't do art anymore.
Not...straight art anyway. Like..drawing and painting and such. I can't help but feel creative in most things. But as for just plain drawing, I don't think I can do it anymore.

And I've also decided that I'm going to give up on almost everything. Except for pure friendship. And see where I will end up.

I hold on to too much pointlessness...

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eddy

:: 2007 30 October :: 8.37am
:: Music: Daniel Lioney


Who knew celebrities had their own myspaces? Like, for reals.

They're hard to find, but they're out there.

=]

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eddy

:: 2007 27 October :: 5.16pm

HIM
Well, as Addison has given the analytical view, I will give the fun, fan view. =P

Well, I made it, there were quite a few times where I didn't think I'd be able to. about 30 hours without sleep, plus about a gazillion cigarette's worth of smoke making me sick to my stomach. I made it through the whole show okay. =]

The lights went dark, and Linde starts playing. for about 30 seconds....
Then finally, the lights come on, and Gas, Mige, and Burton join in. And finally (honestly, I don't even know where he came from, he was just suddenly there =/ ) Ville comes out, and even better, with a giant smile on his face, like there was no where else he'd rather be right then. Thats a great impression to give, I think. It was contagious in any case. =]

And so they opened with "Passion's Killing Floor" and continued on through many of my favorites.

I was very impressed. I always knew they were fantastic live, from watching other live videos and hearing other people's recounts from shows they had been to. But when you're actually there yourself, it is so much different.

I literally had to force myself to stay awake, having gone nearly 30 hours without sleep, but I just couldn't miss it. At one point, I had to leave our spot up front, and at least make a pit stop to the bathroom, watching the rest of the show from the back, but it was all good. It was a small theatre, and you could still see them quite well from the back, and plus, you could really see all the guys at once, without having to try and peer over people's heads.

After the show, Erica comes up to me and says, "Eddy! Eddy, come here! Is that Bam!?!" Haha, sadly, it wasn't, he was a very good look-alike (intentional) and people were calling him 'Bam' but it wasn't. And plus he sounded nothing like him. I wish I had gotten a picture of him though. When Erica pointed him out to me, he looked at us, and it would have been a bit awkward for me to pull out my camera and take a picture I think.

Before the show, Mige came out, and was signing autographs, and taking pictures and what not. I was on the phone, and I'm a bit shy =/ so I kinda...didn't run up to him or anything (even though he was 5 feet away) and just continued in the line. I kind of felt bad, like I was ignoring him or something, lol. After the show we went and were waiting a little bit by the bus. When Mige was the first one out, and he had a small group gathering around him. Then he walked by us, and I was too damned shy to ask for a picture again. v_v There were some dumbasses there who kept, almost literally plastering themselves against the bus' door, and even one girl who opened the door and went to go inside. (she didn't realize there were already security people and whatnot in there) And even one girl who....was quite....disgustingly freaky. She had one of those liberty spikes-shaved head things going on, with fishnet panty hose, shiny red leather skirt, and even better...a fish net shirt. Completely fishnet shirt. She was wearing stickers if you know what I mean.
The security guard was getting super pissed at people, which I don't blame him. I think I would have too. XD At one point, the semi was backing up to the trailer of all their equipment, and was about 10 feet away from the trailer when a couple more dumbasses decided that that was enough room to run between a moving semi and the trailer it was trying to back up to.

At one point, a car drives by, and a guy sticks his head out the window, and asks what band had played that night. I say "HIM" and show him the flier I had in my hand. And he says "Ahhh, Bam Margera's Band" I'm like "Yeah.........................." Fuckin' tard. I like Bam, I do. But I hate when people think Bam brought HIM in to existence. True, many in America didn't know about HIM before Bam advertised them. But claiming that HIM is Bam's band....come on. Be a little more ignorant.

Anyway, after a bit of excitement of that sort, I started to feel even more nauseous, and decided I couldn't wait for Ville or the others to come out. And we started to head back to the car. I walked about 10 steps and seriously felt like throwing up, so I kneeled down on the ground, ready to do so. =/ That's when Linde came out and got on the bus. (no point to the story but I thought Id share that part =] ) So after about 4 or 5 mins of sitting on the ground, I felt alright to get back up and head to the car again. I didn't actually throw up, which I was glad for. A little ways on we heard the screams that meant that Ville had finally come out, and watched as the door of the bus became a giant mob of screaming girls. Honestly, with all he has, sometimes I really feel sorry for that man. (I know what some of you are thinking at this point, and fyi, no, I would not ><) So, I finally got to the car and we headed to Jessa's, (Thank you sooooooooooo much for letting us stay!!) Where I fell asleep within half an hour of walking in the door, and when Jessa decided she wanted to take pictures of me sleeping, apparently and persuaded Addison to do the same ><

When we got up, we specifically searched around Chicago for a Long John Silvers. =] It was fun! And we did eventually find it, so it was even better. At which point we decided it was time to go home. And so we did. Got home about 7:30 last night, where I slept, had to get up at 10 to go to work, got home this morning and slept til about 3. Which brings me to this point now. =]

I'm so ready to do it again.

Pictures!!

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eddy

:: 2007 24 October :: 9.45pm

I want one of these, but I think it would piss me off too much.

Watch the video!

Click Me

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eddy

:: 2007 24 October :: 10.12am

I'm Going Slightly Mad
For some strange reason he reminds me of John Brooks in this video.

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Click Me

I don't know what my sudden fascination with Freddie Mercury is today, but I was looking up photos, and came across this site here.

Good god, I just want to punch people like that in the face. What makes them think they are able to judge anyone?

EDIT: Damn, link isn't working for some reason. I'll just post the article here and cut it.

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eddy

:: 2007 20 October :: 4.35pm

Prepare to laugh. XD

Captain Planet

Kick ass.

EDIT:
Bloopers

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eddy

:: 2007 15 October :: 9.18pm


Who dreams about Napoleon Bonaparte wanting to get with them?

Me, apparently.

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eddy

:: 2007 1 October :: 8.24pm

Woo!

Once again I plan on going to a HIM concert. This time it seems that it will actually go through okay. But there are only two of us, and we both agree that it will be much more fun with more people, so please, if you'd like to go, let me know! It's in Chicago, on the 25th of this month. It's not expensive as it's only HIM. Tickets are $27.50 and of course there will be a couple other small expenses that will need to be taken care of, but we haven't calculated them yet, if you want to go, I'll let you know those when we find out.

Please, someone come with us! lol. =]

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eddy

:: 2007 30 September :: 8.40pm

The MonkeySpehere
Hehe, this was very entertaining, and also very eye opening. I suggest that everyone go read it.

MonkeySphere: Click Me!

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eddy

:: 2007 28 September :: 10.21am

Haha, that's great. I do a survey last night, and get up this morning to my friends lists containing no less than 5 more XD

Gotta love woohu!

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eddy

:: 2007 27 September :: 9.25pm
:: Music: Jewel

Ah, What the hell?

So your guy's friend lists are a bit shorter.... =]

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eddy

:: 2007 26 September :: 11.11am



HIM was on the radio last night.....that's.....wierd.....

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eddy

:: 2007 18 September :: 11.37am
:: Music: HIM

Venus Doom
Just for Tonight,
We'll keep on dancing, and the city won't tell a soul.

Just for tonight the lights are shining, and our secret stays untold.....



Venus Doom is out today!! YAY!

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eddy

:: 2007 13 September :: 7.04pm



Fuck you, life.

Fuck you.

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keltoesx

:: 2007 13 September :: 3.41pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Bright Eyes

I just have to tell the world and this is as close as I can get
I'm going to a Bright Eyes concert! That's right me at a Bright Eyes concert. Jealous much? haha. Floor seats and everything! I'm so excited!

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