Figuring Stuff Out

:: 2016 4 May :: 10.09pm

It is amazing what a difference two weeks can make, and if you succeeded, how dull and colorless my life would be.

:: 2016 1 May :: 6.20pm

Life is so beautiful.

:: 2016 17 March :: 8.18am
:: Music: Smashing Pumpkins

Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage.

:: 2015 11 December :: 6.14pm

I'm finding myself looking at pictures of people more and more. People in my life, people I used to know...
And they feel like ghosts. They don't feel real.

Maybe they were never really there at all.

:: 2015 25 November :: 10.42pm

Today is a beautiful day.
I miss Banana.
I'm happy.

:: 2015 10 September :: 9.50pm

In other news: It's only slander if it's not true.

:: 2015 11 June :: 4.10pm

Maybe I should write a break up poem with Spokane...

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:: 2015 30 May :: 12.09am

I fuck things up. That's all that I do. Just fuck things up.

:: 2015 18 May :: 4.59pm
:: Mood: hopeful

My friend posted this today:

Whatever holds you back: forgive yourself, let go, start over. It's always a new day.

Fuck yeah!

:: 2015 13 May :: 4.12pm

People make choices that are better for them in the end, they care little of the effect it has on someone else. I have and so have others. And I'm not going to stop living because someone has decided to not keep me in their life. If they really cared about me, they would have stuck around. Goodbye past, hello true present, I'm not quite ready for you, but you've been thrust upon me. How could I not have remembered the whole reason why I made this journal in the first place?

"Things change. And friends leave. And life doesn't stop for anybody."

:: 2015 12 April :: 3.12pm

Fuck today and the horse it road in on...

:: 2015 1 April :: 5.54pm

The best parts about woohu are:
1. Complete freedom to be yourself.
2. Small, supportive community of friends.
3. No adds.
4. Fast load time for lack of all that extra junk.
5. Able to be colorfully customized to your liking.

:: 2015 17 February :: 7.43am

Seriously... maybe I should just give up on that dream. Maybe I should just... let go and accept that it wasn't meant for me.

:: 2015 1 January :: 10.36pm

Time is so arbitrary.

Aging is not. Meat rocketships don't last forever. Fuck.

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:: 2014 7 December :: 12.51pm

I'm a shitty person.

:: 2014 18 November :: 10.57pm

Cause life is just a slew of throwback Thursdays and flashback Fridays.

:: 2014 14 November :: 10.22pm

Well the jerk store called - they're running out of you.

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:: 2014 18 October :: 3.25pm

If your man don't want to lick it, I volunteer as tribute. You niggas on them Hunger Games, I'm eating O's like onion rings.

:: 2014 25 September :: 12.47pm

I feel much better today ♥

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:: 2014 10 September :: 1.39am

I can't help it. My heart is my heart. It doesn't listen to my mind.

:: 2014 3 September :: 8.56pm

I think Autumn is my favorite season. Carving pumpkins, drinking cider, baking pies, wearing hoodies, seeing the leaves change color, costume parties, turkey dinners... I can't wait! I'll start with the fair on Friday!!

:: 2014 16 July :: 8.46pm

I am going to fucking rage-plode. All I want to do is punch you, really hard, in your stupid face.

:: 2014 29 May :: 11.41am

I used to hold him down. Now all I do is just suck his joy away.

:: 2014 25 May :: 10.03am

I want someone to call me darling. To show me affection in the way I need.

:: 2014 21 May :: 9.30am

You know all those people who go to college forever and ever and have a mountain of college debt that never gets paid and only goes away when they die of old, wise age?

Yeah, I want to be one of those people.

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:: 2014 10 May :: 10.38am

I'm sick of getting sick on alcohol. I'm going to refrain from drinking until I'm drinking with James. It's never as much fun without him.

:: 2014 6 May :: 12.57am

Hey here's the deal: when life gives you lemons, just say, "fuck the lemons" and bail.

:: 2014 23 April :: 8.40am

Feeling mega cuddle needs right meow. Only another week to wait. Blargh.

:: 2014 6 April :: 2.50pm

FML.